i cant. everywhere i turn his name is mentioned or brought up. Everything reminds me of him. everyone knows him. i try to seperate myself but i cant. I LITERALLY CANNOT FORGET YOU. I loved him so much. I LOVE him so much. if i saw him idk what id do. id break down sobing. id run up to him and jump on him. id slap him and curse at him and let him know how much he hurt me. how much he is hurting me. i cant breathe when i think about him. i see pictures with him and his new girl on fb, […]
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Heart And Soul
Rip currents choking me constantly. No matter the amount of pot smoked, or the amount of Prozac consumed. Torturous and stabbing thoughts barge into my mind and kill the newborn happiness and peace with their burning hot swords. The pain is sour, hot, liquid fire. It erodes the walls of my mind that act as a nursery to the best parts of me; the healthy parts of me. Trying with all of it’s might not to tumble over and lose the battle, the walls of my mind rattle and shake to stay erect and guard over my inner happiness. It sends shock waves down my […]
Im New So I was Thinking Of Killing My Self But I Did Not Cuz Of My Girlfriend That Starts With The S She Was Going to Brake Up With Me cuz Im Jelly All time cuz of what Happen To Me on My Other Relation Ship I was Being Cheat On And So I thought i Might Get Cheat On Agen And I dont Want That So My Girlfriend Gave Me One Last Chance So I Must Not Make A Error On This Cuz i might Lose Her She Means A Lot to me Cuz We Did Some Stuff and She Made me a […]
its snowing here…
and its snowing in my head i can no longer stand it i wnt kill myself because i cant…
its painful my mum threatens to put me into care just because she cnt deal with being a mother..
even when i dnt shout she doesnt listen..
a normal parent takes you away from your siblings and calmly talks to you..
but no she shoutes abuse and swears and emotionally abuses my heart and soul..
im scarred ..as for my sisters….ones my step sister i thought we wud get along and we do but she doesnt care no matter how much i stand up for her she never ever […]
I find myself wishing I wasn’t born.
I find myself widhing that someone would look at me and see the pain i am because I cant bring myself to tell them.
I want everyone to realize I am not the bitchy sarcastic person they think I am, I use it to hide..
Why do bad things happen to those so young and full of life, Why do they come in and stomp the joy out of us killing all hope, love and joy.
The day get worse despite the promise of “It gets Better”.
My heart and soul aches and I don’t know what to do…
So many countless times I have thought about killing myself.I wrote suicide letters after everytime I think about it. I have attempted it a couple of times but then I chicken out. I’m scared of death. I don’t know what Is going to happen to me. I wish I could be dead for a couple of seconds then come Back to see what death is and if I’m able to see things again. Will I see eternal darkness, will I be stuck in a happy dream? Or will I be reincarnated as someone or something else?
I used to think that being scared of death right […]
hello my name is stan,im a 18 yearold highschool student, the thing that ment the most to me in my life was taken away monday , my gf or i guess you could say ex gf (whos name will not be said) she was killed in a car accident by a drunk driver in the rain at around 10 pm we were dateing since 5th grade we were both seniors. she was the love of my life we were engaged i was gonna marry this amazing beautiful women she helped me with everything she made me who i am today when ever i was doing […]
That a lot of you on here are absolutely amazing and talented people. I find it extremely strange that all of you have knack for stylistic writing. Have you seen how beautiful you write? The way you describe your shattered hopes and your distant dreams. It is so heartbreaking the way you guys describe it in an eerie yet beautiful poetic way. I think that you merely writing about how horrible and hard life has been is something that should help you persevere, as that is how I am beginning to feel. When you guys write on here, I can feel your pain, and it […]
I feel empty. I thought I could be happy for a least a couple years before another tragedy came my way; but I
guess I was wrong. Five years ago on November of 2007 was the one month of my life where i was truely and completly happy.
I had my family, health, love, and my first love. Everything was great until December when my youngest sister passed away
caused of a drunk driver. From that day until today I wish it had been me instead of her. My family went through dark times. The day
of the accident, an hour before the events I […]
Tonight is the night my dreams come true. If I cannot have the woman I love, I cannot have anything. My plan no longer matters. I have a rough combination and can handle the pain, cause nothing, and I do mean NOTHING, can rival the pain she has put me through the last year. And still I love her with all my mind, body, heart and soul. This will obviously be my final posting. Mythological creatures don’t die, right? They live on forever. This Siren is about to disprove that mythological belief. I just can’t do it anymore. Not even time for the Siren’s final […]
Poem and how I’m feeling
I log on to my pc
I built it with my own hands and money
I see the backdrop of a starry sky and moon
In my ear I have a music box tune running
And tears are trying to flood into the room
A simple child’s song that brings out memories I wish I had
Each little tinkle, trickle and bom
A music box, xylophone, a trumpet and an instrument unknown
From innocence it sends me
Unto the darker strokes that bring the sadness to the fore
It highlights a lot of inconsistencies
And points out a lot of hard choices I’ve had […]
Words have the meaning you put to them
Well I choose to make room for them
In my head heart and soul
I believe them to be true
But as my head well knows
Most people never show
The meanig behind their cruel words
For jokes, for laughs, for a moment of fun
They’ll go out of their way in their very busy day to make fun
Of my looks, of my beliefs, of my intelligence
Now, I know a few people who say that these lies are purely that
Lies that are told from someones fat ass
But I take them to heart
And that’s when I […]
Dear Friends,
I want to tell you that I love you. I love you all so much. If you think I’m talking to you, I am. If you think I’m not talking to you, I am. I am not fazed by the mistakes you’ve made, the errors you’ve dealt, the selfish or humiliating or hopeless things you’ve done. I am indifferent to your age, your gender, your hair color, your battle scars. I love you with the purest, most earnest compassion I can summon. I know that we’re all so lost and afraid… I am so lost and so very afraid. But no matter how lost […]
I was never considered pretty, never thought of as a beautiful young lady. Or a truely happy one for that matter. But everything changed when I met “him”. I can’t say he caused this aching dead feeling I have right now, because it was well before that it started, But he never helped. We went out for nearly 3 months. And I was really into him, I did most of my “firsts” with him. Including loosing my virginity, which people may consider I was a slag because I was only 12. But I loved him, and I thought he loved me. People will say “you don’t […]