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Am I completely insane?

by plum 4/15/2014

written by plum

I’ve attempted to overdose on many different things.. Last night I tried to overdose on what was left of my 200mg seraquel… When I awoke I couldn’t move my body, I couldn’t talk, I couldn’t function… My dad came over to bring me food and had seen what I had done.. I reminded him of my aunty, she committed suicide a few years ago.. He kicked me to the ground.. My boyfriend abused me for the pathetic attempt. Something wants me to be alive, and slowly suffer..Â

I know im a pathetic person, I know I’m mental, I know I’m manipulative, im […]

4/15/2014 1 comment

Should I break up with her before I leave?

by amity 4/10/2014

written by amity

I decided to off myself some time ago, but in the middle of getting everything arranged (will, notes to people left behind, etc.), I rekindled a love with a wonderful girl I met my freshman year of college (5 years ago at this point). Â I was so fascinated and enthralled with her that I thought, maybe, somehow, this is what I’ve needed. Â Something healthy and fulfilling after years of miserable, abusive, horrid intimate relationships. Â So, I put everything off.

Afterwards, I was happy, really happy for a spell, and every part of me was distracted by her. Â Even when bad feelings came, I knew I had […]

4/10/2014 16 comments

Baby steps are still steps

by karakkaas 2/19/2014

written by karakkaas

Getting better is a long journey. I woke up and the first thing I told myself is that I wouldn’t die today. I decided to set daily goals. Small things, baby steps.

I’m scared, I feel like if anyone got close they could actually smell the sadness emanating from my pores. I’m anxious and insecure. But I will fight this. I will not let my emotions take control over me.

I went for my weekly doctor’s yesterday as I mentioned in my previous postÂ Â http://suicideproject.org/2014/02/anywhere-but-not-there/. She was very weary of letting me stay home as I had put myself in a […]

2/19/2014 1 comment

Thirsty

by TheGlassChild 2/17/2014

written by TheGlassChild

This isn’t really how I feel NOW, but I wrote that earlier this week ’cause this is something I do a lot :

Bath time was over. It was enough. So I pulled the bathtub plug. Then the water started to go away, slowly. I didnâ€™t really want this bath to end, so I stayed there waiting for the water to vanish. Then I started thinking about you. About how it was over and that I didnâ€™t really want it to end. When the water was leaving me, I felt as insecure as I was when you first started to walk away. At first, it was […]

2/17/2014 8 comments

What happened?

by mm9 8/26/2013

written by mm9

To that little girl, smiling from ear to ear, with no worries on her mind and no demons in her head? Where’s the girl whose smile would light up a room, who laughed like there was no tomorrow, who would spend hours jumping in the rain, where’s the girl who enjoyed life?

What happened to me, what’s wrong with me? Now I am waiting to die, every second of every day just waiting. I’ve been waiting for 4 years now, when will it finally come to an end?

“When you grow up, your heart dies.”-The Breakfast Club.

8/26/2013 3 comments

i want to disappear

by imlostatsea 6/23/2013

written by imlostatsea

nobody really knows what I feel like inside. I am in therapy and medication but I still don’t feel good. I cut just to release what I am feeling inside. some people have seen the scars but they will never understand. I lost many people in my life and the only thing keeping me going is bands. I have bad social anxiety and I can’t stand others seeing my ugly face. some people at school tease me but that is only to impress their friends. I truly hate myself. every feature about me. my nose, my hands. my back, my elbows, my chin, my cheeks, […]

6/23/2013 2 comments

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