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hi i guess

by i_f33l_s0_l0st 5/15/2024

written by i_f33l_s0_l0st

hi. i’m i_f33l_s0_l0st, but you can call me jinx if you like. or just j. i use they/them pronouns, i suppose. i’m afab non-binary and queer. i don’t really know why any of this matters, but it does, i guess.

here’s a fun little list of my mental issues in alphabetical order for your convenience:

attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD)
autism spectrum disorder
body dysmorphia
depression
eating disorder not otherwise specified (EDNOS)
gender dysphoria
generalized anxiety disorder (GAD)
intrusive thoughts
obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD)
self harm tendencies (SH)
social anxiety
suicidal ideation

wasn’t that so fun? just positively thrilling?

anyways feel free to vent in the comments i love hearing about other peoples’ trauma as opposed to mine (:

5/15/2024 0 comment

Proper introduction

by Grimhild 6/17/2021

written by Grimhild

My first post wasn’t much of an intro, I really just needed somewhere to scream a bit. Lemme do this again.

You can call me Grimhild, I’m in my early 20s. I go by they/she. I’m doing my best to get by with an undiagnosed physical disability and many diagnosed mental illnesses.

I found this website by mistake. I was idly scrolling through search results, looking for suicide prevention tips, and I found the forum.

I’m not sure how often I’ll post, but I hope to find shelter here.

Nice to meet you all.

6/17/2021 6 comments

New here, introducing myself.

by gooster 3/14/2021

written by gooster

Hi, I’m 20 years old and I’m a trans-masculine person. I go by any set of pronouns, they/them is probably my favorite but tbh it’s the internet, I don’t really care. I’ve been playing guitar for 8 years now and I fuck with video games, currently COD war zone is my favorite. I spend waaay too much time online.

While I’ve had suicidal ideation since childhood, it’s been getting steadily worse over the course of quarantine.
I decided to finally make an account after using this site as an observer for about 5 years now, mainly because I think I’ve learned a lot about myself and […]

3/14/2021 2 comments

The Light Side of Darkness

by lostsouloflight 10/4/2016

written by lostsouloflight

I discovered this site today, while distracting my pain away.

So much suffering I see- so many souls yearning to be free.

But in the responses of support and love, there is beauty that goes far above.

Raw passion so seldom seen, in those content to live their lives by default alone with fake friends, entertained by a screen.

Perhaps our darkest sides show us who we really are. Desperate for love, meaning, and peace, we try so damned hard.

I know none of you by name, personality or career. But I’m sure I share much of your pain, suffering and fears.

I do not think we are losers, scum or leeches; […]

10/4/2016 4 comments

A new Face on the wall

by Blood_Lotus 3/24/2016

written by Blood_Lotus

Hello everyone, just wanted to say hi and tell my story. I am not sure how this will help but if anything, it’s worth a try.

I have been dealing with depression and suicide since my early teens or even further before that. According to my mother I always had no or low self esteem and feelings of hopelessness. I never had many friends and if, the friendship was one sided and often abusive.

To make a very long story short:

Have been bullied from elementary to the end of high school for being too “girly”, small, weak and weird. Was sexually taken advantage of twice in my […]

3/24/2016 5 comments

New Here

by Ira 3/12/2016

written by Ira

Honestly don’t know what to say… other than I’m new here and this is my first time opening up to people about my problems… If I ever get comfortable enough to talk about my problems. I guess this post is more kind of like an introduction?

Or just me trying to get comfortable here and meet people because I’m honestly really uncomfortable even just typing this.

Anyway, hi. I’m Ira. I’m 20 years old. I love to draw and I’m really shy so I’m sorry about this awkward intro… On another note… my avatar looks like a scary duck… Need to change it.

3/12/2016 11 comments

new to the site…. my introduction

by U-235 9/4/2015

written by U-235

wow…. reading through a few peoples stories i have def found the right site. i had no idea anything like this existed. wish i had found this place sooner.

basically i have been in a living hell for the past 4 years, on a downward spiral is an understatement. short version is probably very familiar to a lot of others here.

a toxic mixture of a bad choice of friends, all kinds of drugs and what i can only describe as “shitty luck” has left me with constant uncontrollable anxiety/panic, painful intrusive memories that i wish i could forget, loss of ALL social function etc etc and […]

9/4/2015 2 comments

another added to the list

by alonewiththismess 9/30/2014

written by alonewiththismess

I’m new and don’t really know how to do this so I’ll just keep it simple.
I have been battling the devil known as ‘chronic major depression’ since high school (I am now 22), social anxiety, and eating disorders. Last year I was at my lowest. Almost put a gun to my head twice before I scared myself and decided to try some help. I saw a counselor for maybe two weeks before I gave up going cause she didn’t seem professional, I was being a huge burden to my parents with the money and the worry, and she made me stay away when she […]

9/30/2014 9 comments

Anxious

by stranger01 5/22/2014

written by stranger01

This might be a rather long introduction, but I think it’s necessary.

I’ve been thinking of ending it all rather frequently for the past few days. I guess it all started when I started going to college. I originally chose to major in Biology, but changed it at the last minute to medical laboratory science. It seemed like a good idea at the time. Being in college, I was a rather normal guy. I got a girlfriend and had a bit of fun (being hormone-addled, young and all). That’s when I got my first suicidal thought. We were both afraid she got pregnant. I thought about […]

5/22/2014 11 comments

Why, hello there.

by Poison 5/4/2014

written by Poison

Nice to meet you. Or really, everyone on Suicide Project. I have been reading several stories for the past few days, and… I love this place. It’s a place where we suicidals can tell what is going on in our dark, lonely, minds. We suffer mentally, really. We are doing so much wrong, but it feels do damn comfortable. Well, this sounds like quite a thing you guys have here. I’m Poison. This world has me going mad; to the extent of cutting my own damned skin! Anyone else really tired and sick of society’s crap? Cause then you are welcomed to be my friend. […]

5/4/2014 53 comments

I promised I wouldn’t

by transcendent_ 4/28/2014

written by transcendent_

So, here is a little introduction to myself.
I’m a teenage girl and I’ve probably suffered from mild depression since I was in the fourth grade; right around the time I moved schools. This has been a constant struggle for me in myself that I’ve mostly struggled through alone. I’ve never really had that support team or someone who I could talk to this about so this has been something I’ve bottled up inside for years. I mean sure, I’ve been I was in and out of the occasional therapy for some time and my family knows about it but it’s never been something I’ve […]

4/28/2014 2 comments

Shit . Really?

by RuinedDreams 1/31/2013

written by RuinedDreams

Oh . my. fucking. god.
Long story short, I had a father who abused my mother, i would protect her causing me to get beat instead of her which was totally fine with me, as long as she wasnt hurt. one day he went too far, and she FINALLY -thank god- divorced the beast. that was around 3 years ago, and we haven’t kept in contact, (me and my father) . But my birthday, was around a month ago, and he sent presents for the very first time, whoopee. a fucking month late. cheers dad. not only that, but he sent me clothes, all in […]

1/31/2013 8 comments

My introduction and story

by Engeltje 1/14/2013

written by Engeltje

Well, i thought it was time to introduce myself. I’m a girl, sixteen years and I’m from The Netherlands (Please don’t mind my spelling and grammar) . My nickname (Engeltje) is Dutch and it means (Little) Angel. I live in the area of Amsterdam (I guess most of you know Amsterdam :P) . I live with my parents and an older sister. So that’s the general part and now a part that goes about my life. Okay, I’ll try to keep it short, so I will only tell the most important things.
I don’t know how it goes in the USA, but in The Netherlands […]

1/14/2013 2 comments

I Am My Heart’s Undertaker…

by HopelessLolita 7/29/2012

written by HopelessLolita

“I am my heartâ€™s undertaker. Daily I go and retrieve its tattered remains, place them delicately into its little coffin, and bury it in the depths of my memory, only to have to do it all again tomorrow.” Â â€” Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)

I had my first suicidal thought at the age of eight. Two years later, I had what I referred to as “my contingency plan”, consisting of a lethal OD of my mum’s prescribed potassium chloride pills. It was a strange comfort to know that, if everything ever became too much, there was something I couldÂ DO, something I actually had […]

7/29/2012 5 comments