this week was by far the worst. my dad went to Darwin for the week for work and my sister and I were fighting non stop but of course every fight was my fault. my mum always blames it on me and gives me punishments but not to my sister! my sister has this way of making it my fault all the time, like even though im stopping her from doing a bad thing I get in trouble. on Wednesday night my mum was driving me to ipsha for our musical and I got angry because we were really late and she wouldn’t drop me off because it […]
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I know there are some greens up in here that would get depressed at the slightest challenges and confrontations in life.it may be about what the other guys in school call you,it may be about a broken friendship or a missing school bag,it may be about a seperated family or a horny pervert..the truth is that when those updates are made up in here,it is because this kids has no one else or no where else to turn to.maybe they needed the mature opinion of the adult folks up in here.whom they ve come to respect and look up to.please adult sp folks if a […]
When you take your meds and yet the hills are lower but the valleys deeper, you just want to die.
Nobody understands and money only postpones the inevitable.
People can’t understand, and sometimes nor can I.
But the way life is I just want to die.
I have no hall nor gun and thus can’t commit this ‘crime’ but I do have a death wish and that is mine.
When the meds do nothing but society asks, that you still take them to be all “well”
But you know that death cannot come quick enough
Though I fear and dread it
It solves all ills
I personally have allways been in “the middle”. as the second of three child in my family makes me the middle child. i’m not thin, but i’m not fat. i’m middle. every thing i do i end up in the middle. always. it is living hell. for example, this xmas, while my brother and sister got their own iphone’s which the had wish for, i got nothing i had wish for. i got a pc. im not saying that they don’t give stuff. and that their beeing total crap. it is the fact that they dont listen to me. never. even when we’re planning dinner […]
Hey everyone! I just wanted to share something….
Lately, I’ve been wishing for my death whenever I’m irritated. I’m sort of easily annoyed. Little things get under my skin. Like, whenever someone comes into my room and leaves my room without shutting the door. That really pisses me off. Whenever I try to get my uncle’s attention and he takes forever to respond (He deliberately does that) because he’s focused on his iPhone irks me, too. I dislike going through the trouble of doing something for someone else because they choose not to do it themselves (Referring to family. I am the youngest, so I’m ‘bossed’ […]
I emailed a few people who posted on my ******** post a while back, and when I looked them up, have never returned to SP.
One guy emailed back, asking, “Who is this?”
But I had to smile at this email, which I just got a response to.
I doubt he has any idea who I am.
Subject: (no subject)
Hello, are you still here?
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Hey I am still here
Sent from my iPhone
On Nov 5, 2012, at 4:12 PM
After all the bullshit, the hospital, etc. I felt no more ‘better’ than I did before all of that crap (read my other posts to find the other shit I have been going through). I actually feel much much worse than before (this post explains most of it).
I was trying to find just one reason to stay alive, and figured I could make one with my XGF. I figured we could try things again. I figured I could stay permanently, and make the kid’s life better. Now that she has no chance, the poor kid will go through “father” after “father” after “father”. She claims […]
I was with the love of my life for 6 years. We loved eachother so much, were wedding planning and never had arguments, just healthy discussions.Â
For the last year of that I became very sick. I am motion sick 24/7 for over a year. I was suicidal. My boyfriend was as strong as he could be, caring for me, but couldn’t take the suicidal thing. He cheated on me 3 times with the same girl. He said he hated it, had no interest in her and struggled to get it up everytime, it was just an escape. He stopped and started seeing a therapist. […]
Gun show on Saturday. Hopefully the day of my suicide. I will make arrangements for someone to take the password to my iphone so they can get a good glimpse at y memoirs in my notes. I will begin to write suicide notes for all my loved ones, maybe send one last message onto the original suicide project. Good bye OSP. Good luck with your lives. Ut mortem occupet nos
Ut mortem occupet nos
Ut mortem occupet nos
Don’t you hate it when you take a dump and ur dick falls asleep along with ur leg? Happenes to me all the time, probably poor blood circulation for a 17 year old…
I wrote this 3 days ago and since wordpress doesn’t let me write on my iphone without lag, I just copy and paste it which is easier.
My dad pissed me off a bit. Between the facts I know and the facts he knows, we are both ignorant of each other. I tell him what I heard and he tells me that he’s older and therefore he has all the brains and […]
Stupid fucking iphone keeps fuckig crashing wont let me go to sp im so fucking pisssed of it just wants me to choke out and cut myself just to taste it fuck u piece shit i fuckmin hate you. Why cant i be eith jasmine fuck u. I need some fuckig weed you ****** this aint helping me i bet fucking safari is gonna crash n my iphone is gonna be completely smashed by morning fuck. Wheres my fucking hubby bars. You favgot i wanna grab a nife n test out cutting i just might witg this mugh anger inside me im so irritated and […]
Okay, y’all, important safety tip. If the psychiatrist gives you a prescription for ant-depressants, you don’t let them write it with ZERO REFILLS. And certainly take some care to ensure you don’t run out of a Friday night so you have to wait FOUR DAYS for your pharmacist to get said psychiatrist’s approval.
I’m just sayin’. Seriously, I could actually hear my eyeballs moving. Do you know just how weird that is?!?
And certainly don’t make me wait two weeks to see my new therapist one-on-one. Insurance won’t cover another week of IOP? Put it on my tab, that’s what HSA is for.
Yeah. Not a good day. […]