Im not gonna kill myself but I’ve always had it on my mind. My family is a mess! My mom is working for the 5 of us, my dad’s a drug addict/alcoholic, my brother has mental issues. I hate the people at my school (mainly the girls) because i get picked on for being quiet. I have no friends. During lunch i just go in the bathrooms. Life just isn’t good right now. I’ve been imagining what life for others would be like without me. But I just cant kill myself because I love my family especially my mom. There has been times where I […]
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I’ve been going on and off this site for the past few days wanting to say something, but I just can’t find the way to do it. I’ve been having a lot of problems lately, and it seems I’m falling into depression once again, like if happiness was nothing but a dream, and when you think you’re grasping it, it just gets away from you. The only thing that I’m certain of is that I’m alone yet again, or I’m about to be. Alcohol wasn’t the solution to my problems, and I found out that the harsh way. Apparently I’m replaceable too; I’m noticing I […]
I have been cutting for about three months now. I cut my wrists, legs and stomach. I have been very good at hiding them, at least I thinks so, but now I have a problem. I’m sick therefore not going to school and left alone at home for the day. My mom’s friend is a doctor and my mom asked her to come over and check upon me, find out why I’m sick and how to recover. I’m so scared that the doctor is going to make me undress, because I’ve been to doctors loads of times before I started self harming and many times […]
have you ever had that one fear that you couldn’t get rid of and it keeps eating away at u until finally there is nothing left of u, nothing but an empty shell? it sucks. it really does. or when u say ur fine but deep down inside u know ur not. and that soon something is going to put u over the edge. and ur gone. u enter the void.
Some days are better than other, but it always comes back to the worse ones, no matter what.
I hide from battles with my mom that i don’t want to fight.
But at this point i’m not sure who’s to blame anymore.
I TRY so much, to make everything right. Perfect. I plan and plan, but it leads to nothing.
I’ m useless. I think i do something very good and impressive, then the next day i apparently don’t do anything.
I try to help fix issues we have in the house, then the next i’m just like HER.
I want to be different, not be compared to someone else, but […]
all I want is for someone to ask me if I’m OK and know that I’m lying when I say that I’m fine
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Life has been pretty hard lately. I’ve been really sad quite often  for pretty much no reason and I never want to get out of bed, like ever. I try doing homework and then I decide to just sit there staring or surf the web or go back to sleep. It scares me, I don’t want to feel this way. I wish I could talk to someone about the way I feel but I don’t feel like there’s anyone I can trust.
It’s worse when I’m tired, I just sit there and hardly talk at all and feel terrible and all I want is for someone […]
I’ve been having depression since the end of 6th grade. I’m now in 10th. I don’t take anti- depressants anymore because they don’t help. Let’s start with the fact that- my family is fucked up. My dad used to beat my mother infront of my brothers and I, and then a few months after, he just packed his things and left us. I haven’t seen him since. He’s a stranger to me – and even though I still have this despise towards him for hurting my mum, I miss having a dad role in my life. The other thing is – I’m overweight. I’m 5’3 […]