I realize that I got ahead of myself in the last post, left out some key points…. left out reasons why. At this point I sat down in class, this stuff I have not shared….I had enough of being a freak show for one day. I go to school with about 100 students…. I am the youngest there…. only a baby…. only 18. I moved away from my family to go to school. I wanted to be happy, I was free of the shadows and pressures that suffocated me day after day. I wasn’t happy, I never was. I didn’t know anyone, so I didn’t […]
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I can’t provide for my family. no matter what job I have I seem to lose it. my wife is falling out of love with me and I don’t know how to repair my marriage. It’d be my second divorce. I have no friends really, possibly because I’m an asshole/unlikeable. i don’t know how to keep going anymore.
I’m a piece of shit. I talked to an ex boyfriend via text for a month and didn’t tell my husband. He found out and now he has moved out to straighten things out in his head. He says he wants to work on getting back together but I can’t stand the pain of him being gone. Of him not holding or kissing me. It hurts and all I want to do is die. I have no one to talk to and I feel hopeless I don’t know what to do. It hurts so bad I just want to take a bottle of Ativan and […]
i feel like the sky is about to fall
i hope i can get a rele job that isunt with my dad or on boats i whant to do pub gigs folow the pofrming arts do some thing so i can just pay the bills but thats not going to happun is it i whant to have a famaly do a beter job than my dad and mum i whant to fall in love but thats not going to happun love killd me long long time ago now my deth hornts my dreems it such a god day why do i feel like this all iv […]
Hello everyone ! I’m doing this project i call ‘Tell me your story’. I did a facebook page & a blogspot. But I need YOUR help to make this work.I want to provide a way for everyone to interact with each other. This is how it works. You tell me your story, I tell everyone else. You could be known or stay on anon. It’s all up to you. What matters is that your story will be heard. People will know that you exist. You will leave a trace that you once existed. You will help other not do the same mistakes you did or […]
I can’t do it anymore.
I don’t see a future for myself like I used to, it never used to be like this. Everything in the last few months has completely destroyed me, I tried to end it and failed. People only want to know if it clears their conscience.
All my life, I’ve had people walk all over me. I’ve been bullied at every school I’ve been to, I’m constantly reminded about how worthless and useless I am by my family, and now I have no one at all to fall back on. I’m sick of this feeling, like I’m just here, existing because people feel […]
Everything builds character they say, every little gripe and suffocation of my personal image will just mean something more in the end. I will transcend and be greater for it. What I wouldn’t trade a bit of “character” for something resembling happiness. I am 27 and still unsure of what I am here to do every little path that i stray across simply ends with me holding the bags and the jackals growing all he louder. I know that since most humans are wrapped in their own egos, which is not a condemnation of such because it is a natural thing and should be embraced, that they see suicide as something that more or less pertains to them. So when […]
Hi everybody, I don’t want to reveal my identity so my friends or family could not read this (just in case). I’m 18 years old and here is my life story.
At first, everything was going perfectly, I was in the primary school, getting all the best grades and so on, suddenly, my life changed after me being 9 years old. New teachers came to school and fucked me over. They treated me like shit in the way that they restricted me to only 1 grade (C) and I’d get all C’s from every class, even though I’d do something for an A+ I’d get a […]
I’m 29. I have a wife, two kids, a  job, a home, a dog, a master’s degree, friends, etc.
Nothing makes me happy. Nothing excites me. I look forward to nothing. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I do nothing at work, and then nothing at home. Every day. Everyday I feel like I’m on the edge of a cliff about to fall off. I’m terrified someone will ask me Do you even care about me? This job? Anything? and I’ll answer honestly: no.
I don’t ever see myself caring about this absurd existence. I don’t matter. The people I know don’t matter. No one matters. […]
I’ve worked to support myself for over thirty years. I’ve always taken care of myself without complaint and without asking for handouts. Now, because I’m older, no one will hire me.
I have so much experience and I am very good at what I do. No one cares. All they see is an old, overweight woman. I speak with agencies and potential employers on the phone and they are so excited to meet me but when I go in for an interview they say there is nothing for me at the moment. The moment has lasted two years now.
I will lose my apartment in a month […]
I’ve been depressed for about 6 years. Â I’ve been thinking pretty much these thoughts throughout the entirety of that time period- the thoughts becoming more complex and clear or unclear as time passed. Â I’m 18 now. Â It has been especially bad this year getting ready for college. Â The thoughts of moving out and beginning the rest of my life are eating away at me. Â I never really thought I would get this far but I did. Â The fact that I’ve only been here 18 years is killing me. Â I’ve only been here 18 years. Â How can I possibly put up with 70 more years […]
My life so going so well. I had a boyfriend, a job, I got into multiple colleges, I was doing well in school, and I was eating healthily. Then everything went downhill so fast. My boyfriend broke up with me, I started to fail my classes, I’m almost losing credit in some of my classes and I’ve been getting fatter. I just can’t do it. On top of all of this, I’ve been more depressed than I have been in a while. It just upsets me so much and I want to give in to it, but I know  shouldn’t, but it is just so hard […]
I have missed three psychiatry appointments because I don’t want someone to tell me I’m depressed nor do I want to believe in the existence of depression. (Which is a damn contradiction cause I’m a psych major and I know it does). I don’t want pills. I don’t want to talk about how I feel. The furthest I ever got to getting help was to the door of my psychiatrist’s office. I freaked out and left. I’m doing a half-ass job in everything. My GPA went down wayyy low. Money, my biggest motivator doesn’t even wake me up in the morning for work anymore. Guess […]
I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m an 18 (almost 19) year old college drop out, and I just feel so lost. I have been suicidal ever since I was 12, and I never imagined that I would make it this far in life. I had only gone to college so I could get away from my parents, but due to my social anxiety I was forced to come back. I feel stuck; forced to live with my father who raped and hit me as a child, and my mother who has never tried to protect me from him (and further claims that the rape was […]
death is the best way out and the only way. I want to die so much, you dont understand because no one does. Ive told people but they think its a joke. I see it in their face, that smile, that smirk. Its just a joke……
But im afraid to kill, to kill myself. I cant do it and i try. I think about the multiple ways and i cry because I can’t do it.
i’m 21 with no family, i’m a dropout, no job, no license, no car, warrants, overweight, gynecomastia, ingrown toenail, extreme back pain, no insurance, girlfriend that i fucking hate(we hate each other) we argue every fucking day nonstop, and nowhere else to go. ending it feels like the only option.
Is it possible for one person to be the only source of someone’s happiness?
by whyohwhysky
written by whyohwhysky
I believe so. My ex thinks that my suicide is foolish because I am lying to myself by thinking that he was my only happiness. He says that no one person can be the source of another’s only joy in life. Then how come I’m contemplating suicide for the first time ever? How come I’m so sad?
I have no family. I have no friends. I have no life, and now I don’t have him. Pathetic, I know. What’s more pathetic though is how long I’ve been haunting this website declaring my death and have no courage to actually do it. No courage to live, no […]
I am a dreamer, I admit. I am not always realistic. That’s a fact. I followed my dreams. I was never afraid to chase after the crazy ideas in my head. The processes has been painful. I have failed again and again, yet managed to slip by. I watch as my grades hit catastrophic lows and my social life deteriorates. All of my dreams are slipping through my fingers. Why can’t I do what everyone else can? I am intelligent. I am creative. I have endless possibilities. …But that’s all they’ll ever be… possibilities. While I could write a poem that would bring you to […]
I have been off work for two days with a migraine. I work away from home so I can’t even be with “loved ones” when I am like this. I have no one to talk to when I am away and am getting so very tired. Thankfully I work in a job where killing myself is very easy and can be an “accident” so that someone will still get my life insurance. I have thought about killing myself so many times it would be strange to have a day without those thoughts. I don’t know why I feel this way, I have a loving family, […]
I don’t know why I feel this way. I use to be a mellow, laid back person. I worked hard, but only if the benefits outweighed the costs. I graduated high school, got into a university. I did everything I was told to do and everything that was expected of me. My whole purpose had been drilled into me to get to college. Never anything else. Now I have a job and attend classes. No one even looks this way now. As long as I continue to work and take classes I am ignored. Until they want something of course. My father, does not even […]