I guess I’m not quite sure what to do at this point, so I need ur input. I’m 18 years old and ever since 5th grade I’ve wanted to die…or at least I didn’t care to live. In the past few years I’ve been but into a hospital four times due to breakdowns, see I’m stuck in this cycle between life and death and I don’t think itll ever end till th day I die. I’m terrified of existing, and I have several mental Heath problems that have caused me to lose all my friends…I push them away without realizing it, but it’s only […]
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Life And Death
So I had this plan worked out that this would be my last year. I would take the time to work things out so I could leave on my own terms. I know it sounds dumb. Suicide is supposed to be impulsive in a way; pain building until you can’t take anymore. But I want to make myself into a person worth remembering in a good way first. I know I can’t live much longer, I just don’t want to. I have my up days and my severe depressions and I always come back to the same place – there’s no point in keeping this […]
I don’t think I can live for a few more years. What’s the point anyway? I’m tired of being in this war of life and death. I’ll just let death win soon. You know what would be cool? If someone decided to just kill me. If I were to die right now, I’m ready. People die everyday, what’s one more? Sure I might hurt a couple of feelings but I’m sure they’d forget about me. Most people do already and I’m still alive. Ha. I’m practically invisible. Oh man, life sucks.
See that girl in class that never speaks a word unless spoken to? That’s me. That girl also has ears and feelings.
I hear you whisper my name in a conversation saying how weird I am.
I’m aware, thank you.
She’s really quiet but she is screaming inside.
I’ve tried to not be so quiet but it’s just who I am. I’m insecure and don’t like to be noticed.
But I wish I was that girl that can brighten up the room.
Now, the littlest things can make me hurt inside. It hurts to the point that I cut […]
“I’ve always wanted to know what I’d see in the last moment of my life. So I mustn’t close my eyes when I die.”
“I used to think there was some kind of bird that flew and flew, never touching down until it died. But that bird never actually flew anywhere, because it was dead from the very beginning.”
They dont know how badly i want to die. I’m suffocating. Every day is a battle. I think about how easy it is for me to just overdose or cut to deep. dont want to feel pain anymore.I dont want to be stuck here. I can’t do this anymore. I just want someone to notive how much I’m hurting. It hurts so deeply its a struggle to breathe.i cut to take away the pain for awhile. But when it’s this bad i cant do anything. I’m a basket case. I hate it here. I just want to be free of myself. I am […]
Two daggers pierced through my heart and tore up my soul;Â
My heart bleeds;Â
My body lay still;Â
Numbness consumes me,
Yet I continue to breathe mindlessly.Â
It is a battle between life and death.Â
I ask myself Why?
I faint voice inside of me whispers to me that it is the ray of hope that lays dormant deep within my soul.Â
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