Tag:

life

Just an observation…

by nozmoking 8/30/2014

written by nozmoking

I’ve noticed something about this site. Maybe it’s not so much the site but the people behind the aliases – when someone posts here and we pick up the notion that they are serious about going through with ending their life or at the least in very significant pain and anguish we rally around them like elephants do when a pack member is in distress.

I don’t use the analogy of elephants in a negative way – in fact to the contrary. What they do is born of compassion, of high intuition and empathy; it is a matter of survival for all. Most of us are […]

8/30/2014 7 comments

I’m Not Very Intelligent

by TwistedSpace 8/30/2014

written by TwistedSpace

I wish I was a Blonde, that way I’d have something to match my stupidity down to a tee. I feel that people wouldn’t expect as much from me if they saw I was Blonde. I also wish I was a trust fund baby who didn’t need to work a day in her life. I wouldn’t mind taking shit for it, because I’d be too rich to care. People say I can be pretty smart, but I don’t see it. My grammar sucks; I don’t know a thing about it, honestly. I just repeat what I see from reading. And about reading, it takes me […]

8/30/2014 6 comments

A perfectly imperfect circle.

by Procel 8/30/2014

written by Procel

With every step forward I use to think it was a step away, and in a way it was. A step into the future, not a better future but a future none the less. It’s funny but when the past is dark and you start to make moves into the future, you can believe the future to be brighter, or that the darkness is the past. It’s amazing how easy it is to make yourself believe something, all you need is the desire to believe it, belief in something doesn’t make it true but it offers comfort to believe that the future holds more than […]

8/30/2014 4 comments

Life is pointless; existential depression

by bornfordying123 8/30/2014

written by bornfordying123

So just as the title states, I think life is basically pointless. I actually dug myself into this depressive hole my thinking about life and what the meaning/reason/purpose is. I basically ran through the ideas of waking up every morning to go to school/work/etc. and having to do whatever. Every. single. day. That is all I see of life; waking up to do stuff, reach goals, “accomplish” things, and then face our inevitable demise. Yep. So we basically live to die, how meaningful *note sarcasm*.

A great example of how I see things is like the myth of Sisyphus, in which he was cursed to just […]

8/30/2014 5 comments

no one knows…

by darksacrednight 8/29/2014

written by darksacrednight

I’ve been in therapy for a while, meds, doctors, everything for nearly a year now.

sometimes it’s easier, i don’t have the constant rush of suicidal thoughts and images, i know what my triggers are and how to stay away.

and i have friends and family that love and support me. good job. own place. own car. pretty decent life, on the outside.

they don’t know that this dark hole of suck is still eating at me inside. lately it’s been particularly bad, which is how i found this site. I’m tired, and even surrounded by people, extremely lonely. i feel hideously ugly and worthless, there are days […]

8/29/2014 2 comments

Simple Questions

by depressednihilist95 8/29/2014

written by depressednihilist95

What do you do when someone who you love leaves your life forever, and you never feel that same way with anyone ever again?

What do you do when you find out you love someone much too late?

8/29/2014 1 comment

Death as a Function of Time

by Engie 8/29/2014

written by Engie

I may never die. Someone else wearing my DNA, the telomeres shorter — a body built of different atoms; a different organism will die in my stead.
What are we from moment to the next? We are already gone; lost in time. An instant passed inexorably; an individual altered irreversibly; life exists only as a continuum of perpetual chaos.
You are an individual existing for just a moment with the previous moment’s memory.

8/29/2014 9 comments

bitter

by thom wye 8/28/2014

written by thom wye

I’m 24, sort of successful with my studies I guess, got a bachelors degree in math, admitted to a US university to study math with tuition paid by teaching assistantship, good future and career ahead of me, if I cared for boasting, I would say I have pretty high IQ and stuff… my parents are proud, my sister is proud, my thesis supervisor is proud, my friends are proud.

I don’t care.

we broke up with my now ex-gf almost a year ago after a wonderful seven years. I’m not over it, I doubt I’ll ever will. and while I miss her every night (or someone she […]

8/28/2014 5 comments

life’s choice s affect everyone u know

by bryan higgins 8/27/2014

written by bryan higgins

Some time life’s great tell you realized your quest in life Is Worth it but only to you .in the end do people really care about u .or were u just part of a lust full delusion of an illusion. I’m happy in life and have no real issues to speak of ..but I feel like seeing what’s in my next life .

8/27/2014 0 comment

another day failed

by kateralia 8/27/2014

written by kateralia

Yet another day has passed & I have failed. Or is it life has failed me?

What is the point in trying if all you do is fail.

I’ll never have another partner, I’ll never have a family. I’ll never afford another car, I’ll never travel again. I’m stuck in this one place, in this glass box that I can see out of but noone can see me. I’ll wither away in this empty box, never having what my soul yearns for most.

8/27/2014 11 comments

Patient Zero

by depressednihilist95 8/27/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I really don’t know if I qualify for being depressed. I chose to have “depressed” as a part of my user name because it was a label that people were throwing onto me. I thought that depression was irrational. Wanting to die for no reason seems like depression, but wanting to die because of say, spiritual reasons or philosophical reasons does not seem much like a “chemical imbalance” to me. I should probably be careful with what I state here, but I believe that some people actually have rational reasons for suicide.

I don’t know if my reasoning would be so rational, though. All I want […]

8/27/2014 2 comments

suicide hotlines and the loony bin

by lovemyshihtzu 8/26/2014

written by lovemyshihtzu

are a fucking joke. we didn’t ask to be born into this hell they call life. let us fucking die if we want. why would we call a number that’s just gonna try to talk us out of it? and the loony bin I’ve been there like seven times since 2005.. every time I left there…. I STILL WANTED TO DIE

8/26/2014 0 comment

curious

by mental-anguish 8/26/2014

written by mental-anguish

Wonder if anyone will ever read this? Long story, short I’ve been severely crippled in a motorcycle crash. Life for me has been changed drastically since I awoke from the coma. Life like this seems pointless however I have 2 children. Shit I can rant and rave about what the last 3 1\2 years have been like but what good will it do? I should have died that day, I don’t want to continue this way! I have guns but am too much of a ***** to pull the trigger on myself and would like to obtain ******** but I’m still trying to find a […]

8/26/2014 6 comments

Someone to Trust

by AJokeOfFate 8/26/2014

written by AJokeOfFate

This probably isn’t the best idea, but…
I’ll get straight to the point. I’m doing this because so many people on here don’t have someone they can confide in reliably and honestly, its the same for me. But if you want to, you can email me at misbahq93@gmail.com
I don’t have much of a social life so I’ll try to respond as soon as possible to any emails. Please, if you really need someone, don’t hesitate. I know I’m not much but I’ll try my best to help you out or at least listen to what you have to say…

8/26/2014 0 comment

smoking and drinkin

by naturman 8/26/2014

written by naturman

every time my family talk behind my back,it realy hurt so much,

for a long time even now my famil help me,they support me to….

everyone tinks they are lovely,so do i,i can never except that they have talk behind my back… I cannot let them go..

i used to be a huge cheater,i am a big disgrace,i have had sex with many women,many relationship in my 50 pluss year…of my life,,, i have 3 children,my youngest is 16,

my ex wife an i raised our kids for many years,she wouldn’t give me sex anymore,one day i get angry at her, she takes the kids,but i still get […]

8/26/2014 2 comments

I’m a Machine

by Good Adjective 8/25/2014

written by Good Adjective

I’m a Monster, I’m a Machine.

Do I absorb the souls of the animals whose flesh I feast upon daily?

Do I suffer for what I made them suffer?

Do they drag me down for the horror they endured so bravely?

They were all victims, now I am another.

I tell them I’m but a factory and they are my fossil fuel.

Their response tells me they’re not amused.

When I chew their flesh, I know I’m being cruel.

8/25/2014 5 comments

Alone in Despair

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

Surrounded by people yet all alone.
The summer sun bright in the sky.
Yet she felt nought but the cold of a dreaded winter

Finally she had opened up.
She allowed the world to know the pain she’d hidden inside all her life.
Yet the euphoria lasted but a couple of weeks
Like a waterfall she fell dramatically back into dysphoria

Her heart ached as she laid in her bed, the drugs numbing her body but not her mind.

She embraced her fears but she’d come this far and had just fallen.

Why were they helping someone that was corrupted, possessed by the darkness that haunted […]

8/25/2014 2 comments

Those we love

by Scarlett Dawn 8/25/2014

written by Scarlett Dawn

We bear the pain of living for years on end
To keep those we love happy
We stay alive and continue breathing within our misery
So our loved ones won’t suffer in our divine demise

Yet there will come a time
When this illness becomes too strong
So strong that the love we have for others
Is lost as the darkness consumes us

That is when we tell our loved ones
Just how much we love them one more time
Yet they can never understand suicide
They all assume we did it out of selfishness

What they don’t realise
Is that we survived life this long […]

8/25/2014 8 comments

Give Me A Meaning

by kaylakit1 8/24/2014

written by kaylakit1

Don’t tell me the meaning of life is to live…If so what is living by your standards? What makes you go on every single day during every second. What does that make me if I can’t stand a second I breathe? A second I’m thinking?

I feel as if my existance isn’t a mistake, but out of place. Like I don’t belong in this time period. I know the world would keep moving for you if I were gone. I also feel that allot of this madness would stop as well. When I do think of […]

8/24/2014 13 comments

I’m going to get straight to the point here. I’m 15 years old and used to live with my dad up until april when he took his own life. I feel absolutely lost and feel I have no purpose in life anymore. I’d do anything to have my dad back. I miss him so much! :(

by char99 8/24/2014

written by char99

8/24/2014 9 comments

Newer Posts

Older Posts