i am just ready to give up, time to cut and relieve my stress for finally.
Sick of all this stupid shit. Same thing everyday, done with it.
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life
I keep slipping further and further down, this life is a bottomless pit. I’ve sold almost everything I’ve owned, my house (freely rented since I became homeless) is a state, I look like shit, I can’t sleep, communicate or learn, and I’m too depressed to do anything about to care for those things. I’ve been racking my a brains trying to find some way of making money, looking into things I shouldn’t but I’m too stupid to even make money illegally. It’s all patched up or too complicated. I’m clinging on for dear life but I’m already dead. I can’t accept it, I’ve always had […]
Everything is the same every day.
It’s just the same thing over and over again.
No one is theirselves we all belong to the system
slowly were all dying.
The only thing that keeps me going
Is that maybe one day I’ll find peace
theres nothing I want more than to live in the forest
Leave this pathetic way of life behind, sitting our life away one day at a time, I really love those of you that are reading this right now whatever you may be going through
im so tired of living so mindlessly
I’m 19 years old and have had enough of this game.
I could sing, or hit the gym and […]
I don’t normally tell people about what I’ve been through and well since this is a website where no judgement will be placed on a person if they express themselves, I might as well use this opportunity to release some of my pains and emotions.
This is just a summary….
Hi my name is__________________.
I’m a girl with many fears and very little memory of what I’ve done in the past. I can only remember the key points in my life that really messed me up, it’s rare that I’m able to remember something happy.
I’m 19 years old. I have two half sisters, that I’ve never met. Me […]
Sitting here looking back at how I use to be, I can’t even remember what I was thinking.
Searching for razors in the cabinet, was like seeking treasure.Frustration running through my veins when I couldn’t find one and I had resorted myself to using a kitchen knife, later on hiding that knife. The feel of a sharp blade pressed against my skin, consciously aware that I’ll be dripping soon and the adrenaline rush. It was like an external use of drug. As I grazed my skin with the razor, my level of satisfaction increased and my care for the world and the people around me diminished. It […]
I hate life everything about it I can’t honestly tell you something I genuinely like about it. Life hurts me so much that I’m afraid to even live it because I know the pain will come. Im afraid to let anyone in, to love, to trust, to believe. Because I see things negative and I don’t think I can change that, happiness is temporary and pain is forever. I’m afraid that I won’t make it through the next branch of pain so I don’t want to let go of this one. I don’t want to be happy that way I won’t feel the pain of […]
I don’t know how to get through the rest of the day.
There is no happiness when your life is bare of family and love.
I look for a purpose to go on living.
I find none.
I feel so alone. I have no one. All of my friends say that i f I need someone to talk to I can go to them.. but no whenever I need someone to talk too everyone’s all out or too busy. I understand they have their own lives but honestly I think they really don’t care how I feel or anything they’re only gunna pretend to care once its too late. Im so sick of this I’m mentally and physically insane. I don’t do anything all I do is lay is bed all day. I cry myself to sleep. I feel so stupid and […]
Hey I’ve not posted in almost 6 weeks i thought things was getting better but i was joking myself way would they I just cart see things every getting to where its a life worth living and fighting for
A few years ago I was high on life. Had a good job, 2 great kids, a home, 2 cars. Seemed like the perfect life. Then i met this guy. He cheated on me, beat me, raped me. The list goes on and on. When I tried to break up with him he would kick my door in or break a window. I felt i had no choice but to give in. I sent my kids to live with there father (I did it for them but now they hate me). I tried to kill myself. Waking up in shock trauma was not fun. I gave […]
New piece that Shakinbakin and I put together. I wanted to give him something that he could really sink his teeth into so I wrote a progressive-themed piece for him to play with. It’s sort of a new style of writing for me, for that reason, but I think it turned out well – mostly thanks the Shake’s incredible jamming out on the track, tbh.
Like normal, the poem is posted below for anyone who wants to read along.
>inb4 extend a metaphor much?
Orbit
A fresh sun dawns on the face of a new son
The opening refrain of a song as yet unsung
A race that’s not […]
It’s all too fucking much for me…I seem to fail at everything.
I failed in school and high school
I’ve failed in love
I’ve failed at sports
I’ve failed to achieve a normal social life
I’ve failed to continue my musical career because of being a pathetic,self-hating idiot
I’ve failed as a son
I’m only a financial burden on my family,who’s still keeping my useless ass in high school,and for what?I’ll just end up working at a McDonalds for minimum salary and spend all my money on drugs.I know I’ll just disappoint them,like I do with everyone…
I disappointed them when they found out about my mental problems…They wanted a normal son,not this […]
It hurts to love people that don’t love you back. To give everything you have to someone who wouldn’t hesitate to throw you away. But worst of all to be ignored because you are so insignificant to anyone in this world. But alone is how I’m used to ending up people always come and go and I’m tired of being the type of person that gives a shit. I want to not give a fuck I want to be the person that leaves that is horrible to people. Those are the people that have good friends that would jump to save them, they are the […]
I have had depression for the last year and a half. But about 6 months ago I started wanting to end it all. I even broke up with my boyfriend so he wouldn’t feel the pain when I left. I want to kill myself, but at the same time I don’t. Please help me. Does anybody else feel the same
one must compare. Human life is evolved in a way we must compare to survive in the system
lets do it
1. Happyness- Rich people, Rich kids, unconcious people
2. Sadness- homeless, handicapped, slavery jobs
3. Lifestyle- if you satisfied with your lifestyle what about Obama, bill gates
4. Money- Warren buffet, Larry Ellison
5. Achievements- mark zuckerberg
6. Glamour- Justin bieber
What driving us to live a life?
if you know you are not even comparable to any of above people
–If you are in a system you are not a free man( unless you are powerful, rich, influential)
–If you are out of system and living alone you don’t have a life( because life is real when shared)
–A human is not worth living if he don’t have a life
–Only action a human can do to get freedom is suicide
On June 15th 2014 my sister decided that there was no other way for her and ended her life.
That very sentence breaks my heart. It rocks me to the core every time i think of her.. No matter how many times i try to remember all the goods things the one thing that will always stick with me is that SHE decided to end it all in the time it takes to pull a trigger.
She had attempted to take her life in November of 2013 and before that we had had a terrible relationship, but at the thought of losing her forever I decided that […]
Fuck it all.
I tried to make my friends understand what I go through,and the harsh reality hit me:I had no true friends.They were only using me while I was still usable and now that I am going through a hard time,all of them,absolutely all of them,dumped me.
I miss the days when I was together with my ex-girlfriend.We were both struggling with extreme suicidal thoughts and depression,among many other mental illnesses,and we were supporting each-other through this shit.I guess now that she got better she doesn’t give a fuck about me anymore.That’s good…It’s good…It’s all fucking good…Wish you fucking luck with that German guy you are […]
I was born into a family that had an over-bearing, over abusive dickwad for a “father”. He would beat the crap out of my for not having all A+’s simply because those were his grades in school. Seriously. My mother would just stand there and let me beat me, scream at me, tell me how im worthless and nobody will ever love me. Yeah, she would just stand there. She said she never did anything is because she “cant afford to support us without his paycheck”. Yeah. And he never hit my sisters, maybe once or twice their whole life.
School wasn’t any better. I was […]
Everyday that I am alive, is just another day that i want to die. I see people living life and taking happiness for granted.
This is not the life i wanted to live, I wanted to be happy. I sound like i am a 12 year old girl with one problem, but in reality i am 16 yrs old and i have more than one problem. It feels like i have a million problems , no one is here to help I get taken for granted , one day when i am gone they are gonna mourn and grieve and lie about the things they […]