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It just takes time.

by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax 3/13/2012

written by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax

Life was always such a *****, i was dirt. Every second of every day, i always ended up hurt.

I wanted to commit suicideÂ more then ever, i swore my life would never get any better.

ThingsÂ didn’t change, lifeÂ just felt so strange.

I just dug a hole in my heart, let it rot and getÂ infested withÂ pure dark.

I wasÂ in hell, just rottingÂ away. Then one certain day,Â [life re-arranged]Â .

IÂ got better, i smiled more. I opened thousands of new doors.

I got me a girl, fell in love. Then just like that, we were done.

I haven’t stopped smiling, even though my whole life, i was always crying.

Things got better for me, just as it […]

3/13/2012 4 comments

Fail Every Time

by Zeke2010 3/13/2012

written by Zeke2010

In the darkness you see a light

A gun and a single shot is in sight.

Both hands for the table you reach

You smile and think of that day at the beach.

You load the gun and give it a spin

*Click* it seems this time you win.

You on the table your blinking phone

along with that beautiful and subtle tone.

You open the phone and there it reads,

“You are a good friend Zeke, indeed.”

But your feelings for her are infinitely more

Even when you look down the center of this bore.

Your purpose in life seems to be complete

To be a friend to someone that isÂ joyful and sweet.

You give it a […]

3/13/2012 1 comment

The Other Side Of Hell

by LiamS 3/13/2012

written by LiamS

When you just donâ€™t care enough to carry on
And every road looks like the wrong way
You feel like youâ€™ve got nowhere to belong
And you canâ€™t get out of bed to face the day

When you drive away the ones that love you most
And youâ€™re left staring into the abyss
You feel that youâ€™d prefer to be a ghost
Because you know that you will not be missed

Then Iâ€™ve been where you are, without a doubt
And the way that you feel, ainâ€™t no tongue can tell
Itâ€™s a darkened room with no clear way out
Youâ€™ve made it to the other side […]

3/13/2012 3 comments

ten thousand more

by fivethousandweeks 3/12/2012

written by fivethousandweeks

It’s coming up on the big day and for a little while I was actually able to forget about it…found meaning in painting again, in witnessing my younger siblings’ awesome potential and magical ability to just be happy. A beautiful couple weeks without any physical pain. Then everything rushed back in. Can’t paint, can’t write, can’t cook, can barely open doors. Nobody knows what it is and nothing has helped. Undiagnosable pain in my hands since I was 16. Â Nothing makes me feel as hopeless as this. Not knowing that I will never find love with a girl, never have babies or finish school, never […]

3/12/2012 1 comment

I’m so alone

by 136 3/12/2012

written by 136

I try everyday to understand why nobody cares, if a friend was in pain, I would be there no matter what. I don’t understand i’m not perfect & have made mistakes in my life, but when will I stop being punished. Everything that made me want to wake up every day has been taken from me forever, I think i’m a decent person, I don’t hurt people, when I say your my friend or I love you, I meant it & I would be there for that person but no one is there for me. I am in so much pain, i’m tired of crying […]

3/12/2012 4 comments

Tintern Abbey

by vmbhimura 3/12/2012

written by vmbhimura

There are quite a few posts with the same or similar stories… I am writing very slowly because I am not sure whether I should. Â But I probably am searching for consolation, which is an intelligent thing to do, I guess. I have not yet attempted suicide but I think of it too much. I do cut myself sometimes. And that is when someone hurts me really badly again and again… and again. Ironic that instead of trying to heal, I hurt myself even more…

It is because of love, that has always been only depressive for me. I have never had a boyfriend. I have […]

3/12/2012 2 comments

I don’t know what to do

by hellokittyizcoot 3/12/2012

written by hellokittyizcoot

I feel so screwed up, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve had a cutting problem for years now, I can’t get a hold of it. I recently started dating someone and I still can’t stop. It just upsets him, I get patronized for it. Whenever I’m in a situation where I have no one to talk to and I have overwhelming emotions, it’s always what I turn to. I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel like I can’t take it anymore. I feel like a burden talking about my feelings, they must sound so trivial and whiny. If I keep it […]

3/12/2012 3 comments

will u still love me tomorrow?….

by maibri 3/11/2012

written by maibri

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ludxpkyrab0&feature=related

3/11/2012 0 comment

Pins and Needles- The Birthday Massacre

by solace 3/11/2012

written by solace

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qD2Op4qnUXM&feature=related

Love this song!

3/11/2012 0 comment

I suck, so what

by itsnotyouitsmr 3/11/2012

written by itsnotyouitsmr

Fuck everything, I don’t matter? Im nothing. Every night after I get home from school is cry, all night. I try to be happy then I just over think everything and it makes me angry. The only time I’m ever happy is when I’m either smoking or drinking. I’m young and I’ve already fucked up my life. Why don’t I just die now? I have nothin in my life, my mom and dad are divorced and they both hate me, I never can fucking do anything right. I try and get good grades but I can’t, I just can’t. I try I try so hard […]

3/11/2012 2 comments

im out.

by grimallthetime 3/10/2012

written by grimallthetime

Im so tired of this shit. completely exhausted. its a fucking saturday night and everyones ditched me.only because i cant drink or smoke pot. you know what, this worlds better off with out me, not like anyone would show up to my funeral. i lost the one person who actually cared and hes not coming back so whats the fucking point anymore. i feel like a useless pawn that should have died years ago. please god if you exsist, just make this shit go away…..for the love of your one and only son please. cant take it anymore im tired of being alone tired of […]

3/10/2012 4 comments

What a way to kick me in the fucking teeth and drag me around from the back of your chariot…

by Infektious 3/10/2012

written by Infektious

So…the one person i trusted…i spent almost two years working hard to stop cutting, stop drinking, stop hurting myself for someone I though i could trust…in three words he destroyed everything. I’m back to nothing. i have nothing. i am nothing. But do you know wahts fucked up most of all? I love him. i fucking want him here I want to hug him and never let go and feel the pain go away like it used to when I was home but I can’t cos I can’t even look at him. His name makes me want to bleed out every ounce of blood because […]

3/10/2012 0 comment

What I Am

by Rain 3/10/2012

written by Rain

I am not fat..im a boxer..i just love to eat. I am not ugly..i just dont like tons of makeup. I dont crave attention..i just want somebody..anybody to care.

I AM depressed. I AM lonely. I AM alone. I AM suicidal..why cant you people just help me with my real problems?

3/10/2012 17 comments

Running out of fuel.

by silentxshout 3/10/2012

written by silentxshout

I feel more and more exhausted every single day. It’s not a physical exhaustion…more of a mental and emotional exhaustion. My mind is constantly running. Running running running. I can’t ever get it to shut up. Unless I’m high. I’d love to just start cutting again, but I really don’t want to add anymore scars to my little collection. I already get looked at like I’m some sort of fucking parasite if I dare wear a tank top.

I really am on the verge of losing it. I don’t want to make my parents upset…after the last death, I couldn’t ever put my parents through that. […]

3/10/2012 3 comments

Why? Why?

by easilybrokenheartgirl 3/9/2012

written by easilybrokenheartgirl

Why Am I Tall? , Why Am I Sad? Daddy Why Are You Mad? Mom Will You Ever Undertsand? Why Cant I Fit A Size Two? Why Does It Look Like I Belong At The “Zoo” Why Am I Stupid? WHY AM I STILL LIVING ?????? Why Do I Search For Love? Kisses And Hugs? Why Am I Always Teased ? Why Am I Ugly Fat And Teased?? 🙁

3/9/2012 4 comments

http://suicideproject.org/2012/03/i-saw-beauty-in-death/

by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax 3/9/2012

written by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax

LOVE, [SyKo].

3/9/2012 1 comment

teen heartbreak

by crushes and cuts 3/9/2012

written by crushes and cuts

Iknow that this might sound cheesy, but it can hurt more th an you think…teenage heartbreaK.
I know the topic is weird to think that somebody would attempt suicide over it, but it happens to me a lot.
The first time my heart broke was when I asked out a guy who me and my friend I guess really liked but yet she still encouraged me to ask him out. So after school I walked up to him and asked him out he said no. Now you’re probably thinking m well can’t you find somebody else the answer is no. I can’t just get over […]

3/9/2012 4 comments

Where do I go from here?

by ihateseagulls 3/9/2012

written by ihateseagulls

I am cold and callus. I am a *****. I am always tired, no matter how much I sleep. I am always angry, always upset, and my days seem to have become very very long. I am very young but I despise the person I am. I always have. Not even eighteen, and I already believe that it isn’t going to get better. I am unhappy. I can’t be proud of myself. I can’t be around my friends anymore. I have no love in my life because I don’t know how to accept it. I am too afraid to talk to anyone. I need help. […]

3/9/2012 1 comment

Gets worse and worse….

by shockwave 3/8/2012

written by shockwave

Hi
This is my 3rd time posting on this website, i guess it’s because i have no one else. I am getting more and more depressed every day and don’t no what to do.I was thinking of taking an overdose when i looked up consequences of an overdose and it said brain damage and that put me off that idea.
I have being depressed for nearly two years now and i guess things are getting worse and worse lately. i think it was my friends that kept me on the right path, but now i’m no longer friends with them. i suppose i have […]

3/8/2012 0 comment

I saw beauty in death…

by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax 3/8/2012

written by [SyKo]Nuclearanthrax

It was valentines day, the day of love, and it was perfect. Things went on normally as they do, except everything was just so much more happier. Because as i had suspected, it would all just go down the drain instantly. Like it always does, i can’t have a great day without something twisted and messed up happening. So it’s 6:30pm and i get back from my new job i was working at [I just got fired from that job as well]. I get called into the residential advisors office because he was looking for me, really, really bad. I thought i was in alot […]

3/8/2012 2 comments

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