Hi I’m 52 and increasingly I am thinking of suicide. I really cant see the point. Pushing yourself, achieving new goals just doesnt have any sense to me at this age.It’s not going to make me happier either. I have a degree a career that I dumped (It is enough to drive anyone barking mad -secondary teacher. too much political correctness.. Fucking awful kids of all races.) I’ve no family. I’ve a husband that is the nicest man I’ve met but never has any f’n money.coz he’s a latino immigrant. He doesnt want to do crime. That’s fair enough.
I frequently think I should […]
Im in my 3rd year of college. In the past i never really tried to put an effort in my academics since i naturally excel at it. My family especially my parents keeps on pressuring me to excel and be the top of my year since my parents think that finally one of their children was able to “inherit” their intellect. So this semester I had tried to put some efforts in my academics but to my frustration i failed all my subjects. Everyone around me, even my friends hero worship me because they think that im so great and that not true at all […]
i’m 20 years old and my life always had been difficult, now i am at a point that i can’t go anymore further.. 🙁
My friends are slowly abandoning me,i don’t have a girlfriend and my parents hates me,i don’t have a job or money.
I started having panic attacks cause of my situation and i’m afraid of meeting people,i’m loosing all my self esteem..
i have searched in the net for so long a nice method for suicide,but every method seems uneffective
some people tells that helium can fail,pills fails… it seems that everything is more likely to fail that having effect.
I don’t […]
when memories hit you and they hurt like fuck. i used to be so close with my dad. i could go to talk to him about anything and we would joke and laugh all the time. i was so close to him that probably up until i was 10 he would lay in my bed with me every night before i went to sleep. on weekend mornings just the two of us would walk to get donuts. he watched shows like project runway and so you think you can dance with me just because i asked him too. i used to jump on him everytime […]
We’ve all been born
To live our lives in security
How do we know if we’ll die
or if we will recover-
From day to day
We live our lives the same way
No money to hold in our hands
and no time to spend it.
So I chose the easy way out
To do my body some harm
Cut my throat and slashed my wrist
I even tried electricity
Cut my throat
Slashed my wrist
It was the easy way out.
Okay, well this is my story..
I’m quite young and I’m broken. I’m depressed and suicidal, clearly.. and i selfharm. I put on the fakest smile every single day. I’m miserable, I just want to be dead, to be free, to be happy. I have tried to take my own life many times, I don’t really have a massive story. But my depression has taken over me, my self eestem is horrible, I can’t leave the house without crying, I’m horribly fat and aswell so ugly. I hate leaving the house because I usually don’t have the nicest clothes because i’m not rich, my family struggles […]
Hi guys,
I’m just new here at this website and for a long time I keep myself seeking things related to suicide on internet and I got really into it after my life got really sux around six years ago. (I have a really large problem that cannot be solved easily)
Nowadays I hate the major I’ve chosen (since 2005 and I still not graduated!!), my job, where I live, my routine and my completely life. I read many testimonials here today and maybe I decided to start to share what brings me down everyday and my permanent nightmare.
I don’t expect any help from you, but sharing […]
Happiness. It was in my reach, merely a week ago. I used to dislike living. I used to complain and moan about things of no significance. I was unhappy, but without a real reason to be. And I knew that. I knew that my unhappiness was uncalled for and most of all: selfish. There were people out there going through real pain, people who had actual reasons to feel this way. So I pulled it together and started focusing on all the positive things in life. My friends, my somewhat dysfunctional family whom I still loved and cared for, my somewhat normal life. I started […]
im pretty bored of the monotany of people and life, feeling numb, i feel really numb. i keep thinking how good it will be when i go to canada in a few years, i have decided im going to start saving up now since it will take me a few years to get the money, iv applied for jobs and i no when i was last working things wernt as bad just because i felt useful so hopefully ill get to work soon and acctually get paid, so canada will become more of a reality, i like the idea of going to another country, getting […]
I bought a rope and there’s a bridge not far from where I live ..
I’ll be waiting for my intuition to tell me it’s time to go through with it
I’m tired of living just because others want and expect me to
I’m tired of living to preserve my relatives precious bubbles .. I’ve almost reached my breaking point
I’ve been trapped (1) in a body and (2) in this world for too long
I’ve lost interest in figuring out what my purpose is (assuming there’s even one)
my presence on here must be an error, I have no choice but to fix it
once I’m dead: no more struggles, […]
I can’t do it anymore. Or can I? Even my own brain can’t decide what it wants  anymore. I use to be happy, I used to enjoy life but not it seems that that enjoyment is more and more fleeting. I seem to have about 1 good day in life every month, but even that seems to be becoming a struggle. Everything I had in life I lost, everything that was good and worth living for was lost. The only man who I have ever loved broke up with me for someone else, I lost my job due to a serious knee injury whilst playing […]
Everything today has gone to shit….
My brother just waking up and going to watch tv somehow got on my nerves
I had a credit card company call and leave a message
I had a bike stolen a while ago which was given to me by my landlord and she just asked where it was…. (least of my problems)
I lost a friend and I don’t know why… I just woke up and all of the sudden shes unfriended me…. 🙁 this one hurts the most…
I ruined my plant – I was trying to change the cycle to make it bud, covering it with a garbage bag, and now […]
hi everyone.. im michael and i sometimes think about ending it.. alot.. i feel alone in this country.. and im scared to be myself.. i dont have any motivation to live for.. and i dont have a gf.. and im scared of girls and everyone.. and everyone looks at me funny and i worry what others think.. i overthink things and get depressed.. so i want to end it.. but im scared to do that i want to get away from my mom and i have no goals in life.. i cant post stuff on facebook. because they banned me.. so i want to end […]
I never liked life for what it appears to be: a process of disilllusionnement
I was trusting and full of hope as a kid, but this was because I used to idealize life and people’s intentions
life experiences later, I’ve become rather suspicious and apathetic
I don’t think we’re here to find our purpose or happiness .. I feel like we’re here to chase after things, only to realize those things were just illusions .. the more you believed the illusion to be real, the more brutal the wake-up will be, the harder it is to swallow the pill of letting go
I was led to believe in certain […]
i recently found this website. i felt like writing something, cuz lately it’s so damn hard. i’m close to my limit.
i am nearly 25 yrs old. i deal with depression and anxiety since i can remember. 4 like 22yrs, i lived along with it not worring about it too much, i didn’t really know what i had anyway. since then it got worst. i’ve never been very social at all. i’m a shy person and very clumsy, or should i say fumbling? i dont know the right word to describe it in english… though i’ve always fought my personality. more than 3 yrs ago my […]
lets start here u see i lived in texas till a year ago im 19 now so i just graduated highschool when that happened. so we moved to arizona and my mom picked up drinkink now she has fallen more and more into alcoholism to the point where just this night she hit me in my messed up back with a pipe and then proceeded to call the cops now shes gonna wake up tomorrow im gonna show her the video i took and shes gonna do what she always does shes gonna deny it and walk out the door then she will come home […]
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.†They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you […]
it ain’t cutting it with your dame “I’m a Christian” Ius hypocritical and I’m not buying it , You go out and Fuck anything and EVERYTHING that walks and then u get on my case about Esteban Whom I’ve been with over a Year and a Half, I Have a Better relationship Then u Will EVER have!!!…. You Go and use God on EVERYTHING ! U dated the drug addict then the Drunk then the Crack head I told u “he’s bad he’s only using u for money to buy his Drugs, aren’t u Fornicating ? Ain’t that bad if ur so called Godly?” […]
I’ve been moving on lately. Not in the way one would imagine. I’ve become raw and uncut in my creativity. I’m exposing myself to the world with photos of what i see, thing I model in a virtual space, things i may draw by hand and music. Oh no I’m still not happy. But I’ve decided to keep pretending.
I”m doing light work. Work as in making amends to old flames if I possibly can. Maybe an offer of friendship or two. I’m learning to forgive my parents even though they still bait trap and subtly belittle for effect, and myself because I keep making mistakes. […]
I’m currently at work, my back is killing me, Still, I manage to keep a normal expression on my face, but I’m in pain, my back has been hurting me for the past 3 days and it’s just getting worse, I’ve put icy hot to calm my muscles but still, the pain is there. Last week my hair began to fall out so much, not just what you would expect, like if I run my fingers through, I’d pull out about 20 each time or more, it’s scary, I’m so afraid of brushing it now. Is it because I’m stressed out? Last night my ex […]