I may need some local advices … If anyone from SE Asia countries ( eg Thailand,Cambodia Vietnam an so on ) sees this message … can he or she contact me at mybygone(at)gmail(dot)com…
I just need to vent and would like some advice. I’m just trying to get back on my feet, I had lost everything, was living in shelters and on the street for a while……then someone took me in. Turns out, they were big time pot heads, not that I’m totally against it, but I got sick of worrying about losing the apartment because they spent half of their money on weed. And I was tired of not having food or a bed. So my aunt offered that I stay with her…..my gut told me no, but I thought it’d be the smart thing to do, […]
my name is alison and im 17. i have attempted suicide by overdosing dramatically 7 times. I have recently been discharged from a camhs physciatric ward for my depression and anxiety. they see me as ‘all better’ now. and year, for a while things were looking up. until things came crashing down about a month ago. having people tell me ‘youre not depressed’ and ‘were taking you off anti depressants’ sucks fucking balls. Im so fucking done. im planning to kill myself tonight in a way that works/ camhs need to know how to do their fucking job because theyre absolute assholes. i still self […]
Cant sleep. cant relax. Wanting to end all this. Wanting to get rid of the pressure in my head .Wanting to rid of the swirling feelings of not being wanted, not being needed. Wanting to close my eyes and not wake up. Â Knowing that it is not the way. At this moment it feels, “for what?” The girl that owns my heart, given my soul, and given my body is close in proximity but does not allow me to love her. She tells me things about me that I don’t agree with, like i want to control her; I just want to grow old with […]
I’m ok…well, sort of. I think i’ve moved on from kicking myself for ruining our relationship. Well..mentally. I can look at couples and not have an overwhelming urge to vomit. I can go outside, breathe, smile, laugh and be over all happy. What I don’t understand is the nausea and loss of appetite. It’s been forever. You’d think after a week or so, you’d start having some type of appetite. I have nothing. Every time I eat, I get really nauseous and need to sit very still for a long period of time. I then, go to the bathroom, and wait to throw up. I’m […]
i decided to post this bc i see so many on this site burdened by this affliction, and this is something i have struggled with for years…there are cuts and burns on my thighs, shins, shoulders…my favorite is my right arm, i’m left handed…most of these wounds originated in my teen years, and although i’ve tappered off to a large extent, the urge still rears it’s ugly head from time to time…..the evidence of this dirty secret on my left arm are so numerous, and so obvious you can see them from outer space……this was never my intention, i suppose i am susceptible to over […]
I don’t know where to begin…but I need to let this out and please, someone tell me what to do. I have survived suicide…and yes, it did get better. So much better that I think I can be happy again. I fell in love and this person loves me a lot too. He is aware of my past and is trying his best to help me since I still have depression and do self-harm. I want to be happy and get on with life. But I just CAN’T…why ? I should be really happy but for some reason I don’t feel anything. I am not […]
That was pretty-funny, I guess
Too bad, I’m the only that isn’t toast-jelly
Bend like a hanger, what is it
Multiple-Tutu-Man, sounds the same on every-name
Can’t you tell you, you need to take-it easy, man
You probably ruining the site for any true-newcomers
With all the pure-gibberish that you say, not like me
Literally, eleven out of the first thirteen posts is his or it’s
What-up, too bad, I’m the only one that isn’t toast-jelly
Continuum all by-myself, fortifies is the suffering
At least, thank-you for that, I don’t know if I can say “comrade,” anymore.
Now, I know what I am but you […]
Spirit-bomb of Goku
I don’t get it
The way that I come
Not like Chi-Chi
I don’t know
The way to make-it
Do you hate me
Do you want me to feel pain
I’m here for you, I always be
In the same that I always was
I just need your spirit
I’m not here to steal you from a man
Koji, I love you, too, and I don’t know
I’ll make-it for you, too
I want you by my side
Just take-me to the place that I found
I can show you
I have no-more, do you want to hear my pain
You can […]
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I feel like someone else i don’t like looking at myself i hate everything i do. i miss her dearly i hate that we are separated. i wish i could be happy. i think about killing myself but that wont help get her back. i try hanging out with friends but nothing helps. i dont get sleep anymore. i wish you loved me back. i wish you cared about me. sometimes i get so angry i hit myself. i blame all of our problems on me. i miss you daisy….. i want you here with me having fun. but your out there talking to someone. […]
I just need the right time.
Starting my year as the chairperson of our student organisation. No time to think about suicide now. Besides, people need me.
Hopefully you, too, find meaning to your life! 🙂
I’m a 21 year old guy from The Netherlands.
Im just comming here as a last resort, i just dont know where else to go..
Anyway here is my story:
Im depressed since my puberty started when i was like 12 or something and i been unhappy ever since.
I tryed to commit suicide 2 both time using different kind of drugs mostly benzos and alcohol (im not advocating this methode!)Â both times i woke up the next day in a wet bed, just because i was so out i just peed myself :\
I been in a mental hospital twice now one time it […]
Thanks for your comments; as usual I decided to postpone my decision for a night. But I know it can not work. I am 23 but I really I feel that the future does not need me and I don’t need it. The worst thing is I lost all my believes even in God. I am in middle of nowhere. I am studying in a foreign country, even I cannot see my close friends and family. Nothing good is not happening around me. I think the time is coming but not to heal my wound but to create a worsen one……………………………………………………………………
Thanks for your reading.. I […]
I cannot take it anymore .Whenever i close my eyes, at any time of day/night ,i see all these horrifying pictures of blood and violence on myself.Im haunted by  monstrous bloody images of flesh and death.It lasts for approximately  week or two, non-stop ,i hardly sleep more than 4 hours a night then.When it passes ,i always get painfully numb.It goes round and round. I cannot do this anymore,i need to cut,i need to die,i don’t deserve to be here i shouldn’t be here.Sorry im so weak i need to write it here instead of just finishing with that agony.I can’t kill myself because it […]
just hate it when you’re sure you want to end your life and then someone makes you feel the need to stay?
Its this self hatred and not being able to move on that is killing me. I seriously need to learn how to forget about things and just move on.
I don’t believe anything you say to me anymore. You lie so much. And I feel like I’m nothing to you. Day by day you push me away more and more and I wanna just disappear. You act like you’re better without me. Maybe you are. Maybe I iust need to leave.
So, I have two large tattoos on my arm that I fucking hate. One is a pink riot grrl tattoo with a skull and crossbones and the one underneath my arm says “stupid ******”. I already know that I am crazy it runs in my family. I was conceived in a state mental hospital. So I sort of am naturally inclined to fuck up already. which sucks because I am a transgender and I have a stupid ****** tattoo. and I really only got this tattoo out of self harm and too scare the shit out of people who would try to attack me for crossdressing. […]