missing that perfect daisy

I feel like someone else i don’t like looking at myself i hate everything i do. i miss her dearly i hate that we are separated. i wish i could be happy. i think about killing myself but that wont help get her back. i try hanging out with friends but nothing helps. i dont get sleep anymore. i wish you loved me back. i wish you cared about me. sometimes i get so angry i hit myself. i blame all of our problems on me. i miss you daisy….. i want you here with me having fun. but your out there talking to someone. i hate that i have adhd and that i depressed. i cant change the fact that i am  time bomb.   your not just the sweet girl i met at school your a smart young daisy about to bloom. i cant change the fact that you dont like me anymore. i dont blame you i just wish that i could be with you daisy every min of everyday im going crazy daisy i need your smile to fix me shitty day i need you beautiful blond hair i dont care about money and cars i just need that one perfect daisy i found 10 months ago. nothing can replace you daisy nothing can ever erase you. i love all the times we shared.  ill always love the first daisy i picked out of the medo