I don’t really know what to say. I’ve gotten so used to saying nothing to people because they don’t want to hear about what’s on my mind. And because I’m afraid of the consequences. The psych ward is no fun. Jail is no fun. I’m never going back to either. I used to cut. Pro tip: if anyone asks about the marks, just lie, even if it’s not believable. They won’t challenge you on it because they don’t want to deal with it. Fortunately the scars have faded with time and I have hairy arms so nobody ever notices unless I show them. My […]
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Eitheror Diabolic
Forever Minotaur in labyrinth
I am the only and I know it
An eternal lock of chain
One day, when I walk alone
Until then, all in my hell
Will I ever become a clown
Can I dance like a bug fly
Magnificent like a Scyther
I need to, I need to
Break me, break me
The undead in the desolated amass
All that remain is a pain that exist
Eitheror Diabolic
I am not literally blind, just a metaphor saying that I do not understand how I can go on anymore.
Ok so my story is kinda simple, yet elaborate at the same time. First things first, my name is James and I am 13. I have red hair so I am always the one who stands out. I am small for my age, get decent grades, am smarter than most children but I don’t do my work(hence the “decent” grades). I am a little overweight, I eat too much sometimes, and cannot lose weight. I do taekwondo, am a 3rd degree black belt, am state champ […]
Unfathomed, now I’m just fucked
That’s right, nobody gives a fuck if I died
I wish I could go to a bar and motherfucking fight, too
Like a gentlemen with my fist but then I’m just a fish
What the fuck now
Muk and the gloom, a dying flower waiting to be bloomed
By the time I finish the weed, let me get the fuck out
The entire world is some-kind of ***** like me
A higher place, take me to, a higher place
Take me to the sands
The chaos of hell
I am hell-bent not hell’s bent
Nobody, nobody
I’m so sorry
So hard, keeps falling
Here, nobody here
I am the only
That lost
But I know
Lone until the next saga
I versus the apocalypse
It’s just me, homie.
I thought that given the nature of some posts I’ve read recently, that I should share with y’all my scars. These pictures were taken today, October 7th, the cuts were made on August 19/20. They are still very bright, very noticeable and often very sensitive. For a time, the sub stitches, non-dissolvable, were getting rejected by my body and were pushed up through the semi-healed wounds. I kept having to take cuticle scissors and cut the threads down in the hopes that I would be able to unravel the knots and pull the nylon out. I think I got a few out, but the rest […]
Hi, it’s me, nobody. I’m new here, so if I fuck it up, take it easy on me.
written by securityblanket
I just want to stop feeling. I don’t want to die. I only think about dying as a way to stop feeling. Every feeling is heightened. I was recently diagnosed as bipolar 2. I am overwhelmed. I am rage. I am sadness. I am despair. I am not feeling these feelings, I become them. I am lost.
Live, or rather, stuck on an island. No way to get back home. Was sitting on the beach last night. Early morn. Dark and deserted. Stars filling the wide sky. No real waves, just little ones lapping the shore, coming in from the black sea. No lights, no people no boats. Just me and my longing to see my daughter one last time in more than a decade. How I wish i could live. How I wish I could die.
Just walk into the dark waters. Just keep walking. Nobody there that will see, hear or rescue you. JUST FUCKIN WALK YOU FUCKING COWARD!!!!!
I’m sick, I have a cold, and no one is in home, even if I’m dying nobody will give a fuck about me.
So i didnt cut, but i started. i startd cutting since Thursday the 11th. I made a big cut and deep, but i treated it. Today i have around 20 cuts small but bleedable. On thrursday i also told my mum about the voices ive been hearing in my head telling me to kill myself. She told me that shes going to have to take me to therapy. Im actually happy. First, because ill get help. Honestly i dont want to die, ateast not yet. Second, ill be happy and carefree. Nobody nows about my cuts and the voices in my head only my mum, […]
When you just wanna go back to being that girl you are but you have to hide, well I wanna I just want to go to my room and cut my arms and feel better but how the fuck will that work all that’s gonna happen is for parents to get pissed off and kick me out but I’m not that perfect daughter not anymore now I’m different and in a girl who has to put on a fake smile and be faking happiness but nobody accepts me for who I am please tell me how to get out this hole again
I need to get Ryan out of there. we have little contact, because his phone broke. he is the one I love most in this world. I wake up crying every single day and I feel like he feels trapped. I pray for him multiple times a day even after saying God doesn’t exist. I try to contact Ryan from his dad’s phone, only to have his dad tell me to never call or text his phone again. my parents don’t care about my problems, I pushed all my friends away, I have nobody that really wants to be around me anymore because I’m so […]
“but then, it’d come out all fucked-up like me”
-Down-tempo, beautiful trip-hop;
not in the ship, the water the color; the dead messiah-
Tonight, who can save me
All rolled-up, is all that I see
Today, who the can save me
All dug down, is all that I see
There’s nobody, there’s nobody
Multiple-man, to resuscitate another
A mass-growth-utter, seven and eight-billion inside the Labyrinth
Killing me, killing me; the humanity
Jesus Fish
I want to go on but save me
Go to the store and get me my weed
We shall, we shall, decipher; golden dying
I am the living-myth, what is the living-myth
The living-myth, a giant black beast of hell
Who am I, why am I
Inborn with my golden […]
I cannot sleep…. I keep thinking about what someone said to me “no one gives a ish”….
No one cares and to have no one in your corner ,hurts. I tried telling a friend a few minutes ago that I still deal with depression and cannot get rid of these sucidal thoughts, And just said ” i thought you wasn’t going to go to that place no more”? Like really…. if i could really had a choice to feel the way I do don’t you think I would choose not to be feeling sucidal, depressed and lonely all the time…Damn, I do wanna be happy but I […]
Hello stranger,
I do hope you’ll forgive yet another pointless eyesore distracting from your conversations. That’s all I expect most of you to read anyway, so feel free to disregard the rest of this rant.
The few times I manage to click on Publish instead of Move to Trash I question what good it did. How can I expect a perfect stranger to give two shits about what I have to say when the people I’ve know for years don’t? The truth is that I don’t. I don’t know why I continue to try.
I’ve lurked in the shadows long enough to know that there are a few […]
So it’s been awhile since I’ve been on here. I’ve started cutting again, continued to purge and restrict, and also binge. I’ve been depressed for two years… I might not commit suicide just this second, but soon I will end my life. I’m not sure when I will finally break and not be able to handle it anymore. Nobody notices that I’m not okay.
Nobody notices the sadness in my eyes.
Nobody hears the voices in my head
Nobody notices the vomit in the toilet.
Nobody notices the cuts on my skin.
Nobody notices the stash of laxatives.
Hi everyone,
I’m not sure if anyone will read this or care but I’ve accepted that boiling up my demons inside of me is not the answer, so here’s my story.
I’ve only felt this while for a little over the year, and I’m not exactly sure what triggered it. I have a stable family, a stable education, and a stable set of friends. I have a roof over my head and I have a lot to be thankful for. But I had one sad day too many, and one day I just collapsed into this mindset. And I haven’t gotten out.
I wrote a paragraph of reasons […]
To begin i must be honest and say i had no intention of sharing this with someone else but it keeps eating me inside.I was always a shy kid and i didn’t have many friends.I am always getting bullied at school i even tried talking to someone about this but nothing changes the other kids that bully me got angrier.It was the day that they locked me our school’s closet bleeding with a broken nose that i realise that i must have done something wrong.I keep trying to fight this but the sadness and the frustration of nobody loving you and nobody hearing no matter […]
it all started when i was ten.. my relationship with my parents was horrible, i started rebelling, cutting myself for the pain i felt, nobody loved me back then, my mom emotionally abused me 24*7, every moment at home felt like forever, it was hard.my dad was so controlling, he would scare me with his voice, and behaviour, he took away my phone, my stuffs, called me a dirty hoe. my mom and dad would fight, and scream, and she would threaten him that she will leave the house,or they will get separated. my mom also threw plates at me many times. we lived in […]
Stressing and worrying
Clammy hands and darting eyes
The world all around
She began to despise
The simplest tasks were scary
The people surrounding
Still hurt her profoundly
As the words from there lips
Not a single one missed
*****, slut and whore
Scars she had to bear
On show for the world
Gone but always their
Not a single person helped her
They all saw her drowning
Still going about there day
Noticing and still frowning
She knew nobody cared
But the image still hurt
As family and friends
Stood around and all glared
Drowning more each day
In the tears she had cried
The girl that once was pure
Nearly […]