ive gotten fat… im getting better at putting on a smile. ive been dressing nicer and more preppy. ive been laughing more. ive been crying less. ive been arguing more. ive been thinking ab0ut him more. ive been treated worse. ive been told everything will be ok but ive been told that before. ive been keeping everything inside like i used to. im reverting back to the old me. perfect pretty girl. loud and outgoing sarcastic with everything put together. hah what a fucking joke. but i am so good at keeping everything in. ive only been cutting on my wrists so i can hide […]
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I trusted some one again and they left me i gotten back a friend but i dont think she wants to talk to me really any more i have my friend i made this year hes a good friend i think i bug him some times i dont think i will ever find some one that whants to be my girlfriend more one day as much as i want some thing with them i put in so much effort with every one to put a smile when there sad or mad but whos there for me when i need it no one i just want […]
its hard to hear others tell me everything is going to be ok. ive been waiting for a year and a half for everything to be ok. i’ve ruined my relationship with my boyfriend because of smoking weed and other stuff. now this adds more weight onto my shoulders and gives me more reasons to be depressed and feel suicidal. i know i could never have the ability to do that to my family but i lash out. ive tried to cut my wrist take sleeping pills and choke myself. i feel really embarrassed about these things but im stuck in a shit hole. i […]