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I’m an asshole

by Skeleton100 3/15/2015

written by Skeleton100

This is a pretty self-indulgent post, sorry. You people are hurting, and deserve something other than a selfish teen’s rant. Please stop reading if it’s wasting your time. It just helps to scream, sometimes. This really belongs in a journal, rather than a forum. Here goes.

I’m hurting others right now. My mother’s saddened, my grandmother’s angry, my aunt has lost respect for me. I’m dressing a certain way and it’s hurting them. My mom’s fighting an eating disorder and my guy clothes are bothering her – hell, I’m her only daughter, so that’s one more thing drifting away from her.

My grandma sat me down and […]

3/15/2015 3 comments

The Kama Sutra

by mick9999 3/11/2015

written by mick9999

OK, so it may not be what we’re thinking of or desiring, but I have a book that takes exerts from the actual Kama Sutra and explains things like Hindu existence, practice, culture and history.

There are some poses in here, but I’m not interested in that, what I found curious was the 64 arts that must be studied along with the Kama Sutra.

There are a range of different disciplines and crafts they must study. Vocal music, dancing, gardening, carpentry, and 60 more.

The reason why I posted this was to inspire or motivate others to maybe attempt all, half or part of the 64 arts. […]

3/11/2015 2 comments

I’m on one again

by Frankly 3/8/2015

written by Frankly

Everything we think is real may not be, it’s a strange concept but what if the things others say to us are said differently to what they say to others at the same time but we interpret those words in a pre destined way?

3/8/2015 1 comment

Just some thought’s….

by BrittNicole 3/8/2015

written by BrittNicole

Just some thoughts…. It makes me feel sad how I’m always there for someone else in there time of need , but when I need someone no one is ever there for me. It also frustrates me how I always ask my friends every single day how they are doing and making sure they are OK and most of my friends don’t even ask me if I’m OK. Even when I tell them I’m sad or upset or depressed, they don’t even acknowledge the fact that I am upset and could just use a friend. I’m tired of being there for others when no one […]

3/8/2015 4 comments

Again

by comomequieranllamar 3/6/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

And again I’m crying like a child.

My mother and my sister both asked for my help at the same time. I can’t be in two places. They don’t seem to understand.

I left my only hobby, the only moment of the week when I see people and do something I like, because every week I had to pick up my sister from the train at that hour. Just too tired to argue with her.

I study in a online university, just to have time to work and pay for my degree. But I have to work in my mother’s shop for free so we don’t have to […]

3/6/2015 3 comments

What’s it like?

by aj@merlynsquill.com 3/5/2015

written by aj@merlynsquill.com

I’m working on a story and though I’ve experienced dark days and depression I haven’t experienced the overwhelming darkness for weeks/months/years. How do I explain it in the story? What does it feel like? What does it look like? Smells? Sounds? Analogies? How do others perceive you?

aj@merlynsquill.com

3/5/2015 2 comments

I don’t know what I’m posting…

by chs 3/3/2015

written by chs

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/03/744997-neizvestnyj-ispolnitel-bez-nazvaniya-www.mp3poisk.net_.mp3

”if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
otherwise,
don’t even start.
if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
this could mean losing girlfriends,wives, relatives, jobs
and
maybe your mind.
go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or4 days.
it could mean freezing on a park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your endurance,
of how much you really want to do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than anything else […]

3/3/2015 2 comments

Guess What

by Skeleton100 3/3/2015

written by Skeleton100

I’ve figured it out, people.

Do you know what happens when you die? You’re just a wisp, a ghost, who floats throughout the world watching others

It’s a wonderful, soothing feeling

You learn more about mankind, the flawed beauty

You can watch the president turn older and brittler

You can comfort an abused child, just by listening

You can sit beneath the Eiffel Tower and listen to the rain clicking

You can lie down in a green valley that no man has seen

The possibilities are endless, my ink-stained sorrowful brethren

I know because I took the plunge

3/3/2015 7 comments

Why are you doing it?

by Sutfin 3/2/2015

written by Sutfin

… reading about all those people killing (or wanting to) themself makes me everyday sadder… why? why are you doing it? is it possible that there is no way to avoid it? I’m sure there is a way. I don’t even know who those people are… I don’t even know if they really did it… I don’t even know why… but I feel the weight of others decisions on myself… why? Maybe it is because I would save everyone… maybe because I think that it is a waste, a complete waste of hopes and dreams… or maybe because since that day, when I had the […]

3/2/2015 14 comments

Replying to posts

by mick9999 2/25/2015

written by mick9999

Hey all,

I found this site after I googled mania and how to sleep. Obviously nothing I found helped cause I’ve been reading posts all night.

I wanted to share my suicide experience and hopefully change someones mind or help them see the point in struggling and fighting through life. I have shared a lot about myself and feel comfortable with what I have divulged. Maybe my experiences are similar or maybe they shed light on mental illness and how it affects yourself and others. Maybe what I have confessed will give you the courage to speak openly with your friends and family and seek help […]

2/25/2015 5 comments

How do you do?

by comomequieranllamar 2/25/2015

written by comomequieranllamar

Yes, we ask it all the time. But, do we even want to listen the answer?

I’ve been wondering if someone would notice how down I am and ask me if I’m ok… and then just sit and really listen.

But then I realized I don’t remember the last time I was sincerely interested in how someone was doing.

So, why should I expect from others what I’m not able to give?

When I write in English, it looks funny to me, with all those capital “I” around. It’s kind of symptomatic.

2/25/2015 2 comments

Religion is a *****

by Skeleton100 2/24/2015

written by Skeleton100

Box of terror and fear and double-standards and self-loathing and discrimination and thumping and rejection

According to a certain book of love, you can own slaves, capture hot women and make them your wives (a.k.a rape them and call it marriage), force your wife to swallow dust to ensure fidelity (if she fails, you can kill her), tear open pregnant women’s stomachs if they don’t agree with you, burn to death a sinful man’s property (a.k.a his children)… there’s a few others.

I’m not discriminating against Christianity – there’s nothing wrong with it, nowadays. Many Christians today are pretty kind. But look at that friggin’ source content. […]

2/24/2015 5 comments

The demons..

by falling_soup 2/19/2015

written by falling_soup

Question: If no one is here to save me from the demons, and supposedly I can’t rely on others am I all alone?

I have fought the monster in my head called depression for so long. I am sorry that people have tried to save me and that it wasn’t enough. I am trying to restrain myself from the pills that sit next to me on the table. All of those medications that tried to make me better, THEY DID NOT WORK. The depression has worsened, I fake a smile and try to be anyone but the fucked up, messed up, person I am. I seem […]

2/19/2015 1 comment

let me go

by disposablegrl 2/16/2015

written by disposablegrl

7 years ago, prior to my last attempt, I, along with 9 others bared witness to an angel ascend- my angel to be precise had been battling Aids for 15 years, and although in constant pain and discomfort he took me under his wing and like a mama bird- he nurtured me, showed me the care my own mother never could.

His poor, old, tired body could take no more and so we all gathered around him at a time he chose and bid him goodbye- he had such a high tolenrance from the hundreds of medications that had kept him alive that now they hindered […]

2/16/2015 3 comments

scars

by maxwell 2/15/2015

written by maxwell

We all have our own stories some may be worse than others but Every scar that buries deep within my skin holds its own story, every one of them shows a victory, its showing that I have won yet another battle with life, so why hate me and judge me for what lies on my arm, you don’t judge a soldier for a battle wound or scars because he got that fighting a war for his life, I did the same thing I have won a war for my life and these are the wounds and scars that have been left behind for me to […]

2/15/2015 2 comments

Won’t stay long – just passing by.

by ManikinStare 2/15/2015

written by ManikinStare

I found this site the other night and from reading many of the posts and responses I can honestly say that I’ve never before been so moved as I have by the overwhelming level of support and consideration that the members of this community repeatedly give to one another.

The personal stories on here are some of the most heartbreaking things that I have ever read and it amazes me how people can open their heart to others even in the midst of personal crisis and turmoil.

I spent time in hospital with some of the most incredible human beings that I’ve ever had the chance to […]

2/15/2015 2 comments

The matrix

by shygal79 2/8/2015

written by shygal79

Hey, I’m pretty fed up right now.

I never talk about me, I suppose in that sense I’m a bit of a martyr, always trying to please others and sacrificing my own life in the running. Im pretty lonely if honest, I have 3 children, and a partner. But I’m not happy, I have no lust for life.

Ive always been cheeky and outgoing, and flirtatious but straight talking, I’ve never played games with people. I’ve always cared for everyone and I feel like I think differently from others.

It’s like I’m in an alternate world at times, were my views and values in life are completely different to others […]

2/8/2015 2 comments

suicide

by natalia209 2/8/2015

written by natalia209

I’m 14 years old and I’ve been thinking about overdosing on sleeping pills. I’ve done research on strong medications but I can’t seem to find any that are strong enough from over the counter products, it seems I have have a prescription from a doctor. I can’t do that without telling my parents and I dont think I can do that without bursting into tears and have them become angry with me. Just this morning I finally told them I didn’t believe in god and I felt they were about to disown me. I know this is probably a page to help others come out […]

2/8/2015 10 comments

Alone

by thehusk 2/5/2015

written by thehusk

I’ve done bad things. I mean really, seriously bad. Not the ‘everybody makes mistakes’ sort, but the kind you don’t get forgiven for. It’s been a while since I was at my worst, but if I’m honest I haven’t really changed. In the right circumstances, I would do it again. That part of me is still there, and although rationally I know that giving in to it won’t make me happy, if I get desperate enough all bets are off.

Of course there’s always a price. I don’t think I can ever be myself again, with anyone. I can’t reveal who or what I really am, […]

2/5/2015 2 comments

To err is human; to forgive divine. -Alexander Pope

by theforgottenfew 2/3/2015

written by theforgottenfew

We all make mistakes. Some more often that others, and some worse than others. It hurts both parties involved sometimes and other times only one person cares. But mistakes are a thing of the past. They are something that can not be undone. All we can do is apologize and try to make it up to the person. Try to be better, do better, and hope that they can forgive us. Sometimes I think the mistake is being human. Being…at all. Our lives are doomed from the starts someday we will all die somehow and we spend our entire lives just screwing up until then. […]

2/3/2015 0 comment

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