I found this site the other night and from reading many of the posts and responses I can honestly say that I’ve never before been so moved as I have by the overwhelming level of support and consideration that the members of this community repeatedly give to one another.
The personal stories on here are some of the most heartbreaking things that I have ever read and it amazes me how people can open their heart to others even in the midst of personal crisis and turmoil.
I spent time in hospital with some of the most incredible human beings that I’ve ever had the chance to meet and it’s a big comfort to know that others like them are here also.
It quickly became very apparent to me though that there’s no place for me here as a clumsy man child stumbling around the feet of emotional giants can only do harm however full of good intentions it might be.
To all those who have so bravely and selflessly contributed on this site that might care to read this – thank you for reinstalling in me (and others I’m sure) some hope for the future and humanity in general.
For those who find themselves on this site in hard times to come – the experiences and kindness of the people around you here are the best medicine you could ever hope for so hold on tight with both hands and run with it.
Thank you all for sharing and genuinely making a difference in this world. x
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Nice post.
But, don’t feel as though you don’t belong. You have the same reason and right to be here as does any other, some kind of reason foisted upon us by our messed up brains and painful lives.
That’s very kind of you to say and something I really needed to hear tonight… but I’ve had my chance at life and have failed abysmally to acheive anything of worth despite my hardships not amounting to much compared to others (not doubt such as yourself)… there’s nothing left to wake up for and even in sleep my messed up brain doesn’t allow me a break from the memories.
I feel ashamed to the core and after reading the stories of people on here my self-loathing and the minute by minute disappointment in myself is understandably stronger than ever.
I want to help others while I’m still around but I don’t have the emotional maturity or life experience skills to risk letting someone down in their time of need – especially when others here seem infinitely better able to actually make a difference.
It would also be totally hypocritical of me when I genuinely don’t want to be saved from myself.
Thank you though for taking the time to respond – I didn’t really think anyone would notice my post.