I don’t need you advice! I don’t need you sympathy! I just want you to LISTEN!
I don’t do this ’cause I want attention, well not from the world, but from you.
I just want to hear you say “I LOVE YOU” and mean it with all your heart!
Did you know that every time we talk on the phone I can’t wait to hear you say “I LOVE YOU“.
Sometimes that is the only reason I call, but sometimes it never comes.
People say that “Love” is thrown around so much that it means less.
Not to me!
Every time I hear […]
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Read on my fellow crazies. Let’s see, where to start? I guess the beginning. When I was five, my parents got divorced. Not a big deal right? Tons of parents get divorced and a lot of kids get to visit every other weekend or something. Well my dad packed me, my two sisters, and little brother up and brought us all the way from Ohio to New Hampshire. Leaving my mom behind. I got to see her in the summers and Christmas break for a week or so. My second-to-oldest sister had an over-eating disorder and was the first to move out of that madhouse to […]
Alright. Never thought I’d post anything here, but after reading a lot of your stories, I feel like sharing mine. Please bear with me.
Where to start? I’m 27, have the best parents in the world, a great brother and a bunch of friends that I could hang out with. I graduated last June, but haven’t looked for a job, I’ve done nothing with my life really. I’ve just been depressed, scared of the outside. The thing is, I always saw it coming all along.
Basically I’m “afraid” of people and what they think of me. The fact that I studied journalism doesn’t make it any easier, […]
I’m 18/male. Pretty much everything is fucked up in my life. Well maybe its not so terrible for others, but for me, its hell.
My parents got divorced when I was 2. A few years later, my mother got married to another man. Later on i realized he’s a dick. When my sister went to high school we were very poor. I can remember that i was sad because she couldnt hang out with other girls just because we were so poor. when she was 18 (i was 12), she got married, i think she couldnt take longer that our mom was an alcoholic. She started […]
Yesterday my boyfriend told me that he wanted to break up with me because he refuses to stay with me if he goes 6 hours away for college. We’ve been together for two years and he won’t listen to anything I say.
I raided his medicine cabinet and I took all of the pills I could find. I’ve been throwing up for 18 hours and can’t eat or drink anything. I’m so dehydrated. When I drink anything, I vomit. I can’t stop sleeping but I needed someone to hear me in case I pass.
My parents have never listened to me. My problems have always been written off. […]
Anyone out there having trouble living your life also?
Fuck, I just want to give up everything and die.
I’m tired of explaining everything to everyone about why I have erratic moods, why I need help, why I’m not as normal as everybody fucking thinks. I’m so miserable living my life. I basically lay down in bed, thinking of all things I have to do, shouldn’t forget to do… but I just can’t get up. I wake up so late in the afternoon that my day is halfway gone. I eat, use the bathroom, then go back to my room. In my room, I’m on my laptop, on […]
My parents … (if you must call them that) are absolutely the worse. They’re the reason why I will never trust anyone, they’re the reason why I think everyone is out to get me, they’re the reason why I hate myself. They act as if I don’t exist. They ignore me on a daily basis. They tell everyone that I was a mistake, that i’m their constant reminder of failure. I try to pretend that everything they say is the opposite. But it never really works out. The man I am forced to call my dad, is constantly making me regret living. He’s the reason why […]
Im not going to do my usually ten thousand words of deep shit. I just want to spill the facts. I’m a girl, I lost my first love, I can’t stop thinking about him, I have next to no friends, my parents hate me and say I’m a disappointment, I tried suicide and I do self harm.
I just want to enjoy life again.
I know the first step is getting over my ex. Im working on that, I’d love to cut him out of my life but I am forced to see him everyday so it will take a lot longer than most people. How the […]
I need to stop running away from all my problems. It’s not like they’ll disappear if I turn my eyes away. They’ll just keep building up and up until it not only affects me but everyone else in my life… But, that’s so much easier said than done.
I don’t talk to anyone anymore–what few “friends” I had, my family…no one. I’ll send the rare text from time to time to let them know I’m alive, but…if they try to start a conversation or call me I just ignore it. I don’t know how to face them anymore. I’m so disappointed with myself and what my […]
I know I’ve been such a bad daughter. My mother is not perfect, my father neither. My mother can’t accept other ideas, and my father is too irresponsible. But, with all the bad things they do, I have no right to do this. Drugs, promiscuity, this is just wrong! My parents have done a lot of good things for me in my whole life, they’re really good persons (most of the time) and this is the worst way to pay them back. I’m so stupid. I hate myself so much.
Got in fight with parents, boyfriends ignoring me, best friends out of the state and all i want to do is scream. Anybody want to talk? I just need to take my mind off all this shit
I some times come to this site and read the articles on here. Sometimes to get ideas and others because it makes me feel less alone, but no matter how much I read it, I just feel useless. Why am I sad, why can’t I be happy, why can’t I want something, why do I have no motivation, no drive, no love for anything? Why can’t I try to be the person I want to be? Why can’t I end it? I just want it all to end and disappear I wish I was never born then I won’t be a burden on anyone, I […]
I hate life. What the hell is the point of it, anyway? Why ME? Why was I stuck in this hellhole? I am so out of place. Everyone else at my school is perfect. Skinny, pretty, acne-free. Then there’s me, an annoying, short, ugly little freak. My mom hates me. My dad hates me. Everyone hates me. I hate me. The only reason I’m still here is because I can’t get the right pills. I cut, people call me an attention whore. I’ve tried to kill myself 3 times now. My damn parents caught me and “grounded” me for 3 months because they didn’t want […]
I remember it was some day in April, I was having the worse day of my life (well one of them). I was done I just couldn’t take it anymore. My parents were no where to be found and I was just sick and tired of absolutely everyone! It was like 2 in the morning, I locked myself in my room and I was sure that, that would be the last time I would ever see anything or anyone again. Then my phone rang .. which is weird cause it’s always on silent. But I answered, and the first thing I heard was “Hey, uhm I know […]
I wish I had a normal life with parents and going to parties and having fun.
I wish I could see my mum again, at least one last time to say goodbye.
I wish I didn’t have anxiety problems, depression and OCD.
I wish I didn’t have to pretend to be happy all the time.
I wish I could actually meet my brothers and sisters and let them know I actually exist.
I wish I had a proper family, not just an aunt and an uncle.
I wish I had people around me who would understand me.
I wish my mum was here so she could hug me and tell me everything […]
I’ve been suicidal for two years, but during those two years I had reasons to keep going. Yeah, those reasons were few and far between, but they were there. I have virtually no reason to live anymore. I can’t drag people down. My friends – they don’t know about this. They didn’t much know about my self-harm (well, not purposely. If it was my choice they wouldn’t know at all), and they don’t know much about my ED. I find all of this, all of what I’m going though, humiliating. I’m not this person. I never was. I used to be so happy, and I […]
These two girls started trying to have a conversation with me today. They were asking me why I was always so depressed and what they could do to help. They were being very nice. I guess they figured I wasn’t a bad guy? Who knows. Anyway…
One of the girls started talking about how she was depressed about 3 or 4Â years ago (which meant she was about 13) because she had moved from her home town to where she is now. She was talking about how she missed her friends and now she could only talk on the phone with them or communicate through the internet. […]
Ok so here’s my story. (Sorry if my english suck btw. Im French.)
I am 16 years old. Im good at nothing. I suck at school, I suck at sports.
I think im depressive because I dont like anything in life. Everything is too boring. I dont have a job so I just sit in my room playing computer all day in my parents basement. I have the feeling that I can’t do nothing right. Don’t have friends, never had a girlfriend. Its hard to know that your almost 17 and you never kissed a girl. I dont know what to do to get out of this […]
Dear Shekiera,
I words can’t possibly express how much I miss you, everyday I think about you, sometimes with a smile on my face and other times with tears. I remember the first time I met you, you were grade one and I was in grade two. we were both shy, socially awkward and got along great because we didn’t have to say alot to have a good time. back in grade two I can’t remember exactly what we would talk about, but I remember that we used to walk around and talk about “what if’s” and “when I’m older I’m going to’s”. You see, Shekiera, […]
My housemate of 2 years and friend of 10 shot and killed himself in May of this year (2012). Â I was downstairs and had texted him to ask if he wanted some scrambled eggs I was making. Â I heard him walking around, but he never answered my text. Â Later, afterward, I looked at his phone and I saw my text message had been read. Â He knew I was up, he knew I was home. Â Twelve minutes after I sent the text I heard a sound like a box had been dropped on the floor. Â For some reason I noted the time. Â This sound was loud […]