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Peaceful

Opposite Wishes

by Cordless 4/29/2016

written by Cordless

Lately I have felt like a bit of a hypocrite, considering death for myself while still feeling anxiety about friends who are considering the exact same thing. I want them to stay, yet I want the “get out” option for myself. Not quite sure how to process that.

I find myself writing two opposite types of music lately:
(1) Batshit-crazy chaos, and
(2) Peaceful calmness.

Am I somehow capturing the aforementioned duplicity in musical form?

Since I’ve finished a few of my projects lately, I started a new piece today. After working out the first few measures, it looks like this is going to be another chaotic angsty […]

4/29/2016 38 comments

This is it

by Ylem 12/1/2015

written by Ylem

I had a plan. But things keep moving from bad to worse and worse and fucking horrible.
It was going to be wonderful. Poetic in a way. Peaceful. Painless. Less traumatizing for whoever will find me. But fuck that. Tonight, Im taking a rope to a tree I usually run off to when my parents are at each other’s throats. I always find peace there. Now it’ll be forever peaceful, finally.

12/1/2015 5 comments

Residual Effects

by themanwhousedtobegoodenough 8/1/2015

written by themanwhousedtobegoodenough

Second post…

me and Shanna had a fight last night. I was talking to my son who was upset about a death we recently experienced. I was trying to console him and make him comfortable. She lit me up so hard and I just sat there and cried like a ***** in front of my son. Then, to top it all off, she took her engagement ring off and gave it back to me as if she found it in a crackerjack box and it meant nothing. I was crushed. She grabbed her daughter and left. I hate myself. I’m not a man. I am a […]

8/1/2015 4 comments

Frustration!

by WaitingPatiently 7/27/2014

written by WaitingPatiently

I love the way that life hands me extra frustration when I am already feeling more pain than I can withstand. There is nothing to do but distract myself, try to find pleasure in simple things and endure the experience until it finally ends.

I get so tired of looking up, of putting a happy face over my perceptions and soldiering on. But there really is nothing else to do except feel raw pain distinctly. Does that help me?

I keep having intrusive thoughts about choices that I regret having made and about how my life compares to the life that I hoped to live. […]

7/27/2014 3 comments

Reading ‘The Peaceful Pill’

by S_u_i 4/16/2014

written by S_u_i

I managed to get the pdf/word file of ‘The Peaceful Pill’. I’ve just begun reading it, but it attracts my interest already. It concerns the way I wanna go, in detail. Hopfully it’ll provide me the missing information that I hadn’t been able to get by talking to people on various forums. Now I’m at the part where the phenomenon of suicide is explicated, in general. I’m really hoping I’ll get the answers to my questions in my head.

4/16/2014 4 comments