Would you look upon another man’s darkness, and tell him what he sees?
I would not.
Though I do understand your anger. Angry, I would be too, if years of hard yellows and laborious blues had been scratched out by an easy black.
An easy, fatal black.
Tomorrow shall be a positive day.
Tomorrow I shall rise at 6am to go running in the park.
Tomorrow I shall tidy my living area, even sweep away the dusts of time. The aching grains of sand.
Tomorrow I will not smoke any cigarettes, or play my guitar, for I worry that these objects will kill me. One […]
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I had a thought on the bus today. I can’t remember all of it. But I was listening to some piano music and looking out the window, so many things went through my head. It’s not cold today, but a fresh layer of snow covers everything, it looks like its at least -30 c. I’m sick today. I didn’t want to go to school, but the medicine I had this morning worked enough. Despite staying up tell 3 am, I’m wide awake.
I don’t know why I’m depressed today but I am. I’d rather be alone or with my best friend than talk to anyone today. […]
“How can they know how it feels,” I ask my self as I’m crying, “To wake up the next morning and realize that you’ve just failed at dying? To drone on day after day searching for a reason, just one reason to stay?” They said they really cared for me and i was dumb enough to believe them. I trusted them, i lived for them, and now i never see ’em. They ran away, scared today to think of what ive become. A monster, a coward, a harbringer of a life thats become undone. And so I’ll end my solemn poem with these words i […]
I’m only 13, but I’m smart enough to see the truth. The world has gone to shit, and there’s nothing I can do about it.
My life has been one big downhill fall. I don’t mean to sound whiney or “emo”, but I can’t help it. I completely seclude myself, so I don’t have to deal with the idiots of the world. Homeschool is stressing me out, but I’m terrified to go to normal school. I pick my nails and skin, and continue because the pain is the only feeling I ever have other than apathy and melancholy. My parents don’t understand, my brother doesn’t […]
It’s like the universe has left me, Without a place to go, Without a hint of light, To watch the movement glow, When our song was slowly starting, Your memory felt so real, At first against my will, But God invented chills….
by Nat....
written by Nat....
I told my friend, lydia about my ‘troubles’ earlier this year… and she showed me this poem. I thought it was amazing, so naturally I wanted to share it…. she will probably have a strong dislike towards me considering she told me I was the only one to read it….
“Hands shaking violently I open my soul.
I let my spirit pour out onto the carpet
And watch as it takes form.
It’s me, A little piece of me.
Every night I stand in front of the mirror
And see what I am.
What I hate.
What I have to change.
So I carve away to […]
Dance in the fire from the sky
The crimson raindrops burning alight,
Dripping down from the fire that is the sky.
Light the match and let it simmer,
Let it burn a hole through your heart.
Light the match and let it simmer.
Sit among the raindrops of flame,
Dripping down from the fire that is the sky.
Let it burn, burn, burn off her skin.
Rip her from the bone,
Set her dreams aflame,
As her spirit screams to the sky,
Which no longer exists .
She’s trapped, she’s trapped,
Burning her spirit not living,
Any longer,
Forever in Hell.
I’ve felt a change in my emotions lately
A realization
Or
Maybe I’m just remembering.
Coming down from my dillusion
Back into reality.
But more lucid this time around.
Bitterness does not form
Yet happiness is still ages away
Basically a myth now.
These moments when every emotion
Has disappeared completely by reaching its peak
The most anyone could ever feel
Any emotion
Name one.
I can.
Rage.
Enraged.
The feeling of wanting to create a homicidal storm
Or at least stick nails into my own veins
Either way there will be blood
Don’t talk to me for a while
Don’t look at me without […]
I have a pain I can’t explain
It eats me up inside
It empties me and drains me dry
To a point where there’s nothing left to hide
It makes me high
To a point where I feel low
I gaze and stare
I’m mesmorized
At something that’s not there
But no one cares
Or do they even know?
I cease to show
My pain
The pain inside I can’t define
It takes my heart and grinds it fine
& Spreads it ’round, leaves me down
To a point where there’s every reason to frown
It makes me drown
It a pool of endless pain
It makes me sink
I’m […]
Looking to the future trying to believe,
there is a reason to live.
Struggling to grasp the happiness in life,
when all I feel is the emptiness inside.
Searching or answers late at night,
hoping that my help will be at sight.
I am depressed, has been for a while now. Wrote this poem about 2 years ago…
I don’t know, I guess I need some sort of help, don’t know what exactly.
I… I am losing it.
The emptiness will claim me eventually… It is simply a matter of time.
I thought you cared
But I was dead wrong,
You sent me back to depression
Back where I belong.
You said I had a chance
But there wasn’t anything but pain,
The pain of you playing with my heart
And me losing again.
And now I guess you’re done
And I’m left with all these pieces,
Of my broken heart, broken again
And you’re saying you don’t need them.
Well, I guess I’ll rebuild
Because I’m not giving up,
Someone will come along
Who will give me true love.
You just used me
You never cared,
And now that I’m realizing it
Love wasn’t what we shared.
We shared master and slave
Slave of love for you to use,
When you were down
I was who you’d choose.
But […]
Moved back in with ex on my bday, she cried said she missed me and the kids.
A week later i was homeless, me moving in was a ploy to get custody of the kids
Then i spent weeks humiliating myself trying to get her to love me?!?! wtf is wrong with me
A poem on here made me cry. The crappy rice made me cry. Knowing it was my last meal i guess.
I loved you.
I love our girls.
The rest of the world, i’m not too fond of.
I went to that 12 week sexual abuse survivor workshop so i could figure out where all the hurt in me […]
This is the first thing I’ve written (if you can call it that) in over 6 months. I laughingly call it a poem. It doesn’t rhyme or anything. I’m sorry. I don’t even know why I’m posting it. I don’t normally share this kind of thing. I guess I’m just being sad and pathetic. Sorry.
I fall
into the pit of despair
it grabs my heart as it steals my soul
I’m lost
nowhere to go
no-one to help
and it’s my fault
no-one can know the pain I feel
no-one can know how empty I can be
the times when I look at the world […]
I am a 14 year old boy. I am in a town that is full of judgmental rednecks… my life feels like hell… i wake up, go to school, and pray i don’t have to go home. I have been dead on the inside for a year and a half.. before that i was half dead. i know  you dont care about me, but, why not talk bout my life
i play guitar. i usually play Dethklok, Bring me the horizon, ect.
I lost a girl a year and a half ago… yes, there is a connection.
i cut myself to see blood…. and i regret am proud of it.
i’m a virgin by choice. […]
The sun that used to shine for me,
Dimming ever so slowly,
Hides behind a cloud,
And slowly the sky begins to cry.
Teardrops gently kiss the petal,
Of a lily,
The flower of death,
Then slowly begins to break it apart.
Life the hound
the equivocal
comes to me at a bound
either to rend me
or to befriend me
I don’t know his intentions
till he jumps at my bare hand
with teeth or tongue
meanwhile I wait for the event
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I like this poem,because it expresses my feelings of anxiety
and apprehension.I just wish I knew the poet who made it.
One word.
Obssessed.
With love.
Being loved.
Being cared about.
Being important.
Being noticed.
Prove I’m worthy.
Given a chance.
That’s all I want.
Why am I so different??
I want to be
A diamond in someones eyes.
Beautiful.
Loved.
Cared.
But it’s not gonna
Happen to me.
I’m not beautiful.
I’m not loved.
I’m not cared for.
I’m just someone
In the background.
Unimportant.
Unnoticed.
I am lost
In the sea of emotions.
Swimming isn’t my strenght.
“What if I drown?”
I think to myself.
The deeper I go
The darker it gets.
I want to be above the water.
So I won’t have to feel anything.
Never again will I be happy
Never again will I have a friend
Never again will I go through the day without crying
Never again will you care about me
Never again will I heal from this pain
Never again will I heal fron this lonliness
Never again will I live, for I will end this life very soon.
Just another random poem by me. As for my suicide date, mabye on Christmas. What better Christmas gift for the world than the death of someone who everybody hates?
-End
The burden of days
buy another simply to struggle through
weary hand wants to fold, weary back can not hold
wonders the point when there’s nothing new
Contempt for the ways
digging deeper & knowing it’s wrong
much too far from goal, farther still from the soul
is the horizon to come or already gone
The lament of the loss
thought the walls would deflect the hurt
but it all feels like hell in our out of the shell
even the rose ends up rot in the dirt
Resent for the mirror
failed until nothing else can be known
those aspiring demands turned to ash in my hands
In the cold nights of September
I hear the weeping little girl
Spending these nights imprisoned
at four corners made of stone
where blood shed over the walls
here and there, sorrow calls
one could never do anything
only to diminish her pain
How she wished that her life would end
than to live in sorrow and pretend
living a life she could never bare
where there’s her alone, no one cares
She blinked her eyes on me
expressing the catastrophe
feeling ashamed and neglected
here in the world that has ended
Then suddenly I felt something
inside my heart that kept stinging
and gradually, […]