I’ve been cutting myself and starving myself but I have no more room to cut. And I need something even more painful than that. Please help me decide how to punish myself!!!
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I don’t want to hurt your feelings, but I just don’t love any of you any more. I say that I do, and sometimes I feel an echo inside of the feeling that used to be signified by those words. But I don’t love you any more. I go through the motions, and I say the right bits of dialogue. But inside I’m empty and lonely and tired.
The road stretching ahead is more of the same emptiness. There’s no place I want to travel to, nothing I want to do, no one I want to see. I’m tired of movies, tired of books, tired of the […]
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This a postponed post to avoid my last post of shame.
If you are reading this there are 2 options:
1. I am dead.
2. I am hospitalized.
The first means that I had finally left the world, and succeeded in killing myself. How I did it? I can’t share even though I think it would help some of you. I know it is hard to understand what I mean by this kind of help, but sometimes there are situations when I think we can make an excuse and consider suicide as an only way out from our pain.
The second means that I was close and I will […]
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