I’ve never cut myself, never.
Though I’ve felt the urge to. Many times. I’ve almost gone through with it but I don’t know why I never can. It makes me feel sick but curious at the same time. Scared that maybe it would trigger more numbness or anger.
I don’t think I will, but, those who do, or have felt some kind of relief from it… what does it feel like really…?
Feeling sleepy,
PURPLEPAIN
All of us suicidal people, do we really want to die? Or is it something else? What exactly is it that we need? Because each day that drifts away I understand my feelings less and less.
Feeling djhvfbisjdfh,
PURPLEPAIN
I must say, I think the thing I most truly, profoundly hate in this world is people judging every f(I can swear on this site right?) thing I decide on or do. There’s nothing that frightens me more.
It sometimes gets to the point where I hide feelings and thoughts, ideas and decisions. Why do people do that? I wouldn’t ever judge anyone based on their decisions without even knowing them. Everybody has their own reasons. Like me, right?
People just make me mad. Anybody feel the same?
Feeling fed up,
PURPLEPAIN
I miss myself.
Why are you lost?
Reaching out, touching empty souls.
The wind blows, takes you away.
Close your eyes. Listen. Wait.
Feeling sleepy,
PURPLEPAIN
I have a dilemma. A dilemma that makes me doubt my reasons for wanting to die sometimes.
1) I feel a certain fear towards actually going through with it. Which makes me feel like a coward. Does it make me one?
2) Some would say I (we) am a coward for thinking about suicide, for not standing up to life and it’s challenges.
Am I? Are we? Which one is it?
Feeling lost,
PURPLEPAIN
Has anybody (obviously you have) gotten to the point when you feel like you’ve run out of tears? You want to cry, let it out, you need it, but somehow you can’t? Numbness slowly taking over day after day… I would give anything to be able to cry my heart out right now. It’s just what you need sometimes.
Death cannot be worse than this numbness. Nothing is. We all know that no pain is much more painful than what we call pain…
Not feeling at all,
PURPLEPAIN
Just curious, where are you people on here all from?
PD: Having my ups and downs still, but been hanging in there for a few weeks now. I spoke up to my parents recently, I actually feel better after actually letting them in.
Feeling okay,
PURPLEPAIN
If there are so many people in the world that feel like me, like us, why do I feel so alone? Like nobody can understand my thoughts? Like I can’t ever be 100% sincere sharing them? If there are so many people on here that feel the same way, why aren’t you the girl sitting next to me in class? Why aren’t you one of the people I have to see every day? Are we meant to die little by little of loneliness in the end? Is that what we deserve?
Feeling nothing,
PURPLEPAIN
I need advice.
I know I need help, I want help, I want to be able to talk to my parents about how I feel, I’m tired of being seen as the happy girl with no problems. That’s why I’m scared to say anything about how I’ve been feeling for so long, will they believe me? Will I disappoint them? I never talk to them about much anymore, I don’t feel I can. How can I tell them something like this?
How can I tell them? I’m dying inside day after day.
Feeling insecure,
PURPLEPAIN
It’s one of those mornings that you wake up. Wake up numb. Numb and empty. I can’t even make sense of my thoughts right now, because there are none, but, at the same time, too many things are rushing through my head.
I feel nothing, I feel loneliness, I hate myself for missing him like this. The numbness stabbing at my heart. He’s done enough, don’t be stupid.
I woke up with that feeling of knowing that your voice might break if someone makes you talk right now. But I don’t want them to know I’m dying little by little inside, fear and insecurity taking over me.
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