All of us suicidal people, do we really want to die? Or is it something else? What exactly is it that we need? Because each day that drifts away I understand my feelings less and less.
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Of course not (in my case). If money was no object whatsoever, I’d be much more content with my existence. I mean, sure, I’m financially secure for now, but I still can’t achieve any of my dreams to a higher standard than I can at this time. I think what I sincerely need is to escape this place I call home – expand upon broader horizons and find myself out there in the big, wide world. And at least a couple of million.
I hope you’re doing okay, Purp’. It’s been awhile. 🙂
Feeling somewhat content with my current situation, yet a little jittery since I still don’t know what it is that I want to achieve by the year’s end,
Shephard.
P.S – Yes, I did sing out your name again. Hehe.
Well there’s still time until the year’s end so don’t worry too much. Personally, I like to kick back and relax, something good will come along. You’ll achieve whatever you have to achieve. And I’m sure that you will escape and find your place in this big, wide world, if that’s what you deeply need and want.
I think I’m doing mainly okay as well, Shephard, thanks 🙂 I follow each and every one of your posts so don’t you ever stop writing!
PS- awesome.
I have nothing but time and a depressive nature that’s overwhelming me, here’s hoping I can defeat it by year’s end. I’ve been kickin’ back for far too long now, it’s time for me to get my arse into gear and make things happen. Thank you for the vote of confidence. Indeed, I know I can become more than I am now. I just need to keep the objective in sight and weigh up all options in considering my next move.
Oh, thanks Purp’. 🙂 I fear I have been a little off tangent later and let my emotions dictate my writing. Hopefully I come up with something more profound in the days ahead. Sometimes I wonder what others truly think of what I write – of what we all write. Ugh.
I’ll do my best to keep writing though.
I would like people to accept my personality, the way I am and think, I would like them to love me without wanting to have sex. I would like to know why I exist without blah blah blah and excuses. We should also love one another more instead of living in this stupid rats race world where nobody really cares. I am shattered by all the suffering in the world, not only mine. I am afraid of tomorrow.
I would like to live surrounded by nature if I could. Nature makes me feel better.
I know what you mean, I feel that way about people too. If only people could be more tolerant of others. Nature? Go for it.
I REALLY dont want to die. I need to live on my own and be with my family. Im stuck away from them, and i may end up homeless one day. That is why i feel suicidal.
Hang in there. You’ll find your way to them one day. Don’t give up, that would mean giving up on them. Love xx
I dont want to die. But i think it may be the only way to end my pain. Not physical pain, just emotional pain, lack of money, going nowhere… Same shit every day
I understand completely.. I guess these thoughts are just really simple. We’re incapable of believing there’s any other solution to end the shattering pain that we’re in day by day by day. Too many weights on our shoulders bringing us down.. down.. down…
I don’t want to die but don’t belong in this world and envision future only getting worse. The longer I stay here the more I realise I should leave, there is no hope for a better future because of who I am.
Future can get worse but also can get better. Why do you think you don’t belong?
I want to! I don’t want to be here on this Earth where I feel nothing but fear and boredom. What’s the point in living if you have no interests, no hobbies, no hope and no love for anyone or anything?
I don’t want to die because of the physical pain but drifting away into oblivion sounds great to me.
Yeah, I’m scared of that too…
I’ve told my psych that it’s not that I want to die its that I can’t live with my physical condition. I refuse to live my life as a victim of it and if it can’t be cured I’ll cure it my own way by offing myself. They say you don’t feel anything when you’re dead, but it beats being in physical pain everyday.
I’m really sorry you have this condition that imprisons you. Must be a terrible burden. Love xx.
I just can’t come up with an alternative. For me there is no going back, no way to heal my body and no way to restore a broken spirit. I’ve simply lost the will to live and my quality of life is so low – all the money in the world would only serve to deepen my stagnation. Day by day things get worse and I know the day will come when the scales will tip again. Hell, I had my chance a few weeks ago when I had severe respiratory problems in the middle of the night but somebody called 911 and here I sit with a $50K hospital bill on my desk I can never pay. I still have to work outside the house and I have a new boss that is pushing the hell out of me even though I have a legal right to some accommodation as long as I can do my job – and get this, I work for a non-profit that (allegedly) helps people with disabilities. I just believe I have many more reasons to die and end the pain than I have to continue this useless and fucked up existence.