I am sooooo tired of hearing people tell me Happy Valentines Day. I’m 41 years old and have never had a “happy” one. Love is not real!!!! Love doesn’t last!!!! I hate life and everything it has to offer. Kiss my Ass CUPID!!!!!
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Real Love
Oh how I’d love to die. I really would. To just escape this reality, and “get out of this labyrinth of suffering”, for anyone who has ever read that book. But I wonder, what happens when you die? If there is a hell, I surely don’t want to end up there. I’d rather be on this earth, than be eternally scorched in flames. But if it’s not real, I’d love to die. I wish I knew for sure…
Hello.
I think I’ll start with introducing myself so that, you know who I am and you won’t have to put it all together in confusion.
My name is James, but I like to be called Jamie. It’s more fitting and all of my friends call me that.
I’m 16 and enduring my Junior year of high school, Â so far the hardest year of my life.
There are many things that make me sad, which seems to be the case for most sincere people on this site, so I’ll just break my rant up into parts according to what’s going on.
My Brain
The thoughts that I have are so unorganized, […]
i feel empty. exhausted. so deeply sad.. & mad that nobody i know has the time to care.. despite having felt similar before & me having been there for them.
it is very fucked up.
i still miss the love of my life after 6 years.
but if i did die tomorrow.. i would feel that i had loved & been loved.
now i have ocd/anxiety/depression/phobias/ & what feels like a million more things wrong & a situation that has completely trapped me. i want to scream. i often do.
every time things get a little better.. somehow something else goes wrong & i am […]
I love the taste of your lips and how it feels. I love how you make everything feel completely un-real.
I love how you REALLY make me laugh and smile. I love how this has lasted for a while.
I love how no matter what they say you still look me in the eyes. I love how when I’m with you for once I don’t want to die.
I love how you give me hugs. I love how you actually are attracted to my ugly mug.
I love your eyes. I love how they stare back into mine.
I love how this feels so real. I love that our relationship is such […]
half heartedly i name the things
you suggested to me
somewhat in consideration but
in the back of my mind this just isnt right
the stars are too bright too clear
i dont want to see whats happening
yeah sure write what you want
the weekly apology
try to invest in me
have a morning glass of gasoline
have an afternoon light
when a break from bad luck is right
life leads you through a bad scene
focus only on whats happening
don’t forget details are the key
ever since i chose what i chose
i have antarctic bones
real love is a daydream
absent from reality
i cant seem to find it within me
not anyone except for you
can give it straight
bring it […]