Had doctor appointment today.
Got the Amitryptaline increased from 75 to 100.
The doctor did the usual cover-your-butt questions, including “Have you had any suicidal thoughts?”
I shook my head as if to say “No, of course not, what a silly thing to ask.”
Because only a fool would say “As a matter of fact, YES! Hahahha! Funny you should mention that! I was just waiting for you to ask! Here’s a song I wrote that I’d like played at my funeral! Do you like it? Does it need more cello?”
Hello folks.
Short update here. Feeling peaceful. No manifestos to offer today about fish or flowers. No art as I seem to have ended this methodical obsessive streak for the time being. I sat and watched two movies last night. Was just in the moment. The movies were not life changing movies they were just silly things. Pure silly entertainment. A friend told me yesterday that is important. Doing silly things just because. There doesn’t have to be some kind of life changing revelation in every moment I take in. Sometimes it is just sitting […]
I feel silly asking this :’) but im still getting used to SP and in my notifications on here it says I have 2 pending comments? Neither of which I wrote or were written to me, can somebody explain how I get rid of the notifications please? I thought I recieved a personal message at first but I think its this pending comment thing?
I’m a compulsive liar. I lie about silly things like what food I had for lunch or telling stories with friends. I also lie about real things like whether or not I cut or that I lost my job or that I’m not an alcoholic.
Here is the truth:
I am a failure. I dropped out of school because I have no drive and hated who I was at school, but blamed it on my depression. I lost my job because I didn’t want to show up, so I didnt, I then lied about why I lost my job. I was supposed […]
I don’t know if this site is helping don’t get me wrong I like it here I no I should have killed my self last year iv just pro longed my pain and suffering really but is the site just pro longing the Inevitable ? I think that the more I talk about dying and suicide but not acting on it is a bit silly if you know what I mean can anyone relate to what I mean ?
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