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Slump

Stupid Cliches and Phrases

by PainNlife 7/16/2013

written by PainNlife

I am sick of the bullshit that people say to me about suicide. All are invalid or just something they say because they dont know what to say.

“it gets better” – are you personally guaranteeing that? in reality it can also and more likely get WORSE

“someone loves you stay alive for them” – If suicide is selfish isn’t demanding someone to stay for you despite their pain and misery even more selfish?

“suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem” – unless of course the problem is permanent then the solution is perfect. I dont think a temporary solution for a permanent problem is very […]

7/16/2013 16 comments

i don’t understand and I can’t stand it

by SafeHaven 11/22/2012

written by SafeHaven

I really donâ€™t understand.Â Nothing affects me like my father.Â Iâ€™ve had my brother tell me he is so disappointed in me, that I am selfish and immature, that I abuse the ones I love with what I do, that all I care about is attention-seeking, that Iâ€™m going to fail in life.Â Iâ€™ve had my mother tell me that she simply canâ€™t believe that I am not doing this to hurt her.Â That my cutting, that my suicide attempts, that even my physical illnesses like my catatonic episodes where I ended up in Hopkins Neurology because I couldnâ€™t move my body, that all of […]

11/22/2012 0 comment

nothing left

by ioay 7/23/2012

written by ioay

I just… don’t have any reason to be alive anymore. I can’t take being this lonely another year, and my situation won’t change unless i change, but I haven’t changed in 32 years, so it’s clearly not going to happen. I can’t even fake it anymore. My one friend came over for my birthday and I just shut down mid-afternoon. I don’t have anything left to say to anyone, or anything to contribute. I’m not a very good person, at heart, so I don’t give anything. back to anyone, just take, take, take. I tried to say I am really depressed, but I’ve had cyclical […]

7/23/2012 4 comments

Fading away

by TheDisturbedOne 6/26/2012

written by TheDisturbedOne

I’ve done some things that I can’t live with , so why do I to put on this fake smile? Everyday for me consists of keeping a lid on myself,
I don’t go one day without contemplating suicide, I literally spent 9am-5pm goggling quick suicide methods and I ‘m beginning to think pills will take to long.
Fuck, today I couldn’t even carry on a conversation with my own mom without my
anxiety going through the damn roof. Man, I haven’t left my room for shit today. My body is hungry
but mentally I am full. Weed doesn’t even make me hungry anymore but at […]

6/26/2012 4 comments

an end to the mundane

by skrl 6/7/2012

written by skrl

I finally made an account. I’ve spent all afternoon reading and I identify entirely with feeling like I’m in a slump. The worst part as I see it is the apathy. The complete loss of excitement for all the little things that used to make me smile and worse yet, the utter lack of care for whomever’s emotions will be affected by my last action on this earth.

I’m 21, completely hopeless, and scared for what lies ahead. I don’t want to disappoint my wife of four months, but with all the fighting I think she’d be better off. I seldom socialize anymore, I dropped […]

6/7/2012 2 comments

I’m fine, really…

by Fading_Out 6/7/2012

written by Fading_Out

Is what I tell my mom. ‘no, it’s okay, I’m just tired’ for my dad. ‘Could you leave, please? I’m thinking’ is snapped at my little sister. And then I’m alone.

School’s out. I’m a kid. I should be ecstatic, right? But I’m not. Lately, I’ve just been feeling so alone, so hopeless. I have small projects I’ve been working in in my spare time, but I’m starting to think ‘why bother, this is stupid’ and abandon them. Occasionally I’ll get my hopes up for something, but somehow when it comes I always seem to screw it up. Then it’s over, and I’m back in […]

6/7/2012 10 comments

I hate this

by damn_oaa 3/1/2012

written by damn_oaa

Back in a slump again.. just like before.. tryin so hard to prop myself up again.. too damn hard.. fuck life.. I seriously dont know how much longer i can hold on.. writin this helps.. its good to vent…

3/1/2012 1 comment

Acting

by Disappearing 2/9/2012

written by Disappearing

Why do I act? I act in so many ways that I don’t even remember who I am. I’m just so tired of it. The same thing happening over and over again. I thought I had gotten over it, but I was wrong. Maybe I’ll never get out of this slump. I’m just stuck waiting for someone to pull me back up on my feet. Can I not mange to out of this on my own? Why can’t I? I’ve tired so many times….but I’m about to fall again. I want to stand on my own and face my fears. I want to stop acting……I […]

2/9/2012 1 comment

The Hours…

by susan5 7/18/2009

written by susan5

I sort of don’t want to write here, because whenever I read other people’s posts, I realise that I have so little to really complain about.Â But, at the same time, I just find it so hard to continue living my life.Â Again, and I know lots of people write this, but I don’t really want or expect any kind of comments on this post, I just need to say these things, because I have no one else to say them to, and I’m tired of the same shit just cycling around my head all day and all night.Â So here I go, getting it […]

7/18/2009 13 comments