So how goes the day. I have recently been on holidays (May 28th to June something) and within the first two weeks of being back I was in the hospital twice. Once I admitted myself. Only stayed there for 71 hours and like 50 minutes(few minutes before my 72 hour hold was finished, and btw I went in voluntarily and they still put me on a form), the second time was a suicide attempt. I stuck my wrist into SUICIDAL EXPLICIT CONTENT. That time though I went in voluntarily and they didnt put me on a form. Odd indeed. Anyways only stayed there for about […]
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i am ready to die tonight. i just took 31 cipralex pills and have t3s as well as random high prescription strength pills for lord knows what. i have a full bag of 50 high strength advils too, i wonder what else i can find. once i start to feel sick/dizzy/who knows, i am going to tie a plastic bag over my head and fall asleep. i tried just the bag a bit ago and i did not like the feeling. i have some staples ‘anti-static spray’ that says ‘fatal if swallowed’ on the bottle so im thinking about drinking that too. my goodbye notes […]
I wrote a post sometime last week. I am not sure of the date as it was mostly a blur.  The time came again. Last Tuesday at 5pm after countless minutes/hours/days/weeks etc etc of wondering if suicide was what I want, I tried to commit suicide for the third time. I popped a hell of a lot of panadol, drank some vodka and cut my wrist (again). This time I was going to be successful, I was bleeding everywhere (I had hit a vein) and I was slowly passing out. It was getting harder and harder to keep my eyes open. Then much to my disgust my mother […]