I am 28 yrs old. I am your typical white guy. I am married to a beautiful women be she doesn’t live with me.   I use to own a business but with the economy I had to shut down. I have had a rough life I spent 9 yrs in stae and federal prison. I went in when I was 18. I came out reformed and ready to work. I met my wife who was my sisters best friend about 4 months after i was released. I started a moving business and did great with it. i was able to do more stuff with my life in […]
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Well, most people woud think that I’m stupid, so I dont think it would be a good idea to post my side of the story, because I even told my mom about it but she thinks that I’m crazy or something. Anyway, I been thinking of suicide for a while too. I felt that there was no use of living anymore when I become depressed because of my sins I’ve commited. Well, most of the times I feel that God doesn’t even care for me because of my past sins. I even tried to repent but still feel miserable and embarrassed. Therefore, I feel if […]
I don’t know why but everytime something happens in my house it’s my fault. It’s never thanks you found it or hey do you know where this thing is I can’t find it. It’s always where is it you moved it you better find. If you don’t find I’m going to beat your ass. You can’t go to sleep or school till you find it. If I ever find out it’s your fault next time I’ll beat your ass till you bleed. How can you say that person loves you. That’s the point you can’t because it’s always hatered towards you. I’m so sick and […]
OK, so probably most of you know I’m depressed and suicidal and stuff. But here’s something I haven’t told you yet (I believe). I hate myself. Emotionally and physically. From what I know, someone who hates themselves is called: self-hate. Although, I’m not really sure if that’s the true definition. Anyway, so I hate myself. I think that I’m a horrible person who is just……………selfish, greedy, ugly, and…………………..stupid. I know, if you meet me, you’d say I was the complete opposite from what I think of myself. I, from what I’ve been told, have no self-confidence, self-esteem, and self-concept. I really can’t explain what it’s […]
OK, so I’ve been depressed and stuff. My other post was “Wishing, Waiting, Dieing………” . Anyway, if you’ve already read that. Then you’ll understand this one alot more (probably). So, I’ve been really confused these past few weeks (besides depressed, suicidal, ect). First, I’m a lesbian and I have a girlfriend. But I’m not sure if I wanna be in a relationship right now. Because, as you know, I’m suicidal and I’m afraid that I may do something stupid (if you know what I mean) and hurt her. And I don’t want to hurt her. Although I know she will be hurt if I let […]
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