I used to be happy. I used to be full of joy. I used to be bursting with life. What happened? What made me feel this way, living with so much hate and emptiness? I’m an average person with nice friends, a caring family, and an endless amount of love in their heart, right? Wrong. That’s what people think about me, that’s what people believe that I am. Sadly, they don’t know the real me. In reality, I’m a wreck. I have had depression for a month, suffer from anxiety attacks, and lack motivation, not to mention the constant emptiness I feel. I recently started […]
Tag:
survive another day
the question i seem to keep coming back to as I try to survive another day imprisoned in my mind, body, house, bed. most days in too much pain physically or emotionally to function but have continued to fight my deepest desires and desperation at times because of ‘family’ even though I rarely see them as I try to spare them of me. literally the only comfort I have is knowing they dont see my pain, and I dont burden them.I cant accept being broken once was just emotionally but now chronic pain has taken my only ability to contribute to community and family or […]
I just let my two friends read my first post. They both showed me that maybe there is hope for me. N o I am not cured from this disese but they will make it better. They try to give me anti depressants and I have stop taking them cause they do no good. I have so much depression and my friends relize this and want to be there for me. I feel good knowing someone is there to be with me whn I am crying non stop.I hope that nothing ever happens to tthem. I would fall aoart and would definatly not be here […]