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Swimming

Still Swimming

by noonereally 4/2/2013

written by noonereally

I’m 29. I have a wife, two kids, a Â job, a home, a dog, a master’s degree, friends, etc.

Nothing makes me happy. Nothing excites me. I look forward to nothing. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I do nothing at work, and then nothing at home. Every day. Everyday I feel like I’m on the edge of a cliff about to fall off. I’m terrified someone will ask me Do you even care about me? This job? Anything? and I’ll answer honestly: no.

I don’t ever see myself caring about this absurd existence. I don’t matter. The people I know don’t matter. No one matters. […]

4/2/2013 2 comments

I met God… He had nothing to say to me!

by Boots6 11/23/2012

written by Boots6

Come on baby do you think it’s good to feel
Like I’m lying here swimming in memories
I fear God because everything dies babe
Got a gun in the back of my Car
A spasm of good sense is making my eye twitch
I’ve had enough on your consolation.

I’m drowning caught in a shit tide
Tape my face to the inside of love
Nothing to eat but fingers in the back seat
Well i’ve met God and he had nothing to say to me

I pray to god that you’re right before my eyes,
Bathed in white light with halos in your eyes.

Don’t wanna waste no […]

11/23/2012 11 comments

I just want to fade away.

by lizr 10/20/2012

written by lizr

Do you ever just want to fade away? Have no one think of you or what you’ve done, and not deal with the shit you’ve made. I do not know where this all began I’m really only a 14 year old girl. Do you ever feel like you are being watched all the time? Like they are watching you and laughing at you and being hurt by you, and judging you all the time? Well I do. It’s this constant feeling of judgement, I feel. And the pressure is literally beginning to kill me. I just can’t handle it anymore. I feel like everything I […]

10/20/2012 1 comment

Too fat for a bikini…

by Too Fat... 7/5/2012

written by Too Fat...

So this Saturday, my family and I are throwing a party/pool party. Were having a few of my friends come over and than were having my parents’ friends and their children too. It seemed cool until I heard that a boy from my tball team when I was younger was going to come over too. I instantly got nervous and felt like I had to look good, the only probelm is that I have big thighs and 2 rolls on my stomach and I feel fat to go swimming with him.
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7/5/2012 5 comments

I don’t know where to turn.

by Rage 2/10/2012

written by Rage

This year and last year have been hard.

I found out a couple of Â horrible things about my birth parents and family.

I’ve spiraled down ever since that and I’ve relapsed with cutting.

I’m extremely insecure and I hardly ever go out in public except for school.

I’m a shy, secretive person.

It’s hard for me to stick up for myself.

I let people take advantage of my kindness.

I hate howÂ unassertive I am.

I bottle up my feelings because I can’t express them to people.

I’m ashamed of my scars.

I believe I’m too emotional at times.

I’m constantly down on myself because it’s normal for me.

At my old school I was on the swim […]

2/10/2012 2 comments