i’m laying in bed watching Grey’s Anatomy because I can’t with life. I can’t deal with it, i don’t want to talk to anyone. i don’t want to be anywhere.
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With me, hearing comedy doesn’t make my pain go away, but it makes me feel a lot better, temporarily! This is the late great George Carlin talking about suicide:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qS1o4YcWGZs
I prefer comedy than hearing all this touchy feely shit that’s popular these days! Most of it is so pretentious and phony. George Carlin was honest! George Carlin doesn’t just talk about suicide, but he brings up autoerotic asphyxia before all is said and done! Why did George Carlin have to croak when there are so very few decent people left in this world?
The end justifies the beginning,
“Take a step to oblivious, “he says.
“We came a long way to give up
You’re at cliff’s edge, one more simple step.”
“Embrace the fall,” he continuous
“Gently let go of the sorrow,
In the end I’ll well welcome you with open arms,
We’ll even sing one of His psalms.”
“Take my hand,” he says.
“There are no holes in my palms.”
I snap back, thought rang, “This is deadlier than reality.”
I smile and say, “let’s try this tomorrow.”
“The loneliness almost had me,
Somehow you came thru with that calming devilish voice,
At least someone to talk to when no one is.”
As far as answering the call, hold on
I’m not ready to […]
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So, my only actaul friend that I have, is embarrassed to tell people that we hang out. I kind of picked up on this a few months ago when a few of her other friends didn’t like me so for a while she wouldn’t talk or hang out with me. Then she started messaging me to come over to my house to drink all the time, and that’s about it. Any time I offered her to come with me to the mall or movies, she’d tell me she’s busy. Eventually, I found out that she blew me off to hang out with people who strongly […]
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Today during lunch I ran into my mentor Mrs. S, (if you read my last post then you would know that I’m kind of hesitant to see her.) Anyways I ran up to her and hugged her tight, she wanted to see my progress report, and she saw I was failing Algebra 2, so she grabbed my hand and took me to math tutorials, an pushed me in the room, my feet were sliding across the floor. Lol. Everyone was looking at me, i tried leaving but the teachers blocked the door. After 10 minutes of arguing I sat down and Mrs. S sat there […]
Once upon a time, two emotionally dysfunctional people brought an Imp into this world. Kids weren’t really dad’s thing, and mom wasn’t at all certain about the care and feeding of an impossible girl. Maybe Imp was destined to crash from the start. She learned how to talk, and then she stopped. Just stopped. Wouldn’t even talk to her mother, and she was a total mama’s girl. When she got to preschool, she was behind other kids because of the whole not speaking thing. But she also just didn’t really fit in. Playing house seemed pointless. […]
I’ve never tried to kill myself. the thought of wanting to cripples my mind and it rots away at my soul everyday. my bones ache to the point where i can barely function
I’m missing someone and with his absence comes a sadness that will rip my chest opensoon and i wish i knew how to fix me and i wish i knew how to be better
what is my purpose and why am i so sad
the sleeping pills are kicking in now and its hard to keep my head up
need a friend
Is there anyone to talk about AEA without getting Ratted out?
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written by transition32
I appreciate those who responded to my post about how I want to die from autoerotic asphyxia as there is no cure for what I am into! I was put on this Earth to share my story with as many people as I can! At least if I lose my sanity and end up taking my life because of this intense desire that I have, then I will have at least accomplished something very important by sharing my story about it!
I wish that there was someone who I could talk to about this, but I don’t trust anyone! I’ve gone to a couple of therapists […]
Hello everyone. It’s been awhile since I have logged on. I been dealing with the depression on my own. I have had good and bad days. I tired to talk to a counselor at school about my suicidal thinking, but I was put on a waiting list. I have to wait a whole month before someone will even talk to me. By then I could have killed myself… Just saying.
I have tried praying…
well, now I am here.
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You were the only one I could really talk to. The only one I could tell when I wasn’t feeling alright. Only you don’t know that, you probably think it’s the opposite, that I don’t want to talk to you.
And now, you tell me you think I don’t even want to get better. Well, I don’t. Not really. I’m not cut out for it.
I would go right now but you’d probably find me.
I’ll do it tomorrow morning, when you’re out.
Don’t think it doesn’t mean I don’t love you. I do, unconditionally. But this is how it’s meant to be.
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Well, it’s starting. People are starting to forget me. Starting to think I don’t even exist. People hate me. People don’t want to talk to me. People don’t care for me and lastly people don’t love me. And these are all facts. Well, I guess suicide her I come. I hope all of you would be happy after I do it.
Its stupid i feel like this
I shouldnt need anyone
I shouldnt feel this lonely all the time
I shouldnt depend on anyone
I want to be strong and not depend on them
But they make me feel nice when i talk to them
But its rare now a days
The moments where we actually talk
They want to be left alone for hours
But all i need for hours is human contact
I wish they noticed
That i need them so fucking much
But they never do.
I’m sorry you are going through a really hard time right now. I read what you say about your father and then, about how you are a bad guy. Can you see how your dad started that feeling and it is not your true self? We all do things that make us a “bad guy” of life. But in reality those bad things mean we were behaving badly and NOT that we are a bad guy. Please hear me when I say the fact you don’t like how you’ve acted is the start of a better Alek.
I hear your sorrow for being so sad and […]