Felling down..

It’s been more of 2 years my ex dump me…she don’t want talk to me but I wanna back to her I’m still have feelings for her. The thing is hurt me we were LDR I travel to her 2 times and she didn’t even visited me once in our relationship of 1 year and half. I know for someone close my ex has a new bf and they are LDR also and this guy never visit her even once but she went to see this guy 2 times and she is doing stuff she never did to me but she is doing for this guy, he is only use my ex only for fun but nothing serious. Is it’s feel I wanna wake up of this nightmare I’m. I don’t know guys. I’m tired..