Contract accepted
Plan well made
Time draws close
No nerves, not afraid
For this job
I was perfectly hired
Look in the mirror
Target acquired
To the girl who was called ‘ugly’ by the many people she’d call ‘friends’, we will remember you.
To the boy who’s sexuality made him a target of beating bullies, we will remember you.
To the high school dropout who followed the wrong path of alcohol and drugs, we will remember you.
To the man who had no home, love or hope, we will remember you.
To the woman who lost her husband to cancer, we will remember you.
And to the all the other innocent, pure minds who have taken their lives, we will remember you, and the suffering you have once endured, Is now peace within the heart.
eveyone tells me i’m a mistake to this world. maybe they’re right, i am. or im just taking things way to seriously but no one understands that words hurt. especially cause i’m really sensitive. people tell me a lot of things that i really can’t argue with. for example ugly, not good enough for anyone or anything, useless, stupid, etc. my bullies were the ones who made me hate my own refelction. and instead of solving my problems, i hide from my problems. i just hate to be put down everyday. everyday is just another day to wake up wanting to die and cry. sometimes i […]
It’s so pointless me being here, it really is. I really am a freak and a burden to everyone. Seriously, I used to be the target and now I find a target. I’m just so freaking twisted! 6years ago I turned violent and odd, not only do I lash out randomly and harshly ( I regret it instantly after) I use harsh words against people too. I don’t get it?! Surely after being the target of all these things I would help prevent it from happening and not cause it! My thoughts arnt normal ( and there is no way that I am waiting it […]
I’m 50, small business owner, two children, one who has graduated and one who is a sophomore. I’ve been married for 30 years and have been my own boss for over twenty.
I’ve had many had many ups and downs over the years, but the writing is on the wall, technology has made my business obsolete. I feel that I’m too old to start over again….. started this a couple of days ago, feel better today, not as suicidal as I was, but it crosses my mind all of the time. One thing I’ve noticed lately, the more I surf online, the more hopeless I feel, […]
i am a kamikaze pilot my target is the USS depression i will sink the ship and free my soul from my body and free myself of this world.
“The leader and figurehead of the opposition and main target of vilification was Leon Trotsky. Serge left Vienna and sped to join the struggle for the soul of the revolution. Discussion, not to speak of opposition, was stifled. Votes were formalities, forced through by the newly created majority – the Lenin levy, 250,000 new recruits to the party who owed everything to the party apparatus. Poets, worker militants and intellectuals were committing suicide from despair. The other side of repression was corruption. By the winter of […]
I don’t even know why I’m writing this, I guess because I have nothing else to do. I’m almost 22, graduating from a community college this semester, jobless, and still living with my parents. I just feel fucking pointless though.
I say graduating, but I know that’s only if I can actually make it through these 2 classes I’m taking. I can’t study, I never want to, all I want to do is just waste my life away on video games, so I don’t have to think about my current life. I’m still living at my parents house, and not to brag but they are decently […]
I erased all my other posts. I have decided not to participate on the ****** site anymore. Why? Because of the bullying/harassment. I am pretty sure everyone who has come here has dealt with some kind of harassment from someone at some time. That is life. BUT…when it spills over into a so called “support site” then that is a place that is NOT safe for those with depression and suicidal tendencies.
I have heard that a few people have stopped coming on here because of the problem of harassment, and I have witnessed it personally, and been the target of it. I am going […]
So it is Sunday today, slept on the couch in the place I am now living.
The roomy kept coming out in the middle of the night to see if I was
going to go to my room to sleep, which I had no intention of doing ‘cuz
it is lonely in there and I prefered the distraction of the television.
I need to make it to Tuesday for the appointment to get my life back
on track. Then I will set another goal to buy myself a few more days of life.
Why do I need to “buy” or set a target to […]
I came across this picture of a widely known celebrity that is not only considered a sex symbol, but is also very well respected because of his talent. Who wouldn’t want to be him? Now, I bet you anything, that if he were to be one of your classmates today, he would most likely be a bullying target. Don’t you think? When you say you are reluctant to think your situation will ever change and that you’re ugly, please think of him:
http://www.chacha.com/gallery/2535/crazy-celebrity-yearbook-photos/21479
I feel so unwanted on this earth. I just want to curl up and die most of the time. IÂ get so angry for no reason and everyone excepts me to do so well in my final exams. I am under so much pressure. People always talk about me or tell me I am not good enough. There is always some sort of rumour about me like ‘She has Bulimia’ ‘She is a slut’ ‘She is a fat whore’ Why target me? I just want to die. Most of you are probably like ‘She has nothing wrong in her life. People are well worse off […]
I hate stupid teachers who try to take advantage of me…
they lie to me and then expect me to be okay……
just because I am “beautiful” , they think I am a perfect target…
he said he was gonna help but all he did was make it worse
I got kidnapped by a friend yesterday, and somehow ended up in Wal-Mart (of all places) watching in horror as my sister Toni tore into some poor kid for asking if she was my mom. She’s only five years older than me, but…yeah. “Awkward” does not begin to describe that mess yesterday.
So, anyway, she storms out, leaving me and Dee to apologize and pick up the pieces and try to make a graceful exit. Then we come back here, and I start getting phone calls from my husband’s family. Apparently, to “punish” me for having the gall to look too young, my sister had called […]
I’m done. Nothing I do is ever enough, and it never will be. My entire life has been one big failure after another, and I am so tired of trying.
Funny thing is, if you saw me on the street, you’d never know my life is a living hell. I’m “happy.” People are forever telling me how “strong” I am, blah blah blah, but I’m NOT. I just put on a good face. I go through the motions of daily life, but inside, I’m screaming.
Why do I want to die? Ha! Take your pick of reasons-I’ve got plenty of ’em! Let’s start with a little history, […]
my name is not that important but just for making it more human, it may be jeriko.
i constantky since years like with something i call “the dark”.
the dark is that part of me that constantly arise rage, hate and will of suicide … and for what i know he has a plan.
first he made me break with some friends, thne made me deaf to listening suggestions, then he isolated myself from reality.. and i guess that now reached its ultimate target, unlock all “breaks” that keep a normal person from doing stupid things.
i call them stupid but not as disrespect, but […]
Tear after the other, I failed to finish crying….
Keeping this mask on is draining my last bit of sanity..
Why is it when your sad you are always alone? Why is it that only I find pleasure in being there among those  who pretend to care?
Where is everyone now, when I am the one in need?
Been strong for so long, but loneliness has taken its toll on me, I dared to seek care… I dared to ask for tenderness.. I dared to imagine being loved.. But time after time, the nightmare kicked me in the guts, with phantoms of beings which never gave any of such …
Until..
I met […]
I’ve come to the conclusion that im a complete waste of space, and i want to eliminate this pointless shitstain of an existence i call a life from the face of the earth.
My whole life i was labeled ugly and worthless, and any word that can add the prefix “un” would describe me. Im unathletic, untalented, unattractive, unimportant, unmotivated, uninteresting, unappealing, basically anything you can think of.
I grew up with my father always angry, and telling me i was a worthless human being. He would say it was his way of building me up to be a man, but all it did was make me […]
It’s been a few hours after my last post. I am tired of this shit. I’m tired of living, I hate life. No point in having one. God is a false deity. The idea that God is Satan is very thorough, but I still don’t believe in a god. Or else he’s past insane. He keeps repeating human’s course over billions and billions of people and never is there a right person. Everyone is evil. I wonder what was Jesus’ motives. He was probably filling his ego. Maybe he was brainwashed.Â
I hope to join the army in 1 1/2 years. That’s too far away, though. […]
Well geez…. i dont even know where to start. My parents fought since i was little. My sister would cover my ears so i wouldnt hear it. We moved to ohio in the 4th grade from Sacramento and i attended a private school. I was made fun of for being hyper as well as colorblind, being asked if i was retarded or gothic because i like black so i quickly learned to shut the fuck up and keep out of the spotlight. I transferred to public school in 7th grade and it was better but still not good but I guess all the suicide nonsense […]
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