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I Truly Think This Is The Only Way To Stop The Pain

by prosser6 2/2/2015

written by prosser6

Hello, I’m a 20 year old guy currently living at home with his parents, going to school. I don’t have a lot of friends, and I’ve never been social.

But recently I’ve been getting closer and closer to suicide. I’m nearly failing school (again) and I’m one quarter away from getting kicked out of both my parent’s house and my school. Currently, my computer and my favorite TV show’s upcoming fifth season are the only things keeping me alive. But is it truly worth the pain? Just to watch some silly animated show’s fifth season, in return to months of endless suffering.

I have severe ADHD and […]

2/2/2015 6 comments

aug 9th

by thesilentday 1/21/2015

written by thesilentday

August 9th 2013, 5:54pm. Devastion was on the rise. My father had died then from being in a coma from an overdose of drugs. Now almost 8 months later I am just done, I can’t be around any longer, I feel like when I’m in school everything we talk about is conected to my parents. My mom dosnt have that much money as an average person, we r not poor, but we do rent for like 700$ among the 4 of us and its a small space. My mom dosnt notice I’m depressed or strugle in school because I try my best for her. And […]

1/21/2015 0 comment

Today.

by unbrokenangel 1/17/2015

written by unbrokenangel

So today sucked.

It started off with me telling my mom that I had a girlfriend and her going on this long ass rant that basically amounted to her not being okay to it and when I asked she flat out told me she wasn’t. Then it was an awkward car ride and an awkward day at the barn where I felt unwanted. Then when I came home I kinda just kept to myself until my lovely sister comes home and freaks out on my because the bathroom was a mess when all that was left out was the dog shampoo and their towel and brushes […]

1/17/2015 5 comments

Why do I still feel this?

by Bri 1/11/2015

written by Bri

Hi. It’s me again…

It’s been a few months… I’m officially sixteen woo! (anyone else sense sarcasm there?)

I found myself thinking of this place last night, while trying to force myself to sleep some so I thought “Hey, why not?” y’know? So, here I am again.

A lot has happened since last time I logged in, and I know I always seem to say that when I post, but it’s true.

I don’t know exactly how I feel about it, honestly.

So, if I didn’t mention it in my last post, my older brother and his family moved in with us, since they needed a “new” start… It was […]

1/11/2015 10 comments

My suicide story

by cr-123456 1/9/2015

written by cr-123456

Hello,

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. My upbringing was not the best. My childhood consist of homelessness, molestation and verbal abuse. I fought very hard in my childhood, as well as my teenage years to become successful. I kept telling myself, if I worked hard one day I would have a family of my own. Deep down, I knew that I had depression and anxiety. I thought that I would have time to address these concerns at a later date.

I managed to make my way through college. Still living in isolated life and fearful of relationships with others.

Over this last year, […]

1/9/2015 6 comments

Brave Friend Why Can’t I

by mynameisLuca 1/7/2015

written by mynameisLuca

I don’t want to live anymore. I’m no poet, no profound words, no beautiful prose. I just want to move on to whatever is next. I had a friend who killed herself. It was such a shock: she was so perfectly beautiful that men literally collided with each other when they saw her.

But now I see her as so brave and I am deeply ashamed that I can’t even get up enough courage to stop being a burden to everyone around me. I am already a ghost in my own life, a literal cliched shadow of my former self. When my boyfriend looks at me,he […]

1/7/2015 3 comments

by StrayMuttBall 1/4/2015

written by StrayMuttBall

Found out yesterday my father is leaving my mother (with three children). He fell in love with a co-worker half his age, a few years older than me. He just took his clothes and left without telling his children. He want going to tell mom either. My mom finally confronted him….And asked him if what she silently hoping want true was real. He admitted top being in love with someone else and just left. This just happened. Happy 2015. My dad isn’t an abusive alcoholic junkie asshole. He had his problems sure like we all do but […]

1/4/2015 3 comments

Help

by kmg07 1/2/2015

written by kmg07

Hi. This is actually my first time to do this kind of thing. Like, asking for help regarding my depression so im having a hard time telling this. Im a 14 yrs old girl. Im really depressed. I cut too due to a lot of reasons. People see me as the jolly, cheerful, happy girl but it’s totally the opposite. Im struggling everyday. Whenever im sad or when i feel like crying, I just keep it inside, i don’t show emotions. For a week now, everyday i’ve thought of comitting suicide, i’ve searched on ways but, I really don’t want to end my life yet. […]

1/2/2015 7 comments

Angry at people

by scarsareforever 12/31/2014

written by scarsareforever

I hate those assholes. Last spring, all the classmates were supposed to have a beer after critique. Unbeknownst to us, over half of them went to a different place than agreed – just to blow us off. They gave a reason later but it was clearly an excuse. The place we were going to, they said was closed. WELL IT WASN’T. ASSHOLES!

Last spring, some of my friends formed a competition team while I was away for a week. When I’m back – NOPE, SORRY, WE’RE FULL. I blew up at them for blowing me off. I said I suspect they do not ever want me […]

12/31/2014 2 comments

Confused

by minxj 12/29/2014

written by minxj

I’m so confused…like during the day I’m fine and all but when I get home I just get these voices in my head telling me that I’m worthless and ugly and so many more names. I try to let out my pain by cutting but it doesn’t work anymore…I don’t feel it…I’m numb. I’m scared to tell my friends that I harm myself because they make jokes about people killing themselves and hurting themselves…I can’t lose them because they are all I have…I’m dying on the inside…I’m trapped…if I lose them then it’ll drive me off the edge…I’m scared to ask for help…I’m scared of […]

12/29/2014 1 comment

Him.

by infinityonnhigh 12/27/2014

written by infinityonnhigh

So I meet him. I can’t say it was love at first sight, but since the first time I saw him I was atracted. He has that “something”. I was in a few relationships in the past, but with him everything was so different. It was scary. We started knowing each other, talking everyday, telling each other how much we wanted to be near. Because being with him was like living a dream, like talking to the only person that sees your soul. My lips won’t kiss anybody the way they kissed him. I’m sure I’m made for him. But then, at the time I […]

12/27/2014 1 comment

Back.

by TheOneNoOneSees 12/26/2014

written by TheOneNoOneSees

Well….here i am again staring at this page not really knowing what to do anymore. I chickened out on telling my parents about my depression and the cutting has become more and more, when I first started it took me a few minutes before i could actually gain the “courage” to cut but now its become really easy an effortless for me. I know that I really need help because its come to the point that I’ve actually convinced myself that being bulimic is okay, not that any of my other friends have told me otherwise, all I ever get from them now if I […]

12/26/2014 2 comments

I just wish someone cared about me.

by jcanida56 12/25/2014

written by jcanida56

Christmas without you is hell…..we never had family to have over, or the money to have the “average” Christmas……but I miss going out of my way to get you a lot of nice gifts, because I enjoyed seeing you smile. And it always made your worthless scumbag of a husband angry bc the only reason why he even got that $10 gift card is bc you made me get him something…..a pile of shit in a box crossed my mind a few times……as crappy of a mother as you were, I always loved you with all my heart. You were my bestfriend. I knew you […]

12/25/2014 2 comments

This is not me!

by Emie 12/23/2014

written by Emie

Hi!

I’m a 15 years old girl. And I’m feeling like shit. I’ve been feeling very bad for quite a long time, but some days ago I couldn’t control myself. My mother was shouting at me, she kept on telling me the same things, while my sister was laughing at me and the entire situation. I shutted both up by suddenly hitting my mother in her face. She started crying, I ran away and locked myself up in my room before she could do anything else.

I hate myself! I don’t get it! Why do I always act so aggressively. This really isn’t me! I hate myself! […]

12/23/2014 11 comments

Had Enough

by emm12 12/13/2014

written by emm12

I’m at breaking point again. I fell off the rails big time 2 years ago after I was sexually assaulted twice by two different people in 3 months. It took me a while to get back on my feet. I have been to see psychologists and councillors all of which who have different diagnosis and long waiting lists. I thought I could do this by myself but I can’t, whenever I am reminded of either assault in any way I freak out. I’m scared all the time, I’m scared of boys, I shake all the time, I can’t do public transport, I’m just lost.

I’m 23 […]

12/13/2014 3 comments

My thoughts

by alex 12/12/2014

written by alex

Why cant i go a day without thinking of killing myself? Its like a constant struggle to continue to live in this world. Everything is just so meaningless to me now. Is there even a real point to continue living and moving forward or are we just fooling oursleves when we say “it will get better”.

When i use to try and ask for help to stop these thoughts people only made it worse by telling me there is something wrong with me and i should go to a therapist but all they would do is put me on pills. I dont wanna go on […]

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12/12/2014 10 comments

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2 years is 2 long

by pop180 12/9/2014

written by pop180

About two years ago, I started to realize that I was feeling very different. Being only 13, I didn’t really understand my feelings. I stayed locked up in my room when I wasn’t at school. I didn’t really talk to anyone. I wasn’t happy with my friends and I felt completely alone. I finally told my older sister that I was feeling “different” and she urged me to tell my parents but I didn’t have the guts too. I wrote them a letter explaining to them that I thought I was depressed and I wanted to go see a therapist. My parents quickly went to […]

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12/9/2014 4 comments

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Worthless

by heather416 12/7/2014

written by heather416

I’m just so tired of this all. I thought that this summer would be able to help me recover, but the thing is that I don’t ever really feel anything except for this sharp feeling in my chest. But lately, I keep on feeling really dirty whenever I lie to my friends about not being depressed, or cut, or do anything that I usually do. I get an urge to just wash myself clean of all this. The thing is, I developed a crush on a close friend of mine. But the thing is, I don’t think that this is a good kind of […]

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12/7/2014 3 comments

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Judged

by creatoroftheuniverses 12/3/2014

written by creatoroftheuniverses

Earlier this spring I made the huge mistake of telling my closest friends about my suicidal thoughts. Being the friends that they were, like any other people, they tried to talk me out of it. But my suicide plans got out to other people. They’d come and ask me about it and would always plaster a “concerned” look or “friendly” smile on their face, and start with the same frightening phrase, one that sends shivers down my spine

“I won’t judge you”

If approached about your suicide, when you hear that phrase leave their lips. Run my friend, run.

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12/3/2014 4 comments

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Honestly…

by WaitAndBleed 11/29/2014

written by WaitAndBleed

….There are so many of us. So many of us who feel suicidal and want to harm ourselves. Yet most of us say we hide away and/or try to fit in. Why is there this pressure/stigma to depression that just adds to the guilt we already have. Scared of hurting family and friends by telling them how we honestly feel. Other people can be selfish, put themselves first, are taught to look after themselves if they are treated wrong or are ill, but feeling suicidal doesn’t get anything other than a raised eyebrow, or a look of fear from people like you are going to blow […]

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11/29/2014 5 comments

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