Hi!
I’m a 15 years old girl. And I’m feeling like shit. I’ve been feeling very bad for quite a long time, but some days ago I couldn’t control myself. My mother was shouting at me, she kept on telling me the same things, while my sister was laughing at me and the entire situation. I shutted both up by suddenly hitting my mother in her face. She started crying, I ran away and locked myself up in my room before she could do anything else.
I hate myself! I don’t get it! Why do I always act so aggressively. This really isn’t me! I hate myself! I hate this world and all of its inhabitants! I don’t want this anymore. Why is just to be happy so much to ask?
I know I’m just another idiot no one really cares about. But please, please just try to understand.
I really need someone…
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dear emie, well, you have found a place where people will understand. or try to. anger and frustration is quite common here, and a lot of us have dealt with it a long time. impulse control can be a trickey thing. i have dealt with rage and impulse control for most of my life. i used it as a protective device against all the hurt and pain others caused me. it flared up last month and cost me a job i really enjoyed. the best advice i can offer, is when you feel it coming on, turn and walk away. run if you have to, but get away from the situation. lashing out is going to cause more problems, and once its over, the remorse can eat you up. knowledge is power. you are aware of the problem. that awareness can help you seek solutions to this. best of luck to you and keep trying
Thank you! This really means a lot. This is more than I dared hope when I first found this page. I don’t deserve it, but thanks a lot anyway.
I’m sorry to hear about your job.
i’m not going to sugar coat anything or give you false sympathy. i’m sorry your mother was horrible to you, but nothing justifies your hitting her. I suggest you get anger counseling or something as resorting to violence demonstrates your lack of restraint which could potentially impinge on other people – like you could hurt other people too, maybe they deserve it but in the end it’s defined as assault and could get you in serious trouble. you really need to see someone to figure out your issues, hitting someone is not okay. you hitting her probably just further perpetuates her resentment towards you which is why she could keep berating you. you’re kinda lucky she didn’t hit you back to be honest, and although that wouldn’t be justifiable on her part it would still be your fault for the most part. hitting someone when you’re offended and angry is the gateway into becoming an abusive person, get help
Really? A bit overboard I think.
Stendarr calls it like is…everytime lol This wasn’t overboard. Her mom was being mentally abusive but not physical and the girl hit her. Violence is not the answer here. She needs help to deal with her family situation but also needs to understand that this isn’t a good habit to fall into. She says she always acts aggressively so she needs help learning to control that.
Emie I am sorry about your situation. Hopefully your mom and sister will now realize how serious things are.
Find a legal way to fuck them up. All they do is legal, but it’s immoral, right? You can do the same. If you beat people, they call the cops. If you insult them, nothing happens.
Make their lives hell in a legal way. Make them feel your hurt. But don’t end up in jail.
Well, thanks for the advice, I’ll try not to.
Sorry. Not funny.
You’re 15. Hate to sound cliche, but that’s when hormones are raging and your body is changing so unfortunately, anger and other emotions might be hard to control. There’s a lot of young people on this site and the whole idea of teens saying, “I want to die” is, imo, very often based on teenage angst. Not minimizing it, I’m sure I went through it too (but it was a lonnnnng time ago). But the point is…please understand you WILL GET THROUGH IT. Things will get better. If your mother and sister are making you nuts, find another outlet for your anger. Exercise is good.
youre 15. calm down