I know we’ll never understand each other but just try to make an effort.
You don’t imagine how frustrating is have a “depressive” side that no one in your family knows or even imagine. I hide my tears. I hide my sadness. I hide my fooling (?) I hide just that side.
I wish I can make you proud but even if I try and try I can’t is something inside me who need to disappear before I could.
I love you even if sometimes I want you to disappear
Please forgive me
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Hey everybody!
I’m a new user…I’m friedoysterskins, and I’m 15 years old.
Just thought I should introduce myself. Hopefully I’m welcomed to join the community!
For my first post on here, I’d just like to vent about a few things, if that’s alright.
Alright, well I consider myself an introvert. I keep most things to myself. I prefer solitude. I’m inexpressive at times. I suffer in silence. Why?
I don’t know why I bottle myself up, or why I don’t ever share what’s on my mind.
Two reasons I came up with why I do are:
I feel compelled to not show any signs of weakness. I’m a very emotional person. Whenever […]
I guess I didn’t notice I loved you until you held my hand. I didn’t know you loved me until my friend told me what you said. But you don’t know me. You know me….but you really don’t. You think I’m perfect because that’s how I display myself. I make sure I smile and laugh. I make sure not to show any emotion I would regret latter. You just think you love me. You don’t, truth me. Once you find out, you’ll change your mind…they all do.
But if you want to know the truth, fine:
Yes, I do have scars I hide.
No, I’m not the girl […]
Well it’s that time again… But there is way too much going on in my head .. I am physically and mental and emotionally done. Now I’m throwing up ..  More and more Just keeps happening and my body aches of soreness andmy skin feels tense  and raw
I may have fallen once again for him. Maybe I’m stupid… actually I am. I’m not saying he will break my heart but from all he’s said and done, it’s going to take a long time to fix “us”. I don’t trust him but I love him. I have faith that we will be together for a long time, but I did think that last time. I honestly don’t know what to think, I guess I’m just going to go with it this time. At least if he does fuck me over, I’ll know what to expect this time.
Then again sometime the thought of him never coming into my […]
This Is My Life . Nobody Really Knows Me , If You Ask Anyone They Would Tell You That I’m The Happiest Person Ever . But They Don’t Know The Real Me . I Suffer A LOT But People Don’t Know That . I Hate My Life ; No One Can Understand Me At All , Not Even My Parents ! I Act Like I’m Fine Because I Hate People That Worry About Me , But One Day I Decided To Start Thinking . I Went To The Bathroom And Started Cutting Myself , I Felt Like Relieved In A Way . And No One […]
Be yourself they say . No one will judge you they say . Bullying & suicide only exists in movies , it’s not real they say . Well they were wrong . Things that all of us as kids never thought were impossible to do are now becoming possible . Suicide. Rape . Bullying. Emotional. Physical . Relationships. Abuse. These are all things we have to face and deal with on a daily bases . Things that I have to deal with on a daily bases .
My name will remain unknown as well as all my personal information , but at least once a […]
If you die, just know you could be worst off especially if you don’t believe in anything.
by tigerlily93
written by tigerlily93
There is nothing wrong with being suicidal, but acting on it is.
It is okay to want to die!!
But just know, you prob, feel that way because ou felt unloved or hated by the world, but we have each other.
And, you know what screw the world.
If you think about it some people in the world who arenot suicidal are more messed up than us.
It’s ok
We just have to know our lives aren’t just for us, we love for Jesus and truth and love and all things good, but if you don’t believe that you can die!
And you may not […]
I don’t want to be alive most days. I probably would have killed myself by now if I didn’t know that it would hurt too many people. Pretty much the only reason I have not attempted it yet. But I want to. I’m getting tired of wanting to. So I’m going to post this and try to move up. So I might think about it less and keep them safe from knowing that I want to die.
I am 19 years old, I go to community college and I work at a retailer to pay rent and school fees. I’m well off enough, I have savings, […]
A random thought (inspired by SuicideKillMe’s post, “You Saw”).
by LiveNoLonger
written by LiveNoLonger
This is just a random thing I thought of while walking past her in school today. This is inspired by SuicideKillMe’s post, “You Saw.” It is an amazing post & I highly recommend that you read it.
You walk by you and you look at me, not even caring about the strong friendship we once had and not even trying to bring it back. You notice that I have no friends, yet you don’t try to reach out to me to become my friend. You look at me, right in the eyes but you say nothing. You know I was right when I said that […]
Are you ready to die because of something/ things that have happened to you or do you have S.I ; suicidal ideation.
“Suicidal behavior exists along a continuum from thinking about ending one’s life (“suicidal ideation”), to developing a plan, to non-fatal suicidal behavior (“suicide attempt”), to ending one’s life (“suicide”).” Where do you sit on the continuum. Thinking about it, attempting without a plan. Seriously planning, assessing consequences and possibilities, or ….. what?
So I think I want to start writing poetry. Seems kinda gay though. But I think it will help me express how I’ve been feeling. I really have no clue how write it so if u kno how please comment.. But yeah, the feeling toward putten off have gotten kinda worse. It don’t matter though I guess,right! Ha. Ohwell. We all have to die sometime, just sometimes suicide is the best way…. Please comment if u have any tips on writing poetry.
When I see a knife, I think of stabbing it into my chest, piercing my heart. Or cutting my neck with it. When I see a tall building, I envision myself jumping from the top of it. When I see a bottle of pills, I want to swallow them all at once. I would either overdose, or choke on them. Whenever I come across a body of water, I visualize myself drowning in it, my body sinking to the bottom. Perhaps never to be seen again. When I see a gun, I imagine putting it to my head, slowly pulling the trigger. When I […]
I don’t know why I came to this website, other than to get all of my suicidal thoughts out. I have struggled with depression for a while, but lately I have felt more suicidal than depressed. I’m going to the local community college in my town. I can’t put this into words right now. Every day I’m there I feel these intense feelings come over me. I feel alone. I know I am alone, even though there are plenty of people around me. The sunshine doesn’t make me happy at all. In fact, it makes me angry and upset because the heat is so unbearable. I’m […]
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