I’m slowly dying mentally each and every day. I don’t want to be here anymore. I’ve tried so hard to look past my physical deformities and and see the “good” in people but it has gotten me nowhere. I just want to die. Today, tomorrow what the fuck ever. Days are the same. My last words before I die will be, “Fuck this place.” It’s decided, I will die of suicide. I’m a little ashamed because I promised my mom I wouldn’t.. but truthfully and honestly…. FUCK THIS PLACE!
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I’ve been thinking alot lately and I’ve come to the conclusion that life is a waste. I kinda just want to disappear. Crumble away and let a primordial wind blow away my remains. I don’t have anyone to talk to. My “friends” only show up when they need stuff so I’ve distanced myself from them. I don’t have family. I might as well be an orphan, they let me drift around aimlessly and treat me like scum. I was a good child. Great grades. Nice job. Almost finish with college. But I guess all they see is someone to benefit from. As for love, I […]
I tired of life of my family and I have no one they are never there for me and I’m sick of it I’m always confused and scared to die because of hell… But whats a quick way to die but nothing like stab myself in the gut just quick and easy
Sometimes I wonder if my suicidal thoughts have a reason behind them. I mean, I know I want to die because my life is not something I appreciate, but does it have a medical reason? Could I even have depression? Could I get help?
I don’t know why I never thought of that before. I don’t want psychological help, but could it be a possibility? My family never worried about this kind of problems because I never let people know about my emotions, I’m good at hiding.
I’m really curious about this, but at the same time I don’t care. If I actually have some kind of illness […]
I just want to pack a bag and walk. I want to see the world.
I don’t want to die without seeing it all.
I might just do that.
I never haven’t had a chance to tell very many people about this, but I am into something which is known as autoerotic asphyxia and it is not easy to talk about this and unlike other people who claim to be into this claim that it gives them a “high” and they don’t really want to die, but I think that’s bullshit and they are lying! With me, when I get hit with this intense desire, I don’t just want to experience a “high”, but I actually want to hang myself! Also, I want to be totally nude when I hang myself and then I […]
I let him get away twice because how awful I am. I just want to die and soon. i hate myself so much let me out
Well, i’ve been on a diet and daily exercise since more than 4 months. Didn’t work.
I’
m gonna start college soon and i’m tired. I struggle with this since I can remember. I just want to know how it feels to be fit, confident and such…
I hate my body image and wake up every day just to see it and feel it again and being watched by others too.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Also maybe my ex bf and I will meet again this year and I just wanted to give him a surprise.
Damn it.
Okay, so I haven’t put anything positive recently, but here’s something for you that might make you smile, even a little bit.
On here I’ve found a multitude of people who want to die, and a few have probably succeeded, but no one truly dies.
You see when you meet someone and you speak to them and get to know them, you impart a portion of yourself on them.
When your loved ones speak to someone you knew, they’ll hear your voice layered within theirs.
I wanted to keep trying and i wanted to live, but i literally can’t anymore. Im just a hollow shell of whoever i used to be. I thought that maybe i could be somebody, but i should have known better. Im nothing but a failure. I just want to be able to finally reach happiness i guess.
I don’t know how long I can even go on now. Everything anyone says just hurts to hear and I just want to be able to be strong, but I’m pretty sure thats just an unrealistic dream.
Everyone around me expects so much and they just say ‘Be happy!’ and […]
I have yet to say that I have found a plan and that it will work. I am sorry that I have said goodbye to many times and then not actually do anything about it, I am such a “wuss”. I feel like I can’t ever follow through with things and that I can’t seem to get it together these days..
NO I am not selfish for wanting to die
NO I am not trying to get attention or trying to get people to feel sorry for me because I am “sick”
I am always going to be broken, I can’t seem to get fixed
No one is going […]
I was just wondering is there anybody else who has experience/ has BPD I was recently diagnosed with it, even though in my chart in the hospital it was recorded 5 years ago but to my knowledge I was never made aware of it. about a month ago my stress levels were through the roof leading to a lot of self harm and suicidal thoughts, I was also abused as a child both sexually and physically so my intrusive thoughts were quite graphic and vivid. this lead to my dissociating and basically i lost my emotions or any i did have were warped i left […]
See, I can come up with 100 reasons NOT to live.
Life is too demanding for you.
Because there’s nothing more you want from life.
Because there’s nothing really significant you can do for the world.
No more having to prove you’re good enough for people.
No more having to lie and pretend.
No more being treated unfairly.
No more holding the weight of the world on your shoulders.
You’re tired of being judged.
No more being ordered around by people.
No more competition.
No more debt. You actually won’t need money anymore.
Because nothing can fix your problems. Not you, not therapy, or Waldo.
Because you’re going to die anyway. It might as well be on your […]
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