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Skype group reminder

by Flanker 8/17/2014

written by Flanker

This is just to remind you guys of the skype group we created a few days ago, it’s up and running. (text based chat only) With 15 guys on there, it is serving it’s purpose of eliminating (or help you cope up with) loneliness very well indeed.

Sometimes, all we need is just a pat on the back, eh? Many of you won’t even consider joining it, I know, too much hurt from past experiences. Too fucked up to give this a shot. But then, you realize we all are fucked up in one way or the other? This is what makes us compatible. People care here. All you need […]

8/17/2014 7 comments

A Bitter End

by Broken_Soul 8/16/2014

written by Broken_Soul

For those like me there truly is no rest for the weary.But at the same time if your like me you simply cannot just end your life.not that I dont want to.its that I cant.being alone for all this time has shaped me.in my eyes I must be independant and not rely on anyone else.I must do things the right way the first time or not at all.discipline comes into action if I show weakness.I become so angry with myself for making even small mistakes it intoxicating.I have too much pride you could say.like this for example…I would rather die than be caught off guard.I […]

8/16/2014 0 comment

FML -.-

by bornfordying123 8/13/2014

written by bornfordying123

Existence is pointless but for people with Social Anxiety and other condition its also a constant torture. Healthy and rich people can at least enjoy themselves and not ponder their existence too much. Some days I really wish I could believe in god, living in ignorance must be bliss.

8/13/2014 5 comments

Too Much

by teardownthewall 8/13/2014

written by teardownthewall

I want to die but I can’t. I still have people that need me to make money, too many people that need me to live. I’m not selfish enough to leave them with nothing. I don’t want them to suffer and die with me. I just want to die alone. So I have to live for them but it’s only the hollow shell of a life I’ve never really lived.

I’m still very young. I know this. At the age of 21 I should not be this hateful, this cynical, this forlorn, this lonely. But I am. I suppose I’ve always been unhappy. I’ve always been […]

8/13/2014 8 comments

I am Jack’s Drunken Rage

by Nullify 7/23/2014

written by Nullify

Anyone else sick of people telling them they drink too much? I mean, alcohol has been around since before written history. Do you honestly think the cavemen ever said “Ugh oog agga ooga boo boo.”? (Translation: Jack, I think you’ve had too much to drink.). I mean damn. When those motherfuckers wanted a woman they’d hit ’em over the head with a wooden club and drag them to their cave by their hair. And that shit was the norm. So what if I drink a bit too much a grab a butt that doesn’t belong to me? Motherfuckin’ human nature bitches.

7/23/2014 8 comments

Tired of living in constant fear

by Exultat 7/22/2014

written by Exultat

I live in constant fear, I react to everything in an exaggerated way, I have also hypersensitivity to sounds and to touch.

Low self esteem because psychological child abuses, I am all ways the different guy that everyone doesn’t want to go along. With a neurologic syndrome where is very difficult to identify feelings and other things that makes very very hard to establish relationships with others.

All this drains my energy so much that I fall into depressed states with constant toughts of suicide and stop all this shit. Have attempted before but pain was too much strong that I couldn’t cut just deep enough. Also I […]

7/22/2014 3 comments

Not Fitting in on this Forum

by seppuku 7/18/2014

written by seppuku

I’m 52, I have severe mental illness, I haven’t worked for my living in twenty years, I have a son that I never see. I live alone and have virtually no friends anymore.

I don’t listen to music, I can barely keep my house clean, I don’t cook anymore, I am on the internet all the time because I’ve really got nothing else.

I have N, I am storing it for future use, I don’t want to upset my mother so I’m trying to hold on until she passes.

Should I not be here? Sorry I am not some guy hanging out with his mates in a virtual […]

7/18/2014 36 comments

I need to believe people are who they show me

by New Shoes 7/14/2014

written by New Shoes

I swear I can’t get mad at people, I get mad at myself instead when they let me down or do something wrong because of course it would have to be my fault and I am getting what I deserve. There is a person in my life with several issues but I accept them for who they are or who I wanted to believe they are. It’s like no matter how they treat me I tell myself they are doing the best they can and I need lighten up. I feel humiliated for what I tolerate. Is mutual respect really too much to ask for? […]

7/14/2014 2 comments

Suicide This, Suicide That

by BoyofChagrin 7/13/2014

written by BoyofChagrin

I think suicide is just about the only thing I think about anymore. I doubt if I will commit any time soon as I want to record some of my thoughts to leave behind so my family knows whats been going on right in front of them. The reality for me now is that someday I will die by my own hand and nothing can change that. I don’t even have a story, all I am is a middle-class white teen with too much time on his hands. *sigh* Heading off to work, so I can think about suicide while people around me think about […]

7/13/2014 8 comments

Sleeping Pills…

by sad girl 7/12/2014

written by sad girl

Hey… So I have think too much about overdose with sleeping pills. I think that I’ll just fall asleep forever. But how many pills do I need to use?v

7/12/2014 7 comments

this nightmare will never end

by andartarius 7/10/2014

written by andartarius

Im so damn tired , too much suffering too much pain, just reading the posts here makes me wanna die even more, i feel like its never going to end… oh my god what am i going to do, im truly scared

7/10/2014 5 comments

End this now…. please

by Pdog 7/3/2014

written by Pdog

I’m sure my story isn’t unique. I started off strong and passionate. Now it’s just physical and emotional pain. Both equally disable my ability to love, converse, work, and sleep. My heart pounds every day like the annoying construction workers outside my window.
I’ve tried meds and nothing helps. The anxiety is just too much to handle. I live in San Francisco and see the golden gate bridge on a daily basis. If only I had the balls to jump off. Everyday is worse than the last. I guess I’ll just try and OD on morphine again, but it never works. I’ve taken over 1000 […]

7/3/2014 22 comments

depression is a monster that eat human alive

by addicted 7/2/2014

written by addicted

Everyone’s moving on without me, into a world I don’t understand -sophie kinsella

Broke is a relative term, like sister, cousin, or Uncle Sam -jarod kintz

Most people who think they’re happy are really just stupid –Tok Kitt

“Dead, but not allowed to die. Alive, but as good as dead.” ? Suzanne Collins

Perhaps depression is caused by asking oneself too many unanswerable questions.

I’m too much of a coward to kill myself. And too much of a coward to live

Sometimes you just gotta hope for the hope of having hope some day.” ? Jeffery Thompson

“Maybe you think life is not worth living, but is death […]

7/2/2014 0 comment

Taking half a hint from C4..

by RealTalk30 7/1/2014

written by RealTalk30

My material possessions are starting to consume my life
There is just too much shit I don’t need and I’m paying too much for living expenses when I could be saving tons of money. This isn’t survival, and it’s not working. I have some debt too.
Gonna start selling off and throwing away pretty much half of everything. Ill have to give up my fish tank I guess 🙁 I really wanted to keep them for the next 10 years or so but I need to be light on my feet and go where the wind takes me. I need to get the hell away […]

7/1/2014 3 comments

by broken818 7/1/2014

written by broken818

i seriously cant take life its too much for me ….

7/1/2014 1 comment

Emotional…

by RealTalk30 6/30/2014

written by RealTalk30

I just wish she could have seen a better side to me.. I wish she could have seen me at my best cuz I don’t think we ever got there. I was always struggling..with money, with addiction, with my own mental confusions.. Always trying to get over some hump that seemed to stem from my troubles. I was always complaining it seemed.. I expected too much. I couldn’t be that cool headed guy I wanted to be.. That she deserved the most.
I just feel like there was something I could have done to keep her around. But I didn’t do it..
The parts of […]

6/30/2014 6 comments

Dear Friend

by not here 6/30/2014

written by not here

I’m two days late. And a year late. It doesn’t matter to you but it does to me and I’m sorry. A lot has happened, but little has changed. I still miss you. A lot. I don’t think about you enough, it makes me too sad when I do. I wish I did though, it’s worth it to keep the thoughts of you fresh. It was nice to see your parents again today, it always is. I hope that they’re doing okay, as impossible as it may seem. I don’t want to say too much this year, I’m already having enough difficulty as it is. […]

6/30/2014 0 comment

relapse

by dose_of_sadness 6/27/2014

written by dose_of_sadness

I can’t believe myself. 58 days I went without cutting. 58 days of suppressing the tears until i could lock myself in my room and cry myself to sleep. 58 days of resisting the urges with all my will. did I cut when my ex yelled at me and told me he wished I would just fucking die? Did I cut when my uncle killed himself? Did I cut on any of those days when life was just too much for me to get out of bed, but I had to force myself to because if I didn’t who would take care of my brothers? […]

6/27/2014 2 comments

I am tired now

by Near Death 6/21/2014

written by Near Death

Hello,I have planned to end my life soon.I find it better than wasting time wandering around for help,which,in my case,i never got.

I am 18 yrs old.My family are religious fanatics.The kind of people who would run to God for every silly thing.They are weak people.Never gained the strength to live life.And they tried really hard to instill this “attribute” or “goodness” in me.But i simply dont understand all this nonsense.My mother has separated from my dad 5 yrs back.And shez extremely touchy and volatile.I cannot share anything with her as things blow up out of control.

I am left all alone now.I have lost my esteem;much […]

6/21/2014 2 comments

by broken818 6/17/2014

written by broken818

im so tired of thinking things will get better when its obvious there only getting worse i cant take life its just too much for me !!! i really dont know what to do with myself 🙁 !!!!

6/17/2014 4 comments

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