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True Self

The Dichotomy Dilemma

by scarredkitty 8/29/2013

written by scarredkitty

So, suicide is a weird thing.

I don’t mean to offend anyone with the above statement so allow me to explain further.

Every day since it’s entered my brain that at some point whether in the near or later future, I will most certainly be ending my life, there has been a war inside my mind. Now, there has always been a war inside my mind. The devil and the angel on my shoulder..the good wolf and the bad wolf, we’ve all heard those examples and cliches, but all in all they sum it up. The good voice telling me I’m great and awesome and offer the […]

8/29/2013 4 comments

I want to be ………?

by Unique 9/21/2012

written by Unique

What do you want?

Life can be very difficult, I know how bad it can get, The pain of losing someone is second to none. If you know that pain then i am truly sorry for you. How about that I’m starting to tear up in a public internet cafe inÂ Delhi, and i already kind of stick out!!

Things that have helped me, I mediated three times a day, it is an amazing stress release and it helps me loads, I try to surround myself in friends and new people. Do not hide away, sometimes you need to be alone, but do not linger, loneliness breads depression […]

9/21/2012 4 comments

What’s an “I”?

by orangish 7/18/2012

written by orangish

I don’t know.

Am I alive? It’s hard to say.

This is what I know. There is something which refers to itself as “I,” and this something exists. “I” can see systems at work everywhere. Processes running to accomplish various goals, some for no reason at all, and everything feeds and retrieves virtual information from everything else.

Other people do not exist. Only mapped neural networks which grow and branch out, and feed virtual information to other mapped neural networks, and retrieve virtual information from other mapped neural networks. Society is the system of all such mapped neural networks. It is the overall mapping of these neural networks.

This […]

7/18/2012 4 comments

so fed up

by recurrent depression 7/14/2012

written by recurrent depression

I’m just so bloody fed up! I’ve quit drinking, smoking weed and smoking cigarettes, these used to take me away for a bit from the heavy depression i’m now feeling all over. Today I got rid of my best friend once and for all because they were just bad for me and made me feel like shit most of the time.

Although I’ve done this, I now have no one as I don’t trust anyone and find it very hard to get close to anyone.

A friend of my family committed suicide a few months back and the damage they caused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I can’t help thinking how lucky […]

7/14/2012 2 comments

just another person

by Marissa Kresge 7/4/2012

written by Marissa Kresge

Hi. I’m marissa and I’m a drug addict and an achoolic and “suicidal”

I havent always been like this. It started in 6th grade. I had no friends cause my best friend/ only left me for another person. I was all alone. Then 7th grade rolled around and I made a couple new friends and started to drink my worries away. I would rarely talk in school to anyone. When I got home I would alway go home and cry. I cut every night. When 8th grade came I was majorly popular. But it wasn’t my true self that was popular, it was my fake. My […]

7/4/2012 1 comment

Through and Not

by SomeMalaise 6/28/2012

written by SomeMalaise

I’m feeling so much right now that I am unable to express it. I’ve always been like this. Words cannot describe the feeling inside my soul. I still go on but I am also stuck.

I really see no reason to go on. I do but without reason and filled with nothing. Empty. I have trouble validating anything exists. If it exists then what is my reason for living? To work wearing women’s outfits though in my soul I am a male? To hide my true self …what’s left of it? I don’t want to be apart of a plan if there isn’t one. […]

6/28/2012 0 comment

An Alien in Their Human World

by U.N. Owen 5/14/2012

written by U.N. Owen

Born missing something in your brain.Â That piece that makes many crave attention and affection.Â When these things are offered you cringe in confusion.Â Knowing that others readily accept them but they seem rather uncomfortable.Â And you force yourself to act like you enjoy them because it makes others smile.Â One thing does touch you.Â The ones who are outsiders-ostracized-cast out-victims-pariahs.Â Their plight awakens an inner affinity.

Then there is the violation.Â Inall your collected dataÂ this only happens between adults.Â Between husband and wife.Â Between girlfriend and boyfriend.Â Not between adult and child.Â Not between two males.Â Deep down you know that this is monumentally worse […]

5/14/2012 0 comment