just another person

Hi. I’m marissa and I’m a drug addict and an achoolic and “suicidal”

I havent always been like this. It started in 6th grade. I had no friends cause my best friend/ only left me for another person. I was all alone. Then 7th grade rolled around and I made a couple new friends and started to drink my worries away. I would rarely talk in school to anyone. When I got home I would alway go home and cry. I cut every night. When 8th grade came I was majorly popular. But it wasn’t my true self that was popular, it was my fake. My best friend and I got back together and started talking then she introduced me to her other friends who did drugs and after that I never looked back. In November 2011 my mother got married. Her husband verbaly abuses me every day and so does my mother. In July 2011 I had a panic attack and tried to commit suicide. I was put on depression pills since then but 2 weeks after my mother stopped giving them to me. And stopped taking me to therapy because of “money” when she makes 600 a week. I’ve been majorly depressed since. September I am going into 9th grade and I am certain I am not gonna be here for 10th if my life continues on like this anymore. I’ve been bullied most of my life for my weight. And recently for my voice. I’m not one to talk much nor to be around people much but the fake me is a party animal. My best friend is the only I can trust anymore. My life has just gone to hell anymore. If your still reading this I guess you do care. Well thats all I have to say nowOh and one more thing so you know why this al started in september of 2011 my aunt died and she was like a mother to me life hasn’t been the same ever since