My best friend is in Ohio, and I’m stuck here in New Jersey. He’ll only be there for a week, and he’s coming home on Friday, but then I’m going to Pennsylvania for a few days with my Dad to see two bands (Skillet + Hawk Nelson). He doesn’t have internet, and I certainly won’t. He’s my lifeline, the only concrete reason I live for. Sure, I could say that I live for the breathtaking surrealness when you go to a concert, and see the band(s) that you’ve listened to at your darkest moment. Or that I live for fireworks on the 4th of July. […]
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Two Steps
When to Say When?
I been thinking……. when is there ever a time in a person’s life that they should say fuck it & give up on life & end it?
Is there ever a time to say: I’ve tried but it’s now time to stop feeling lonely, being rejected, stop taking one steps forward and two step back in everything in life and just pull the trigger.
I think I’m just not built for life ups & downs. Seriously
two more life steps and I get to end it all with as little hard feelings as possible.
1. save up nest egg for brother
2. kill self
simple; I don’t care anymore how I earn the money, just that I do. I’m putting this out to my universe so that it sinks deepeer into my brain. I don’t give a fuck about existence. I want out. The things that go on around me, this life, this society of “civilized” apes.. me nah want it. fuck it. keep it. don’t need it. don’t want perception. don’t want a brain. don’t want to know anything. non-existence, c’est ca […]