I getting closer to 30 years old.
I am currently unemployed.
And apart from a few casual jobs which I could never last in,
I have never worked a day in my life.
I don’t have any friends.
In fact I don’t have any good rapport with anyone.
Which means I have absolutely no references.
I am still on my learners license after 9 years and 3 expiries.
I do nothing all day.
I am lazy and have no motivation.
Is there any hope for me at all?
I don’t want to die. I don’t. I want a normal, happy life so bad. But I know that I will never have one. I’m 45, divorced, no children, unemployed for 2 years, My career is over. I live with my mom. I’m beyond lonely. Women won’t have anything to do with me. My money is gone. I wake up every morning scared to death. Any hope at salvaging a normal life is gone. I purchased a gun yesterday with the last money I had. God help me!! I’m so scared!!!!!
I recently came to the conclusion, maybe I don’t need to end my life I just need a new one. How would this work?
Get separated.
Move.
Use gov. assistance to pay for daycare & actually get a degree and job.
Actually stand on my own for once.
Well, f!ck me apparently. There’s really not such a thing as separation in Nebraska. I would still have to do all the steps for a divorce, which I can’t afford and neither can my husband. I’m stuck in a marriage I don’t want to be in. I have been screwing another guy for 6 months now…..I don’t think I could want any […]
Generally my feelings of wanting to be dead are not linked to any kind of self-loathing at all, that’s how it was for years at least. Basically I just didn’t want to be here anymore. Once I turned 20 that changed though.
I was forced to drop out of college. One of the classes I was taking was self-paced (no problem) but the book answers were wrong when it came to test time. I pointed this out to the teacher who argued “you’re doing the lessons too fast it should take you two weeks to do a chapter.” to which I retorted “I took self paced […]
I am very happy (weird statement in a post about suicide, I know) and thankful that I came across this site. It’s a rare chance that one can, with total abandon, present one’s life in a self-pitying view and (hopefully) not be judged.
If there is anything I have learned is that in life, CHOICE DICTATES ALL. Jaded, disillusioned, trapped, confused, hugely embarrassed, angry, bitter, sad and tired, I am all these things, all because of my very poor and misguided life choices. If I could turn back time I most definitely would because I hate feeling how I feel right now.
My life started well enough. […]
‘Pearls Before Swine’ by Stephan Pastis (May 6, 2012)
I’m not looking for advice at all since I have zero motivation to improve my lot in life. I’m merely writing this to ***** and vent and commiserate with any potential like-minded souls that might feel the same way while I’m still here.
I have no money. No job. And only got a high school diploma. I am 34 years old and am living with my parents, whom I am […]
Is anyone out there in the same boat as me?
26 years old
I’m unemployed now for about 1.5 years
I can’t afford the repayments on my unit
I’m fat
I’m ugly
I’ve not a cent to my name
Oh, yes, and I don’t have a drivers licence
I’d just like to know if there is anyone going through the same thing. I guess it feels good to know you are not alone. I don’t know.
I’m 61 years old, never married, no kids, closest family members have passed away. I had a very good career, owned my own home, etc. Over recent years have lost about everything, Can’t find a job. No one wants to hire me because I’m too close to retirement age, insurance would probably be pretty expensive, and with my experience, it’s cheaper to hire someone else fresh out of college. I owe some big taxes from better times and the feds are coming after me for that. I can’t pay. I can barely pay my rent and bills on a part-time, no-benefits job. The feds say […]