Iâ€™m in a bit of a situation and I need help making a final decision, please tell me what you would do.
I graduated from high school in June in the top 10% of my class. All of my friends are going to good universities and started leaving last week. I moved in today. The university Iâ€™m going to is only an hour away from my home and I can come home every weekend. At this specific university I was chosen to receive early admittance into nursing school which is hard to get into. Iâ€™m rooming with a good friend of mine from high school, she has already been going here for a year. I have really bad anxiety and an eating disorder as well. This summer I have gotten much worse because of the anxiety that leaving for college brought. This anxiety is unbearable, I want to kill myself just to make it go away. Part of me wants to stay at home and go to a community college not far away. I could go for free and get a job. Iâ€™m afraid that if I make this choice my family and friends will all be disappointed in me. I donâ€™t think they will understand because they are not the ones experiencing the anxiety. I really donâ€™t know what to do. Iâ€™ve never been this suicidal before and itâ€™s scary. If you were me, what would you do? Stay at the university, or go back home?
I would stay a few weeks to try it out, but the longer I wait I won’t be able to get a full refund.
Help me please.