All I have ever wanted is her acknowledgment and her praise. My mom pressures me to do better, achieve more, push myself. I have always tried to top her expectations, but I always fall short of perfect. These unreasonable expectations have made me feel like I can’t make anybody proud. Years of academic praise from teachers, awards from the city and even other people telling my mom to go easy on me… It just makes her certain I can do better…
I have fallen into a very dark place, trying to make everybody proud of me. I just can’t do it anymore. I can’t put […]
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Unreasonable Expectations
I am tired of studying, I’m tired of working, paying my bills, doing the dishes, crossing the street. I am tired of my morning coffee. I am tired of making small talk while watching your fake face smiling at me. I’m tired of all the mundane little inconveniences of being alive… I am tired of doing the laundry, reading books, brushing my hair, I am tired of caring, smiling, pretending and all the other symptoms of life…. my ears are going deaf listing to your lies and my lies, my eyes are going blind from you betrayals and my betrayals. Stop,,, I want it all […]