I am TIRED!!!

I am tired of studying, I’m tired of working, paying my bills, doing the dishes, crossing the street. I am tired of my morning coffee. I am tired of making small talk while watching your fake face smiling at me. I’m tired of all the mundane little inconveniences of being alive… I am tired of doing the laundry, reading books, brushing my hair, I am tired of caring, smiling, pretending and all the other symptoms of life…. my ears are going deaf listing to your lies and my lies, my eyes are going blind from you betrayals and my betrayals. Stop,,, I want it all to stop. Life hasn’t felt good in a long time.
I am disappointed. No i do not have unreasonable expectations and who ever said live life without expectations so you won’t be disappointed was a total idiot. How can u not have expectations? u wake up in the morning expecting to have at least a decent day. for things to go “some what” your way. u expect some level of happiness in your life. Some level of hope to keep you working for a better future. U cannot live without expectations or you will not get out of bed at all. I know this cuz i gave up all expectations and now i can’t face the day.. why even get up? why should i continue this? I want nothing and I need nothing.. Life can not go on without desire, without hope… Life just got the better of me that’s all.