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A Quick Question For You All

by Matt 3/8/2015

written by Matt

Why do we hurt ourselves?

And I don’t mean in the physically obvious way that so many of us on here have, I mean in an emotional sense.

Why do we persist with people that deep down we know are hurting us, or will eventually hurt us? Sometimes its obvious to us that these people are bad news.

I keep asking myself this question, it’s like there’s two versions of me, the rational side that only manifests for a few seconds every hour, and then the crazy version that is in the drivers seat most of the day.

The rational me will be sat there going, “Don’t speak to […]

3/8/2015 3 comments

Any point

by lissbabe 3/6/2015

written by lissbabe

is there any point in any of us being on this earth all it leads is people going into dispair and depression or hurt. Why do we have to go through this? There is no point in any of this no point in being here, i’ve finally reached my end sad to think really but i could end it without a batter of an eyelash, i don’t care about life anymore if you care to much you’ll just end up hurt. So please leave your comments and tell me whether you think life is worth living anymore

3/6/2015 1 comment

101 Reasons We Were Friends

by Matt 3/5/2015

written by Matt

This list is for a specific person, but for anyone out there who would like to be my friend/ already is my friend, you must be able to tick atleast one of the following attributes.

1) The way you brushed your hair out of your eyes.

2) You never pretended to find my jokes funny…

3) …Unless you actually thought they were.

4) Your self conciousness.

5) The way you’d comfort me when I was down.

6) Your cooking skills were unparalleled.

7) Your favourite Smiths song is “Frankly Mr Shankly”

8) Your crush on the guy that lived across from us.

9) You weren’t afraid to say it how you saw it.

10) The […]

3/5/2015 3 comments

Something Worth Pondering

by L4Y 3/4/2015

written by L4Y

“I’m not depressed and I’m not unhappy, because I believe that happiness is not a destination to reach and set up camp at, it’s a place you visit every once in a while when the stars are aligned just right or something along those lines.”

This was sent to me by someone in an E-mail a couple of weeks ago and it got me thinking. I (like many other people here, I’m sure) have not been happy in many years and I wonder if constant, true happiness is common even for those who possess all of the things many of us relate to happiness – money, […]

3/4/2015 3 comments

It’s been 4 years.

by thepainter 2/28/2015

written by thepainter

Still struggling. All this time.

I managed to get my life together. I thought I would be happier with a job. With animals. With a boyfriend. It just goes to show you ignoring depression doesn’t work. Now I have more responsibilities.and still want the same. Death. I have been thinking about it more and more. A familiar face. My boyfriend’s apology. And I’m sucked in. UNleash these thoughts and then it is endless for hours and hours, just thinking and researching and wondering. I talk myself out of it at the end of the day. I lose hours and hours to it then. A sick fascination with […]

2/28/2015 1 comment

Thirteen Minutes to Midnight

by Matt 2/25/2015

written by Matt

As I write this it is 23:47. 13 minutes until midnight.

The clock begins again in 13 minutes.

Life begins anew in 13 minutes.

It is 23:47 where he is.

It is 23:47 where she is.

It is 23:47 where they all are.

The last connection we have is time.

Time will always bind us together, until one of us slips outside of it’s domain.

In 13 minutes the day in which I die could begin.

In 13 minutes the day in which I live could begin.

I wonder what they will spend the next 13 minutes doing.

Are they dreaming? Or are they awake?

Are they dreaming of me?

In 13 minutes these thoughts will be the […]

2/25/2015 2 comments

Seems I’m not alone at being alone..

by mick9999 2/25/2015

written by mick9999

Hi all,

I am a bipolar, drug induced psychosis and suicide survivor.

My life was such chaos before diagnosis and I honestly don’t know how i made it out alive. I’ve had a few serious attempts. When I say serious, I mean more spontaneous, not planned, I was caught downing three months of antidepressants, had material rip when I tried to asphyxiate myself and my dogs eyes stopped me from driving us over a cliff. I have also had my cry for help attempts. I didn’t want to die, but I didn’t want to live either. I wanted help, so I would tell someone that I was […]

2/25/2015 2 comments

Lost Ones

by Matt 2/20/2015

written by Matt

I’ve just been reading a post from about six months ago on here, and it saddens me how many users that commented on it no longer post on here.

I mean they could have turned their life around and maybe they not longer need a suicidal forum but I kind of suspect from the nature of their comments that they’re no longer with us.

What makes me even sadder is wondering who’ll still be here in six months. How many people I’ve spoken to on here on a daily basis for weeks will still be around.

I won’t be here in six months.

2/20/2015 4 comments

Letter to God

by Mathematicianmusician 2/19/2015

written by Mathematicianmusician

Should I take a nap? I am a little stressed/depressed. Not sure which one came first. I feel angry that the world is the way it is and I am the way I am. People get all of these diseases through genetics and it just isn’t fair that you made us this way. You give us purpose to solve these medical problems, but would it not have been easier on us to just enjoy your world and each other. Thank you for allowing me to cry. I felt somewhat better for a few minutes, but I still feel the same level of stress. It’s still […]

2/19/2015 0 comment

Hold

by Matt 2/18/2015

written by Matt

isnt it scary how one person can have such a hold over you??

i wanted to sleep tonight but my mind wouldnt rest, so i went through all my text conversations from months ago.

ive long since deleted our text histories, along with your number. i wish i hadnt, i miss the cute things we said to each other when one of us was down

i honestly dont know where things stand with us. i dont know whether you hate me, or if you just think youre giving me space until im better. either way, youre not here and youre really the only person i want to talk […]

2/18/2015 1 comment

Life goes on…

by perfect2bones 2/18/2015

written by perfect2bones

I have been stuck here for 15 years. I have parents that are very old fashioned, but lately have been slacking up with my brother (5 years younger than me) and it is pissing me off. He has turned into a sneaky brat. And my parents thing I’M the disrespectful one. No, but the two of us shouldn’t have the same rules. They smother me and I am not allowed to go out. Oh, and I weigh 90llbs and want to weigh 80. So I basically just want me and my boyfriend to move away into the forest with our guns, horses, and no food […]

2/18/2015 0 comment

Do You Do This?

by Matt 2/17/2015

written by Matt

Does anyone else have conversations with people who are long gone?

I mean, I’m doing it all the time now. I’m not even thinking up the other side of the conversation in my head, it just comes out, reply after reply after reply to ghosts. To an outsider listening to me, they’d assume I was just on the phone.

I’ve had different variations of the last fight I ever had with him. Versions where I was on the defensive, versions where I attacked… Why did I have to stay silent when it really mattered?

If I’d spoken up when you asked me to leave and not come back, […]

2/17/2015 1 comment

scars

by maxwell 2/15/2015

written by maxwell

We all have our own stories some may be worse than others but Every scar that buries deep within my skin holds its own story, every one of them shows a victory, its showing that I have won yet another battle with life, so why hate me and judge me for what lies on my arm, you don’t judge a soldier for a battle wound or scars because he got that fighting a war for his life, I did the same thing I have won a war for my life and these are the wounds and scars that have been left behind for me to […]

2/15/2015 2 comments

God… Are You There?

by thelost 2/11/2015

written by thelost

Is God there? I mean, there are tons of different opinions on this and any of them could be right. I honestly don’t invest anything in God or any other kind of religion. I mean if there was something out there why would we be here? Why would the site exist? Why would he punish us with whatever’s wrong with us? It doesn’t make sense to me but you know… I guess you could say some shit about the bible or whatever but honestly most of the bible is basically justifying why God doesn’t do anything, so it kinda sounds like a crock of shit to anyone with a cynical […]

2/11/2015 3 comments

Don’t know how to deal with this…

by pumpkinlover 2/11/2015

written by pumpkinlover

Money. It’s truly evil. Or in some part evil. I’m sitting here thinking to myself that if I had money, just maybe I wouldn’t feel like my only escape is death. I’m trying not to give up but, shit, winter is just dragging my ass down. I can’t escape from this hell I’m lock away in because going outside entitles freezing my ass off… With no car, it’s extremely hard to get anywhere… You would never guess that a vehicle is almost the most important thing, next to a place to live. I’m pretty much poor… Boyfriend can’t get anywhere to work so his mom […]

2/11/2015 2 comments

To Alek

by Pretend Girl 2/10/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I’m sorry you are going through a really hard time right now. I read what you say about your father and then, about how you are a bad guy. Can you see how your dad started that feeling and it is not your true self? We all do things that make us a “bad guy” of life. But in reality those bad things mean we were behaving badly and NOT that we are a bad guy. Please hear me when I say the fact you don’t like how you’ve acted is the start of a better Alek.

I hear your sorrow for being so sad and […]

2/10/2015 2 comments

Misanthropy at its finest

by jizmhead 2/8/2015

written by jizmhead

The more I think about it the more I say Fuck this world! Sure there is much beauty on this planet but then it is vivaciously obscured by the undignified injustices that occur daily as they have been for centuries. The greed, governmental corruption, theft, intentional misleading by our elected officials just so that they can fulfill their own agendas and Fuck the next guy; have greatly distorted my perceptions of the beautiful life that is painted for us as children!!! I guess that’s called “reality.” The beauty of this planet is one thing (another existence that we as humans are slowly destroying as well) […]

2/8/2015 3 comments

Bravery is different for us all…

by theforgottenfew 2/4/2015

written by theforgottenfew

“There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself, or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known, or everyone you have ever loved, for the sake of something greater.

But sometimes it doesn’t.

Sometimes it is nothing more than gritting your teeth through pain, and the work of every day, the slow walk toward a better life.”
Veronica Roth, Insurgent #3

This passage resonates so deeply in me.

2/4/2015 15 comments

reminders

by lost_soul 2/4/2015

written by lost_soul

1. We exist
2. Every action has an equal reaction
3. We are the Universe and the Universe is us
4. Change is continuous
5. There is no past or future, only now.

2/4/2015 3 comments

help me write my book / suicide book?

by munckin 1/31/2015

written by munckin

We no longer need a select group to rule for us; this is because we have have made advanced progress in technology which enables us to communicate at a much quicker progress then before. In a mere few minutes we can compile votes and have the results at the same time which before would took days if not weeks to tally otherwise.

We can ask more complicated questions of the WORLD, COUNTRY and locally and have the answer almost straight away; this all is available RIGHT NOW.

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Does anyone agree with this?

1/31/2015 2 comments

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