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Fml

by lostwander 9/12/2015

written by lostwander

I’ve been at work since seven

I haven’t been able to even think about work clearly, because my mind is reminding me about my relationship

Reminding me of how stupid I am

How being a female, who’s over emotional already, shouldn’t act crazy for attention

How I made the love of my life walk away from me

How I asked him to please come back to me and he told me I was killing him…

but little does he know is that he’s killing me.

I found a box of razor blades.

one cut for every time I’ve called

their not big or deep cuts but they hurt

I’m not good at pain

idk what to […]

9/12/2015 3 comments

A beautiful life

by life_reset 7/4/2015

written by life_reset

The most beautiful thing happened when i logged in to write here. The check-mark on the login page said, ‘remember me’. What a wonderful thought indeed, made me smile. I don’t know why i chose to write here, why go through the process of registering and then confirming, checking email for new password and writing now. But anyways am here, let’s make the most of it..

Today is one of my darkest days. Three months back if anyone would have spoken of ending their lives I would have dissuaded them fervently. But bearing the same suicidal thought tonight, I somehow feel at ease with myself. Life […]

7/4/2015 3 comments

done

by emmygirl 5/24/2015

written by emmygirl

Im over it over everything im always either angry, crying or numb i cant go a day without drinking i dnt want too being sober makes it harder to face the fact that im worthless and have every reason to kill myself i try to talk myself out of it but each time i feel like im closer im just so tired of crying and hurting all the time things dnt get any better. 21 years and they only get worseim not sure how much longer i can take this or if i want to try anymore. Its time i accepted that soon […]

5/24/2015 2 comments

thoughts

by thelostgirl1499 7/28/2014

written by thelostgirl1499

These thoughts in my head are horrible.

I’m so scared,it’s not even the fact im having suicidal thoughts,its the fact that nobody can hrlp me and that this time they’re scaring me.

They’re winning.

For the first time in a long time.

What do i do?i dont feel in control i just keep screaming and crying,i cant eat and im struggling to stand for long periods of time..

I dont want too go,not yet..but i might have too.

7/28/2014 18 comments

The end..

by aflockofpandas 5/20/2014

written by aflockofpandas

If you read my last post you’d understand.. I just can’t do anything right. Ever since I let my weed dealer drive my car without a license and wreck my life has been havoc. He got 6 months jail, but my 7 grand is gone.. My parents are so disappointed with me. My day consists of waking up for school, having dad take me, being forced to go to my parents friends house till 9PM every night basically as a sitter till my dad gets out of class. The car ride home is 25 minutes and all we do is fight and he tells me […]

5/20/2014 1 comment

Me and My mom

by hannahhartsyou 9/19/2012

written by hannahhartsyou

My mom and I have a horribleÂ relationship. We are always fighting! No lie. Its not like I want to. But I really can help it. BeforeÂ FebruaryÂ sheÂ physical abuse.Â Â But I had had enough of the abuse and called the police. She would pull my hair and throw things at me. She punched me and kicked me. One time he threw a phone at me and sprang my arm. After the police she didn’t do that to me as much. Now its more so Verbally. I only have 4 years left at my house. But with all the names she calls me I’m not sure how I’ll do […]

9/19/2012 3 comments