I don’t believe that I lack all strength. I just don’t have enough to do anything with my opportunities. I don’t want to wake up, and I don’t want to look for jobs, and I don’t want to get a new job or keep mine. I don’t want to go outside. I don’t want to talk to people, even family. I don’t want to get a paycheck. I don’t want to have a home. I don’t want to call this nice young lady I’m dating. I don’t want to go to dinner tonight. I don’t want to act or play music or teach or be […]
Um, so… Hi?
Google suggested I come here and I really don’t know if that was such a good idea or not. I’m Pro Choice and this site doesn’t look like it gives you much of a choice. “SP” looks like a “No Kill Zone” and that’s fine, but I’m more a “Living Optional” kind of person. It kills me when people make choices for you, but don’t come up with a solution. “It’ll get better…” they croak, but the sad truth is, no it doesn’t get better; it gets worse.
If you’re young, wait a few years; If you’re old, […]
But I don’t want to be like them
First of all I don’t want my mess to visible
I don’t want to be a visible mess,Yeah at the time it feels good but when your up there crying like that people think your really fucked up(unless you have something to show,and I don’t) and I party but not like that I party by myself,I love those girls there so pretty and there just like me
Around last year, 7th grade, I started feeling depressed for no reason. I was crying every day and getting suicidal thoughts. My mother got me tested and we found out I have depression. I have switched medicines I think 3 times now. Lately I have stopped taking my medicine and I have been feeling better, but tonight I fell asleep or something and woke up with my internet pulled up with “can I overdose on celexa” in the search bar. I started crying. I still haven’t stopped. I thought about it and I’m actually thinking about what it would be like if I did kill […]
I don’t really understand the point of this site. I am not being shitty or anything like that….just wondering how all of this works?? I NEED help in finding some easy way of getting “the job” done without ANY chance of survival and in hopes of finding answers since I posted early yesterday I only had 2 comments and they were to help me as in “I am here for you” and that type of thing. Thanks, but no thanks….I just am going crazy here wracking my brain and nobody understands that I WANT an END/ just an END that is all!!!! Why do I […]
When they say silence is golden,
you know it’s true,
when you experience her,
yelling at you.
You want to cry,
you hold back tears,
everything you lost,
is so near.
You look her in the eye,
and take it like a man,
even when you’ve had enough,
when it’s all you can stand.
She doesn’t care,
she keeps yelling.
Maybe becomes physical,
she says don’t go telling.
You keep your mouth shut,
you wipe away your tears,
you put on a fake smile,
for your sanity my dear.
Once your awake,
you fear the day,
you want to go back to sleep,
and make your pain wash away.
When she […]
My mother was only 16 when she had me, she lived in England, in a place called Bath. She was walking home one day and was raped, she then got pregnant with my sister Fable and me. She moved to America, Killeen, Texas. My mom then was addicted to drugs. She raised us till we were 2, she then gave up us for adoption. My now mother adopted us when we were 4. She was abusive and she moved around so much. By the time we were 7, we had already lived in all the states except Alaska and Hawaii. My sister had been in […]
Picked up my uke and played it just now for the first time in a very, very long time (probably because I want to smash it to pieces when I see it because it is a painful reminder to me) Anyway, it was horribly out of tune. I tuned it as best as I could (too impatient to put more effort into tuning).
Here’s me – playing and singing awfully out of tune w an out of tune uke. Â I don’t care much these days.
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I am a male, still young, but I am most likely older than you probably think.
I live in America, this is a place were greed, lies, and aggressiveness have overcome the values of health, happiness, and peace. I am not referring to just the politics, I am referring to everyone. I cannot turn my head without witnessing bullying, toxic addicting foods, absolutely no leadership offered by those who were elected into government positions, and general soon-to-be facism. I hate this place. Currently, I have no friends or caring family, I can’t feel happiness, and I am constantly restless. I feel like I am being sucked dry […]
Well… It’s because I care.
I care about all of you and I want you to be happy.
I know that you’re not happy. =_=â€
And that’s okay; we all have our own problems.
As I’ve been reading some of your posts I know you don’t want to die but you want to take your pain away and leave from your problems. However there is always hope. Let’s not give up. ‪
I know I can’t change your decision because….only someone who lives in that painful know clearly how hurt […]
Since my Mom was killed due to doctor error two years ago I haven’t been able to string together three good weeks. My own health problems increased and I live like a shut-in. Only going to work and coming home and doing basic tasks. I recently had 3 decent days. 3 days where I didn’t wish for a painless death. That ended Monday. My never ending problems cropped up again. My face is damaged. The doctors can’t help and often create more damage. I have to get my Will done but I can’t even do that now with my current problems. I have the forms […]
So yeah, im new here and its really hard to write here although noone knows the hell who i am. Have been here now 2-3 months or so, watching other peoples posts n stuff. I can t believe its hard to write here bout my feelings, i mean noone here knows me and most guys here are quite nice. The void in my soul just so gigantic. Ist hurts so much. Its anxiety, i Know it. Sounds weird although i seemingly feel nothing anymore, i know im scared.
So this ist where i am. Feel free to just skip this post now. Im doing this cause […]
I am 19 and for the past 3 years I have felt like shit. I fell hopeless, unloved, unimportant, insignificant. I feel like nothing really matters. I feel like my life is directionless and has no meaning. I am in major pain. I have a low self esteem even though I have been told the opposite of what I think. I feel like people are lying to me. I make good grades in my college courses that I take. I still feel stupid. I feel unwanted. I have no friends and no boyfriend because I am introverted. I can’t seem to make myself feel better […]
After playing video games for a while I decided to take a nap and I had a nightmare about my time in the hospital and I ended up waking everyone up with my screaming (I occasionally talk in my sleep) and my mother keeps bringing it up… I told myself that I would stop cutting but again I failed :p I suck but whatever. Hey at least I admit it! 🙂 Anyway I’ve decided to kill myself but I keep pushing it back. I don’t know when but I don’t want it to be spontaneous because then i’ll make a mistake and have […]
You are important and valuable. So priceless, that I want to spend my time on you. Please come talk to me. Nothing would delight me more. I have an ear perfect for listening. And lips always good for a smile. Or an encouraging word. Do not be shy. ^.^
In today’s life when one is thronged with worries and tensions all around, it is very difficult to maintain a positive attitude. And often the more you try and be positive, the more it seems the negative energy around you gains strength. So here are 7 ways to change our modus operandi, be positive and work towards a healthier lifestyle.
Do Not Wait for Happiness.
Do not wait for good things to happen to you. You need to work towards happiness. You need to create a happy environment around you today to remain happy tomorrow. This is called an attitude. If you adopt a positive attitude, […]
(i dont know why its upside down..) This is me. I may not be the prettiest person alive but here i am. I know im not pretty, i hear it everyday from everyone. even my own family. Im used to it. Call me whatever you want. Im a cutter. Im suicidal. This is who i am and nothings going to change that. Ive tried killing myself 8 times. my 8th attempt happened recently about a week ago when people at school started picking on me […]
I made you a promise.. I promised to tell somebody, to show them the cuts and scars. You promised that things would get a lot better if I did. In all honesty, I’m scared to. Why should I tell someone something that they’ll never understand? They won’t know what to do or how to react.. The idea of getting better really scares me. I haven’t felt “better” in so long that even if I do get better, I might not even realize I am.
I want to go where you went. I want to experience what you experienced. I need to go far away, I need […]
Don’t really know how this thing works, but it appealed to me.  Considering I have absolutely no true friends I didn’t know where else to turn.  Do you guys just feel like no one understands you?  I feel so embarrassed when I try to talk about my depression because all I get are remarks telling me to toughen up, that things will only get better and I have so much to live for.  But, I don’t want to live anymore.
I have absolutely no friends. Â My family…well my family and I have grown apart. Â And my parents are loving and all, but I can’t help but feel like […]
i decided to trust someone i know with what i feel, and now i don’t know if that was right. i don’t want her to tell anybody, she says she won’t but I’m still doubting. and I’m pretty sure she’s going to pity me from now on. do you think it was right to tell her..?