I dont know why, but i want to kill all the people around me.
Even my family, i love them but, i really want to kill them.
I dont know whats happening whit me, am i crazy?
I feel empty. More death that alive.
I cant feel anything. I not even smile or cry. I feel cold. Empty.
I have try anything. Doctors, medicine, therapy… nothing helps.
I just feel all this fucking needs of blood and death.
Can somebody help me? Please!?
Every morning when im wakeing up im still wondering why im still here.
My story.
Im been bullied hole my young life from my second grade to seventh grade.
I been beaten, called names, push around and much more. When i was 15 years old
i try to take my own life by drowning my self to river. I was in the river swiming couple
hours just around and around waiting my strenght to run out. Then i started to feel weak.
Then i sit to one rock and thinking now or never. I was thinking about alot of things
but i dunno enymore what make my mind to chance from the […]
Dont know how to start. Iam so tired of this life it have nothing for me i’m depressed and i have taken some treathment for it it helped a little when i was in hospital for 2 months. now there has just becom more things that makes me want to do suicide. I have once tried to do it with pills and i was almost death when my wife found me. Then i have been for spychiastrist for talking but it just wont help. The things what eat me inside is just too much to take care like when i married my wife all my […]
My life is the worst. Whatever i do i feel sad. And the thing is that im not supposed to! I have a great family, good grades, going to a high school that is the best in town, i have friends, people sometimes think im interesting and many people would say that i look just like a regular teenager. But… even though i have all that im suicidal. The thing is that i can’t find any joy whatsoever in my life. I hate school, i hate every subject, i hate watching TV, i hate playing games, i hate my friends, i hate all people at my school, i hate my […]
Well I ask you all. Is this world worth livng in anymore? I can’t find very many reasons for it to be. And I’m so young I should be enjoying life but instead I’m depressed andd looking for a way out. I’m to chiken to kill myself though. I don’t wanna die in pain. I want to die fast and not painfull. And I sure as hell don’t want to come back. Yes my parents and friends may miss me but they would have to understand I can’t handel it anymore. I’m not gonna go anywhere in life. I will probally become a drug addict […]
i just cant stand this anymore. every day when i wake up 1st thing on my mind is wish i could blow my brains out. its been like this for about 4 years. future to me seems like lonely, very boring, long and mentally painful and im just 19 years old. nothing i can achieve can make me happy. i know i will live my entire life alone and in this same state of mind as im now. now i have a meeting whit a psygologyst i wish he will give me some drugs i could take whit large amount of other drugs and alcohol […]
 I wish I could turn a clock and go back to the day before I was born. I wish I could make my mom and dad to change their minds and not have another child.
Now I am hanging here, trying to keep up whit life. I always end up crashing down. It´s funny that I know that I can never commit suicide but I´m thinking about death awfully lot.
I just wish that I could be someone else- someone who could just smile and be happy, someone who didn’t care that there is no sense on this world, someone who would just enjoy the fact of […]
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