Day and night I want to die. I think what do I have to offer ? My son would be better off without me my wife already left me and its not like my parents would really give a flying crap that there stepson died. I have spent three months looking for a job and 2 of those months I never got to see my son. everyday the words die die die, kill your self, there better off without you plays through my head like the Masters drums. it just keeps getting worse and no matter what meds the doctors give me its still there. […]
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My wife of 5 years left me about 2 weeks ago, out of the blue.
I take some responsibilities in light that I have anger issues. We had cyclical arguments in which I blew up every 6 months, and in my anger I lost my self. My wife has told me that she lives in fear because of this.
I thought I was making improvements… For example when I have temper outburst, I no longer make threatening gestures (only my tone of voice was escalated, and I had hostile look on my face). But she said enough is enough, she is not willing to give me any […]
I am 26 years old, and I’m married to the woman of my dreams, my high school sweetheart.
We’ve been married almost 3 years now, we have two kids ages one, and seven.. I have had a series of experiences in my life that I suppose have slowly eaten away at my innocence and I’ve managed to lose grasp on the good within me.
I use to be a very happy individual.. I was rarely ever in a bad mood or sad, and of those rare times my negative mood was usually influenced by an external source, someone unhappy with my choices or actions, or […]
I just turned 50 and have been married for 6 years on my second marriage. I lost my job due to a downturn in my industry 18 months ago and have been doing low paid work just to make ends meet since then. Basically my wage has been reduced by 75% and we are finding it hard to make ends meet. My wife married me when I was doing ok and now she has to work even harder herself and I cant give her any nice things or holidays like we used to. I don’t know when or if I will ever get back into […]
I wake up. I look at the clock. It’s 5:30 AM. My wife is asleep. My daughter has, at some time during the night, crawled into bed with us. My mother is out asleep on the couch. My head is ringing slightly, my neck and shoulders are tight, my stomach is tight to the point of nausea. I stare at the ceiling trying not to move. How can I get out of this bed without waking anyone, and slip downstairs to the garage? I know there’s a heavy duty extension cord sitting on the workbench. Nobody has picked it up and hidden it away yet. […]